Bright Stars!

BELLA

1. Worries ,Confusion, and questions

The next morning I got dressed in the enormous closet Alice had given Edward and I.

Alice.

How I had grieved when she left,but she was back now and, in actuality, she had saved my daughter's life. If she ahd not gathered Huilen and hr nephew Nahuel i would be grieving right now. Either over never seeing Renessme again or her death.

I didn't want to think about any of that right now. It was safe. For awhile anyway.

However I did want to know about this J Jenks man. Even though I had asked Jasper, or Mr. jasper as J. would ahvecalled him, he didn't give me an outstanding explanation. I wondered why J. had been so anxious, more like scared, of Jasper. Maybe he'd seen the scars on Jasper's arm, or was it just his facial expressions at the time. Then I realized,Jasper would have had complete control over J.'s emotions the entire time, or while they were in the same room at least. This brought up a new question... why would Jasper want J. to be afraid of him?

When I was done getting dressed i decided to go and get Renessme. She had a lot put on her shoulders yesterday in the clearing with the volturi. You could see i her eyes that she wanted to believe that it would be ok, that everything would work out. But she couldn't. Now she could believe what she couldn't yesterday. She could believe the truly unbelievable.

When I reached Renessme's room she was staring out her window watching he snow fall. Lightly hitting the ground. I pondered on this for a moment. She hadn't gotten a chance to really enjoy the snow yet. Just because I hated the snow didn't mean that she shouldn't have the chance to build a snowman or make a snow angel. She finally noticed that I was standing in her doorway. She smiled at me. Her little joyous,precious smile.

"Morning"I said in an all to peppy tone.

"Good morning" she said. She didn't sound upset, but maybe she's just a good liar like her father. I went to sit beside her on the side of her bed. She maneuvered herself so that I was holding her.

"Do you want to show me?" I asked seeing in her eyes that she did.

She nodded and pressed her hand against my cheek. I was right. She was confused, worried, had so many questions. As did I. I wasn't so much worried as confused. Did we really get away with that? Were we really that lucky to get what we wanted?

She showed me how relived she was when she was in her bed here at the cottage. Then she began to dream. It was what I would have expected from her dreams. Bright neon flashing colors along with the faces of people that she had met recently. Then the scenery changed. Into the scene of the , Caius,and Marcus all towering over her, a wild fire roaring in the backround where Edward and had just been burned. And next to the fire was a large alpha wolf. Dead. A lifeless Jacob.

As much as I hated to interrupt her I had to. I pulled her hand of my cheek.

"Yeah, that's where I woke up too" she sighed.

"I'm sorry" I said. I truly was. How could I interrupt her like that when she was sharing something so internaly deep with me.

"I shouldn't of-" she pressed her soft fingers against my lips cutting me of mid sentence.

"No." she protested."It was a very bad thing."

"Certainly"I said agreeing with the obvious. How could someone so happy and cheerful think up something so horrid?

"Let's go see daddy" I said trying to return to the peppy voice I had when I first came in.

"Yeah" she said in her thrilling voice.

I picked her up out of her bed and she stretched and yawned. I held her hands up and helped her toddle down the hallway. She was so precious. I didn't know when her growing would slow down and at the moment I didn't really care, but I had wondered. What would Renessme be like when she was 12 or 13?

She would be graceful like Alice, always gliding instead of walking. She would be gorgous like Rosalie, the absolute envy of every girl. She would win people over instantly like Jasper, but it wouldn't be because of a special talent. She would have a great sense of humor like Emmett, weather I liked it or not. And that sense of humor would come tons of sarcasm and wise cracks, like Jacob. But most importantly she would be absolutely, positively all around wonderful. Like Edward.

When we reached the front room Edward was also in deep thought with a serious expression on his face. When he realized we were standing there he turned to look at us and smiled an insanely huge smile. Bigger than I had ever seen on him. He had gotten what he had wanted. To hear my thoughts. For the first time ever. I had always been so fortunate to be the single person who's thought he could not hear. That was gone now. But he was happy...and that was all that mattered.

"Good morning" he said scooping up Renessme and kissing my forehead.

"Morning" I said failing to match his joyous tone.

Renessme just sighed. Edward looked at me and I nodded knowing what he was thinking.

"Do you want to show me?" he asked her as I had earlier. She sighed again then nodded."You don't have to" he said. He was good about that. Letting her have the option to be able to keep thongs private as where I wanted to know absolutely anything and everything she had to tell.

She smiled a weak smile. " No daddy I really want to" she said. I didn't like this the whole me not being able to tell when she was lying and when she was telling the truth. It must have been the truth. Edward nodded and she pressed her hand against his cheek.

