FEAR- rewrite
Summary: After Naruto makes a mistake, Sasuke discovers Naruto may not be what he seems. The sunny attitude is a façade hiding a dark secret. As Sasuke unravels Naruto's mysteries he becomes increasingly attracted to the young blond. Will Naruto cast aside the mask he worn to protect himself for Sasuke's love or will he turn away. And does anyone truthfully know the real Naruto?
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto… Damn
Warning: AU. Much out of character. YAOI meaning boy X boy, violence, cursing, mentions of rape, some abuse and sexual situations. Mention of suicidal tendencies. And couple of my own characters.
A/N: Tsunade and Jiraiya killed Orochimaru and returned (A strangely willing) Sasuke, two years ago. Sasuke has regained the villagers' trust, but the friends he once took for granted are now distant (Including Naruto).
Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto (Main), Lee/Tenten, Neji/Sakura, Kakashi/Iruka and Shikamaru/Kiba
Ages: Naruto (16), Chouji (16), Hinata (16), Sasuke (17), Sakura (17), Shikamaru (17), Kiba (17), Shino (17), Ino (18), Tenten (18), Lee (18), Neji (18), Gaara (18), Temara (19), Kankuro (20), Itachi (27), Iruka (29), Kakashi (36), Jiraiya (57) and Tsunade (58)
A/N: Sorry guys, but I scraped the original FEAR and rewrote a better version in my opinion…
"Blah" – Speaking
Blah – Thinking
Blah – Kyuubi talking
Blah – Kyuubi thinking
CHAPTER ONE-
NARUTO'S ramblings:
If I died would anyone care? For all my life I was the foremost subject of hate, rejection and abuse. My existence in a mental perspective was unhealthy. A child bombarded with verbal and physical abuse in addition to an already unstable mind was a cruelty beyond imagination. Oh how much will power it took to stay my hands from the temptation of the final release, suicide. Oh how my thoughts wondered a sharp pain and then the ultimate release. Nay I stood firm, but my will withers with every hateful gesture imparted upon me. I am slowly dying.
Perhaps that is the reason I live two lives, to save my sanity. I my solitary abode I am the hidden genius and insecure child. But when I leave my haven I become a lie. A lie I sometimes cannot distinguish from fact and fancy. I play two very different people and at times I loose myself in the act. Now the question has become… 'Who am I really?' The broken genius or the dense idiot? Two polar opposites, yet the same coin.
PRESENT TIME
It was fall; the leaves had turned their various hues, a brisk wind shook their limp forms. One could see his or her breath in the air. Uzumaki Naruto, smiled as the wind whipped his chin length locks about his face, teal eyes turned into two U(s). Naruto, a sixteen-year-old Churnin had grown up in more ways than one, but his appearance had been the most drastic.
Gone was his rough spiky hair, now replaced by silky wavy golden blond. His skin has taken a honey tone. His eyes (while still large) were angled. Full cherry lips, high cheekbones and lean cat-like face accentuated the natural beauty of his heart.
He was still short, but lean and toned. Very effeminate in a way; His shoulders while broad, were thin, not like those of an average man. He had small hips, a tight ass, thin, but muscular legs, a graceful long, yet masculine neck and long delicate looking fingers. He was the very epitome of masculine beauty, yet he refused to give into the new found powers his looks presented him.
No, he maintained the appearance of an oblivious idiot to those heated stares, those comments, those opportunities others took to touch, to look or speak to him. He acted oblivious to his stalkers; it was easy for it was all an act.
Yes… ladies and gentlemen, the loud mouth # 1 ninja at surprising people, the dobe and baka was all an act. Hell, even his name was a masquerade. His real name was Kazama Naruto, son of the Yondaime Arashi. His mother was still unknown. His lineage was hidden at his request. Why you might ask? Well my friend, I shall reveal it to you now. It began nine years ago, when Naruto was only seven years old.
FLASH BACK
The Hokage sat in the chair next to a heavily bandaged Naruto. It was two days after his birthday and a crowd of drunks had run ramped, chasing the poor boy throughout the village, cornering him they attempted to kill him and one had managed to rape him before the ANBU interfered. Since then the boy had been unconscious in the hospital. The Hokage sat there waiting for the poor child to awaken. He dreaded the reaction this bright sunny child would have towards the information he would reveal, but it was for his own protection. The child began to stir. An eyelid flicker open and then closed.
