Chapter 1: (told in Donghae's point of view)

I didn't mean for it to happen. I'm just glad that it did! It's just…I guess I let my feelings get the best of me. I tell myself that it happened that day, but really I think it started long before that, and grew over a long period of time into something I could no longer control. And once it was out, it taunted my brain and heart 24/7 and there was nothing I could do. But, after that, I just couldn't help myself.

Like I said, it sort of all started that day…

"Come on. I need to get out of here for a little while," he said, taking my arm and pulling me off the couch and towards the door of our dorms. I tried to pull my arms away but I was pretty weak compared to his tight grip.

"What's the matter?" I asked as he let me stop to put my shoes on. "And where exactly are we going?"

He slipped into his sweatshirt in one swift, skillful motion and shrugged. "I'll tell you after," he said, pulling me again out the door, my own sweatshirt barely clinging to my body. It wasn't even cold out, in fact it was the middle of summer, but we still brought sweatshirts in case of a cold night.

"You still didn't tell me where we're going," I said, breaking the awkward silence that was filling his car as we drove to…well, wherever he was taking us.

"Just out," he said, pulling into a park on the outskirts of the town. I raised my eyebrow in confusion. I had never seen this place before, which was strange, because I thought I knew all about the town's secret hangouts.

He slipped out of the driver's seat and into the afternoon air, leading me to do the same from my seat on the passenger's side. I stepped out and stared around the park in confusion. It was more like an open forest with a path where people, or sometimes maybe…couples, could go and just take a nice, long, relaxing walk. I looked in Eunhyuk's direction and he, ignoring my questioning expression, beckoned for me to follow him towards a path no one seemed to be taking.

We walked in silence for a few minutes, the sunlight blocked by the abundant branches and trees, making everything darker and more…romantic? No, not romantic, just…darker.

"So what's the matter?" I finally asked, trying to erase the awkwardness that was usually never between us. We were, after all, best friends. I'd never felt so awkward with him in my life.

"Just Heechul. Being a diva again. Usually I can handle it but…sometimes he just drives me crazy. I just needed to get out, and I needed someone here with me. Sorry if I interrupted something," he explained trying to meet my gaze.

I scoffed, avoiding his eyes. Why? I wasn't really sure. I'm positive now, but at the time it just felt awkward.

But anyway, yea, I scoffed. "Yea, interrupted me trying to watch TV while Kyuhyun and Sungmin made out right next to me-loudly I may add! I mean they share a room for a reason!" I said, finally making him smile that gummy smile I loved so much. Wait, what? I didn't love his smile, it was just nice to see him smile. Yea, that's it.

"Well then I guess we just both needed to get out of there for a while," he said, nudging my shoulder, making my breathing freeze for a split second. Luckily he didn't notice, but I sure did. What was going on? And what the hell was wrong with my heartbeat?

I tried to act normal as we continued our walk. It was starting to get really warm out, even though the sky was just very slowly getting darker. It was just in the middle of summer, just when Hyukkie liked it the most. I could tell he wanted - needed something fun to do, and now.

"Hey," I whispered, leaning in close. What do you say we head you know wheret?" I smirked and I knew he knew what I was thinking.

"You know where" was our place where we always met, kind of like our spot. It was like a little lake, secluded by a bunch of trees in a swamp on the other side of town. Although I guess "little lake" it a bit of an understatement. We discovered its actually deep enough that it's a couple feet over his head, which is a lot for me, seeing that he's taller than me.

He smiled another gummy smile, making my stomach flutter for a second - no, that's not it, it was something I ate making it do that, yea of course - and we raced back to his car, him reaching it before me thanks to his long, lean, flexible legs. What, what? His legs weren't that good-looking…

We pulled up into our secret parking spot right near the water and smiled as we jumped right our of the car like little kids, practically taking our seatbelts with us. We took off our sweatshirts and smiled at the disgustingly dirty water in front of us, ready to just jump in in a few minutes.

This was one of the best things about coming here with him. We got to get ourselves dirty, disgusting, soaked, and not give a shit what could happen, because we knew no one ever came here. And there was always showers to wash off the grime.

I thought I was finally feeling better and getting out of this…funk I was stuck in, but then I turned just as Hyuk tore off his t-shirt, revealing his toned abs and six pack. I almost choked on air as he seemed to be moving swiftly in slow motion. Yea, I know that makes no sense, which completely describes how I was feeling.

For a second I thought he noticed my staring - no, I wasn't staring, merely admiring - because I swear I saw him blush, but before I could tell, he was jumping into the water, splashing a bit of the swamp on my shirt, which I really didn't mind. I meekly took off my t-shirt as well, suddenly feeling self-conscious about my not-as-toned abs and pack-less stomach in front of him. But wait, we've done this a thousand times, we've seen each other naked before, for Christ's sake! (of course all those times had been accidents) But why was I so nervous all of a sudden? Nothing about these feelings made any sense!

"You coming, or what?" I heard him call, snapping me back to reality. I smiled before ignoring my feelings the best I could and letting loose, jumping into the water in a cannonball that splashed the gross water all over the place and most likely would've disturbed anyway who might've been near. I heard him laugh that laugh that I'd always loved - liked about him, making me laugh with him, it was that contagious.

After a few more minutes of, well, the two of us being idiots, I realized that there are two different kinds of Eunhyuks. There's the one from earlier, at the dorms, who was quiet, shy, keeping in all of his feelings from his hyungs and dongsaengs, and then there's this Eunhyuk, the one who was loud, occasionally obnoxious (which I didn't mind one bit), who knew he could be himself in front of me, who told me everything. That's another thing I loved - I mean liked about him...why did I keep mixing those two words up? What...?

Suddenly, everything just seemed to get quieter, and the awkwardness slowly started to flood back. Not being able to keep my eyes away from him for this long, I snuck a glance in his direction, only to be surprised with locking eyes with him. My heartbeat increase faster than I could ever remember in my life, before my senses returned and I somehow got the strength to tear my eyes away from his captivating orbs. What had just happened? It hadn't been the first time we had looked each other in the eyes, so why had that time been different?

My heart rate slowed and I looked at him again, but his expression showed no recollection of what had just happened, but he did look a little different. Before I could say anything, he was giving me an evil smile.

"Want to see who can stay under the longest?" he said, still smirking devilishly. Who said Kyuhyun was the only evil one?

"No!" I whined, splashing at him. "You always win!"

He smiled again "That's the point!" he stated before giving me the pout that he knew always convinced me to do whatever he wanted.

I finally gave in and the two of us went under at the same time, like always. As usual, I lasted about thirty seconds before my tiny lungs couldn't handle it anymore and my head bobbed back to the surface.

I looked around and discovered he, not surprisingly, was still under. I smiled to myself, knowing he would last a lot longer than I did. He once stayed under there for 2 full minutes! I leaned on the squishy ground where the water and land met, and waited for him to return, pumping his fists triumphantly, rubbing it in my face with arrogance.

I closed my eyes for a few minutes before I realized how long it been. I looked at my watch. It had been six minutes...

And he still wasn't up yet.

(A/N: So yea it's a little bit of a long chapter but hey that's how I roll :) Don't worry, more to come. Review please! Don't hold back on the negativity!)