AUTHOR"S NOTES: After almost a week, I decide to go back to write something, I think i became depressed after watching so many sad movies, I think I would need to research more about the story since this is the first time I won;t use Tokyo as my setting, I was thinking what if Shingyouji will learn to be independent without Misu on his side. This story would more focus on Shingyouji instead of the pair his hardships trials, people who would take interest in him and who would make his life a living hell (not totally) I will just first post the first chapter then would keep on updating once I have time.
After finishing college in the University, Shingyouji is now ready to face his new future, like what Gii and Misu had recommended him; he tried to apply for a job in New York since they know how Shingyouji had achieved in his college days and Giii would like also the young man to be part of his company, but he still need to give his credits and resume. Shingyouji excited waits for the response and one day in their apartment the mail arrives for Shingyouji he hurriedly get it and opened it while Misu is eating his breakfast.
"Arata-san the mail finally arrived; I hope this brings good new."
"Don't be too excited, Saki already assured you a place there."
Shingyouji ignored his older lover and opened the envelope. Upon reading it his eyes got wide upon the contents of the paper.
Shingyouji-Kanemitsu,
We are glad to tell you upon seeing your résumé and credits we would like to tell you that we'll be giving you a slot to be part of the Saki Corporation, you'll go under training for 2 years and we'll be the one to arrange all your fees coming here in America. We'll look forward having you to our Company. Inside this envelope is your ticket going to New York, Gii, Takumi will leave in a week.
Saki-Ryouichi
"Arata-san I'll go to New York I…." Shingyouji's joy was cut when he saw his lover being quiet. The young man went near him to see if he is okay.
"I am happy for you; after all I was the one who told Saki to give you this opportunity."
"Anou what if you'll come with us, I mean you can have your practice in America as well I do want you to be with me because if not I'll just decline this offer and tell Saki-senpai to just stay here in Japan with you."
"You will do that Shingyouji?" Misu asked him.
"That's how I love you Arata-san." Says Shingyouji as he leaned to kiss his lover in his lips. As he get up to change his clothes. Misu suddenly took something out of his pocket which is a letter he never told to his lover and crumpled it.
If Shingyouji will stay everything he done will be wasted I guess it's time….
As the young man is finishing fixing their beds, Misu entered and approached his young lover.
"Shingyouji how about we spent this whole week together like, go to amusement park, or museum or even in a beach for at least two days." Misu suddenly said to him.
"Eh?"
"You don't want to?"
"I'm just surprised you're not that type of person who would ask me out suddenly."
"Just say yes."
"Yes I will." Shingyouji smiled at his lover and hugged him.
Misu and Shingyouji enjoy the week, they go to the amusement park where the older man bought him lots of stuff toy he won in games and, visit the planetarium which made the young man delighted and within the remaining days they went on a beach and just happily spend the time together without Shingyouji knowing what's on the mind of his older lover. Upon returning on their apartment Shingyouji exhausted from the trip sleep soundly while Misu just keeps staring at him.
It was 5am Shingyouji turns around to and got awake when he notice Misu is not beside him, he suddenly saw him preparing a luggage.
"Arata-san?"
"Get dress we're going for a trip."
Shingyouji, curious but excited decide to dress up and follow the older man outside. As they both entered the car, Shingyouji suddenly notice it was all the suitcase that was inside the car has his names label on it.
"You're on the 7am to New York. Saki and Hayama will meet you there and they're gonna help you look for your own apartment. You're gonna spend 2 years of your life there and you've never even set foot in the place. Here's your money so you can start there for now, mother and father ask me to give these to you." Misu said to him looking at his confused lover.
"But I already told you if you won't go with me I'll stay here."
"I want to be with you so badly I can't go through with it. The thought of you being stuck here for because of me, that makes me sick." Misu told him.
"Then come with me! Okay? We can live together in New York and live in a little shoe box apartment together. Saki-senpai and Hayama-san will be with us isn't it romantic?"
"Do you love me?" Misu suddenly asked him.
"Of course I do ever since highschool."
"Then tell me the truth and not just something you think I want to hear. Are you 100% sure that you just want to be with me?"