He lasted longer than I did. I could tell when he saw the scene in the clearing. A look of horror crossed his face. This somewhat pleased me. Not in a I'm glad this makes him sick way, but more in a I'm glad he cares about Jacob nowway. I had wondered if Edward was ever jealous of Jacob. Sure he loved Renessme, of course he was her father, but Jacob had bonded more with her.

She pulled her hand off of his face. He smiled at her as most people did after Renessme showed them her talent. "No" he said answering a question I hadn't made it to. She started to cry and burried her face in Edward's chest.

"What?" I asked feeling somewhat stupid.

"She wanted to know if the volturi would be back soon" he answered patting down Renessme's hair trying to calm her down. She started to settle down. If I could have cried I would 've been. I was happy to know that the Volturi wouldn't be bothering us for a while but I was worried to not know how long "a while" was. We soon after decided to go back to the house. I needed to get out of here for a little while.

I needed Alice. Her annoying peppiness, her voice which was sometimes sickening it was so high, her pixie like features. That was what I needed right now. Even though we were in no rush Renessme wanted to run. So we "raced" home letting her win. She was thrilled, which made me happy, which made Edward happy.

When we came home, usually, Jacob would be there. But he wasn't today. I was hopeing that he was either in school or sleeping. Since I knew he couldn't be awake and without Renessme, I knew he was sleeping. Good! I had felt so guilty taking him away from his school work and pretty soon he would need a bell boy for all the bags under his eyes. I hated that he had imprinted Renessme. Not that I could blame him, I wasn't as mad at him as I was at the imprinting itself. Thinking of him brought back the memory now had gotten from Renessme. I shudderd at the thought as immediately tyring to get it out of my head.

Whenwe got inside Alice was thrilled to see us. I knew she would be like this since she hadn't gotten enough time to celebrate yesterday. I got what I needed. She came over and hugged and kissed me on both cheeks and gave Edward a one-armed hug. Then she did something picked up Renessme.I thougt Renesseme had given her headaches, or maybe that was just a part of the act. "How are we today?" she asked Renessme in her brightest tone. Renessme just smiled thrilled that Alice accepted her. I could tell that Alice truly did like Renessme, but was just annoyed by her own powers.

I looked at Edward and he had a really confused look on his face. So then she wasn't kidding about the headaches. He saw me looking at him and nodded.

"Um, Bella ,love, can I speak to in private?" He asked as if he had just thought of it.

"Of course" I replied still in awe by Alice playing with Renessme like she had always done it.

We went upstairs to his room. He walked in slammed the door and locked it.

"Something's wrong" he said sounding worried. "What?" I asked tyring to find the harm in Alice getting over her headaches. "Alice is thinking in Korean sign-language again." As she did when something was wrong. "Why?" I asked. Stupid question. If Alice would have been thinking normally if she wanted Edward to know why. "I don't know." he said. "She drives me insane when she does this. It's almost as bad as when I couldn't read your mind." He said as a huge grin streched across his face remembering when he had first read my thoughts last night. "Well maybe you should learn Korean sigh-language." I laughed. "But you don't have to guess what I'm thinking anymore." I said as I pressed my hands against his cheek. I stared to think about last night. His excitement from earlier this morning came back. He started to kiss me again frustrating himself interrupting me again. We were interrupted when I heard Jacob come in down stairs. "Come on." I said wanting to talk to him and Alice for that matter. 'Wait," he said forgetting to tell me something. "we have to let Alice come to us with what ever it may be. If we ask her she'll get frustrated and just want to hide it even more from us." "Ok." I said quickly wanting to get down stairs.

When we got down stairs Jacob was throwing Renessme playfully in the air. She enjoyed that, her joyous laughs filling the room. "Hey Bells." he said brightly, my own personal sunshine. "Dang you are here." I said not happy about the fact that he was here rather than sleeping. "Wow I feel so welcome here." He sat down. Renessme was out of breath from laughing so hard. 'You know what I mean." I said knowing that he did know.

"Bella I told you, don't stress out about it. This was my choice and nothing you say or do can change that." He did sound sincere. "Fine." I said knowing that when I woke up tomorrow I would still feel the guilt that I felt when I woke up this morning.

"Jacob can I talk to you" a voice said."Um sure." Jacob said sounding just as confused as I felt. I knew they were friends sure, but why? "In private." The same voice said. "Uh...ok?" Jacob said taking Renessme off his lap and sitting her on the couch. Alice and Jacob walked out and were off to talk in private.

Why?