"Hey old man!" Said Naruto in a harsh voice, his throat still sore from screaming.
"Naruto I need to tell you—"
"If it's about the Kyuubi… I already know." Naruto said bluntly.
"How?" Asked a distraught Hokage.
"It doesn't take a genius to put all the pieces together and I've been able to talk to the giant fur ball since I was four."
"Fur ball?"
Naruto chuckled "He hates it when I call him that. Anyways old man Kyuubi and I made up a plan to let's say tone down these attacks."
"Oh?"
"Yeah. It can be reasoned that they are scared of the power within me, but to appear less threatening, I shall be less of a threat."
"How do you intend to do that?"
"To be less threatening, I must be everything I'm not."
END OF FLASH BACK
Sasuke's POV
I stood on the bridge waiting for my two former teammates. Kakashi had manipulated them into coming every off day to train with him. He had lured Naruto with the promise of new ninjutsus. While Sakura came to keep an eye on my interaction with Naruto, Sakura had become over protective of Naruto. She could be compared to a paranoid mother hen and held an illogical hatred towards me. Well actually it was logical. After all I had tried to kill Naruto.
However little did anyone know (well except Tsunade-sama), that Naruto was the main reason I returned without hesitation. Now I bet you're thinking that I'm desperately in love with him. While, I am gay (much to the displeasure of the council who want the Uchiha clan revived), I only value Naruto as the most precious person in my life, but not in any sexual perspective. Naruto was always there for me, supporting and caring for me when I blatantly rejected and belittled him. I never knew the reason why and I am still too uncomfortable to ask. Unfortunately upon my return, while Naruto was warm and caring to me… he was distant.
In Naruto's presence old acquaintances were cordial to me, but outside of this they were cold and tended to ignore me. My fan girl population had dwindled not that I minded much. Amusingly Naruto's had gained many of my fan club. Puberty had been kind to him and it had been to me. But while I had lost my innocence, he had not. His naïve personality was compelling in itself… but god did his appearance change for the better. I did not just think that.
Back to business, I came to the bridge to see Naruto. I did not see him much any more. Bizarrely I couldn't even keep track of him. Of course he was still the dobe messing up in fights and creating havoc… yet when he wanted to he could disappear. It was bizarre.
I saw him approaching the bridge absentmindedly, a smile I was unaccustomed too played on his lips. I stared… seeing this smile it felt some how dare I say it… 'Real'.
Deciding that there was something off about Naruto and wanting further information, I jumped into a tree and concealed my chakra. Walking up to the bridge he glanced around warily and then casually leaned over the bridge staring at his reflection. This in itself hackled my suspicions. I would image Naruto to begin to fidget and be aggravatingly loud, perhaps cursing us out for being late. However, there he was his whole posture and silence screamed of humility, patience, contentment and a peaceful bliss. I watched as he hoped down onto the water channeling chakra onto his feet so he would float on top.
He leaned casually over and trailed his fingers through the water making it ripple. He smiled and then whispered, "Like ripples in a peaceful pool my life is a matter of subtly change. One seemingly unrelated event could perpetuate into my demise. One choice, one word, one smile its all a matter of effect and consequence. But one can control these ripples by casting their own dice. The life is a gamble and the pool is survival. Once I would play for play for death, but now I mean to fight for survival. It's a matter of choices and changes." He smiled bitterly "But there are many who wish and seek my demise."
Sasuke was shocked, when had the dobe become so profound. Suddenly Naruto jumped back onto the bridge with an inhuman grace. Moments later Sakura came in view. "Oi, Naruto!" Sakura yelled joyfully waving her hand in greeting.
"She really is annoying time has not changed that." Naruto muttered under his breath shocking Sasuke once again. He wiped his wet fingers on his pants. "Sakura-Chan, will you go on a date with me?" Naruto asked jumping up and down.
"No, Naruto!" Sakura said smiling, now know it was more of a habit than an actual request. She bopped him gently on the head, but he still rubbed it anyways whimpering.
Sasuke decided he'd better make a subtle entrance now. He quickly backed off a few yards down the path, which lead to bridge from his house's direction. He unmasked his chakra and strolled towards the bridge ponder on all that had transpired as he watched Naruto. Sasuke made it silently to the bridge and took his usual position seemingly brooding about his brother's demise, but his mind now struggled to wrap itself around the fact that Naruto the oblivious dobe had secrets. Secrets that he hid so well.