"No one is 100% sure of anything. But I know you are the only one for me." Shingyouji told Misu
"I am that sure you're something special. That this is just the beginning for you. I never say it every day but I know you are."
"Wait a minute." The young man seems to know now what was his lover is intending to do.
"That you're going to do amazing things. But to get there, you got to have these experiences on your own." Misu holding the young man's hand, as his lover is now in tears.
"I—I don't know what you're talking about."
"I can't have to be there with you." says Misu.
"No! Wait! Are you breaking up with me?" Shingyouji said to him almost breaking down.
"I'm setting you free."
"Oh my God!"
"Do you know how hard this is for me? How many times I've tried to not to cry about this?"
"No! I'm not going. I'm not going, not without you." The young man told him as he tried to get out of the car but Misu stopped him.
"You don't have a choice. I can't come with you." Misu firmly told his younger lover.
"Well then I'll stay here …or I'll go wherever it is that you're going!"
"I'll go to Korea, I had intended to become an Army Medical Corps officer, where I intend to help wounded soldier."
"Oh my god! Wait a minute. You're joining the Army? Are you insane? You can get killed Arata-san I can't believe that this is happening now!"
"It's one of the places I knew you couldn't follow me. Look, you're going to get on that plane. Okay? And you're going to go to New York...And you're going to be successful...Without me. That's how much I love you. You know what we're going to do? Surrender. I know how hard that is for you because of how hard you hold on to stuff … But we're just going to sit here and we're just going to let go and let the universe do its thing and if we're meant to be together, then we're going to be together. Whether it's in a little shoe box apartment in New York or on the other side of the world. Okay? Will you do that for me? Will you surrender?"
Shingyouji cried harder and embraced his lover tightly.
"Arata-san I love you so much."
"You just don't know much I feel for you."
As Shingyouji is still in tears Misu started the engine and directly go to Narita airlines, Misu called his former rival to tell him that they are on their way to Narita airport. As they arrived there the young man is still motionless and did not dare to move. Misu grabbed him and forcefully let him move. As they reached the place Gii and Hayama are already waiting for them. Misu and Shingyouji are still not talking to each other but they steal a few glances, finally on the P.A system their attention are called as they need to board now on the plane. Misu told Gii to take care of Shingyouji while he's staying there.
"Shingyouji, be careful and don't talk to people you don't know ok?"
Shingyouji just nodded not answering his lover. Misu decides to ignore and turn his back and decide to leave the airport, as the young man seeing his lover going away he drops his luggage and shouted Misu's name.
"Arata-san!"
Shingyouji runs to him and hugs him one more time; the older man kissed him in his cheeks and give him something.
"Here take it."
"This is…"
"I was planning to propose to you after you graduate but I guess we'll leave it pending for now, I want you to wear this so that when you feel lonely just look at it and think that I am always there for you."
"I'll never said goodbye."
Misu finally walks away, trying to stop the tears from his face, this will be the first time he will not have the young man beside him, he won't show it to him for many years but he really did love Shingyouji and as possessive as he is he decide to set him free like a bird so that he would be able to have his dreams come true.
Inside the plane as they are ready to take off, Shingyouji keeps on crying with Hayama and Gii to comfort him.
"Nee Shingyouji, don't cry 2 years will be fast, you'll realize he'll just be there or when you get back to Tokyo everything will be back to normal."
"I know I just…"
"Shingyouji, he set you free because he loves you, though he was used to seeing you devoted to him, he realized how to put his selfishness in place."
Shingyouji is looking at the window, seeing the clear sky made him at least a little happy, this will be the first time he will not totally with Misu, compared to the time when he had waited for him to graduate Shidou to be together with his lover. Shingyouji will now learn to face the world alone without seeing him even once, not knowing what would lie ahead in his future once he set foot on an unfamiliar place.
To know who I am before I know who I wanna be and faith to take chances to live like I see a place in this world for me...
Sorry about the first one I kind of rush it since i need to know more things about the setting I will be using, I choose New York because I dream to go there, the only question is how can Shingyouji can cope up this will be the first time no Misu-Arata that would be with him and now that they decide to be in the different dide of the world where meeting even in special occasion would exist reviews are appreciated and thank you! ^^