This story starts right after the last episode. I've given Jordan the following background: He lives alone with his father, Gino, who lost his job almost 6 months ago. Gino doesn't deal with being unemployed very well and starts drinking. The only money earned for the household is what Jordan makes on his job at his uncles garage. He even manages to save a few dollars each month, that is father doesn't know about.

Dedicated to fellow MSC and 30 Seconds to Mars addict MayraLuz.

….how it ends and begins

"in the end, all you're left with is the beginning"

Chapter 1

"Stop the car!" Angela suddenly bursts out. Jordan jams the breaks, almost hitting his head on the steering wheel. "What the f…." He mumbles and turns to her with a confused look on his face. "I can't do this, I can't like deal with you right now…" She starts to get out of the car as she speaks. Jordan shuts down the engine and gets out as well, not thinking twice about the fact that his beloved car actually is in the middle of the street. "Angela, what…." "Just go, Jordan!" Angela refuses to look at him, and is obviously struggling to keep her voice calm. "But I…." He feels like all ability to speak more than two words together has been taken from him.

A few meters away, Brian Krakow is observing their every move with great interest. "Just go!" Angela raises her voice and starts to walk away. Brian looks at Jordan with a satisfied smirk on his face. "Looks like she doesn't want you after all, now go!" He says in a triumphant tone. Jordan just sighs and gets into the car. He certainly isn't in the mood for arguing with silly Krakow, and decides to go straight home and call Angela from there, maybe then she'll speak to him. There has to be an explanation for this, there has to be….

"Angela!" Brian runs after her, trying to grab her arm. She turns around looking at him with eyes full of anger and confusion. "Get lost Krakow! You're like so the last person I want to see right now. You've like ruined my life!" Angela shakes him off and runs past him up the stairs of her house, slamming the front door behind her.

"Angela?" Patty lifts her head from the newspaper she was reading, and looks at her oldest daughter with a surprised smile. "Were you not going out with Jordan? Did you forget something?" Angela just shakes her head and starts climbing the stairs to her room. "I need to be alone, please mum!" The doorbell and the phone rings almost at the same time. Patty gets up and answers. "Chase. Oh hello Jordan!" She really wants to ask him what had happened, but something in his voice tells her not to. "Can you hang on just a second, there's somebody at the door?" "Angela, Jordan's on the phone!" She shouts to her daughter, while opening the front door.

Brian is standing there with a concerned look. "I just came over to check on Angela, to see how she is doing after what that jerk Catalano did to her." He lies, but he knows it is probably the only way to get in. "Oh, ok, just go right up, Brian, she is in her room." "Angela, visitor!" She shouts. Patty picks up the phone again. "Jordan, sorry to keep you waiting…." There's no one at the other end. "You better not tell Angela he called, she'll only get more upset." Brian says. "I'll go talk to her now." He runs up the stairs and enters Angelas room without knocking. She's lying flat on her back on the bed, looking at the ceiling. "Brian?" She jumps up, her eyes darken in anger, but not before he catches a glimpse of the sadness in them. For a moment he feels guilty. Then she starts yelling at him. "What are you doing here? Don't you know that it's polite to like knock before you enter somebodys room?" "But I just wanted to see how you were doing…" "Like you care! Don't make me laugh…. I hate you! No, wait, I don't…" At this point a small smile is starting to form in Brians face, but it quickly fades as Angela continues. "…I like….nothing you! You used me, and you used Jordan, and I already told you I don't want you here! Now leave!" She's crying now, but stands up and starts pushing Brian towards the door.

Jordan still has the phone in his hand. He had heared everything Brian had said, and frankly he felt like he was going to be sick. The thought of Brian and Angela together makes him sad and jealous at the same time. It is obvious what this is all about: Angela must have discovered the truth about the letter. Jordan could kill himself for not coming clean at once. He had started to tell her, but she had interrupted him, and she had looked so happy. He just couldn't bring himself to remove the sparks in her beautiful eyes, besides, he whispers to himself, it's not like I didn't mean what was in the letter, I meant every little part of it. When I first read it, it felt so right, it was exactly what I wanted to say, I just don't know all the big and fancy words that Brian does. How was I supposed to know that Brian was merely using me to express his own feelings towards Angela.

"I can't loose her! I just can't!" Jordan mumbles to himself as he leaves his room to go get started on dinner. He doesn't get far….

So...what do you think? I can't wait to hear ;) This first chapter is kind of an introduction. MSCL is the best!