A/N: this isn't one of my best stories but i got the idea and i had to write it then i decided to post it. plus my school doesn't have any heat so we got out early and i got to finish this. in this whole story the episode "i married an alien" never happened. i dunno if Isabel told Jesse about Alex yet but in this she hasn't.
There's been an accident. Alex is dead." the voice of Sheriff Valenti said. When he said this Isabel let out a piercing scream that would damage your eardrums.
Isabel sat up quickly in her bed breathing heavily. She looked over at the clock, it said 5AM. It was going to be a long day for Isabel Ramirez.
Jesse sat up next to her. "Isabel? Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. You should go back to bed you have to be in court today." Isabel reassured him. Though, she wasn't really reassuring herself. She layed back down in her bed and slowly drifted back to towards he nightmares.
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An hour later Isabel woke up, got dressed, and began to try and make breakfast.
"Good morning, Isabel." Jesse said as he walked into the kitchen and kissed her cheek.
"I wouldn't exactly say good." Isabel mumbled under her breath.
"What did you say?" Jesse asked giving her a strange look.
"Good morning! I said good morning." Isabel said nervously putting on a fake smile.
"So what are you doing today?" Jesse asked her sitting down at the kitchen table.
"After my classes I'm going to the Crashdown because Liz, Maria and I have to plan Kyle's birthday party." Isabel said as she tried to flip the pancake she was cooking.
"Oh right his birthday is tomorrow." Jesse said as he took a sip of orange juice.
"Yeah" Isabel sighed.
"Why did you guys want to throw him a surprise party again?" Jesse questioned.
"Um. . . well last year we all kinda forget it was his birthday and we want to make it up to him." Isabel said sadly as she put down two pancakes on Jesse's plate.
"How could you forget one of your best friend's birthdays?" Jesse asked with a laugh.
Why does he keep asking questions?
Isabel thought. "Well. . . uh. . . it's kind of a long story. A story I really don't want to talk about""Okay well when you do feel like taking I'm always here." Jesse said a little hurt that she wouldn't talk to him. "I gotta go. I'll seeya later today" He kissed Isabel goodbye and left the house.
Isabel looked around the kitchen. She didn't feel like cleaning up, and she didn't feel like going to her classes. All she wanted to do was crawl back into bed and stay there all day, but she knew she would have nightmares if she did.
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Isabel decided to hang out at the Crashdown all day. Max and the rest of her friends didn't have school because the teachers had meetings all day.
"Hey, Iz" Liz said when Isabel walked into the Crashdown.
"Hi" Isabel said as she sat down at the counter resting her chin on her hand.
"Are you okay?" Maria asked.
"I'm fine. What about you guys?" Isabel asked them.
"We're okay." Maria said.
"Yeah," Liz agreed, "But I still can't believe it's been a year since. . ."
"Please don't say it. This morning has been bad enough." Isabel protested.
"Sorry." Liz apologized. "So you haven't said anything about Alex to Jesse?"
"No." Isabel said. "Other than my alien secret that's the only thing I haven't told him."
"Iz, maybe you should tell him." Maria suggested.
"I don't know. I'm not sure I'm ready to tell that story right now." Isabel explained.
"Oh." That was all Maria could think of saying in response to that.
"So are we gonna plan a surprise party for Kyle or are we just gonna sit here all day." Liz said changing the subject.
"Yeah, let's start planning before it gets too late and he's done work." Maria agreed.
The three girls began to plan in between Maria and Liz working. Max and Michael cam in about an hour after Isabel got there. They helped out by going out and buying all the streamers and things. That afternoon Kyle came into the Crashdown after work. Luckily they hid all the stuff for his party.
Everyone was pretty quiet that day. Isabel noticed Liz had last year's yearbook on the counter. "Hey, Liz can I look at this?"
"Sure." Liz said.
Isabel flipped to the pictures of the Juniors. She stared at the picture of Alex. Then she noticed a page that was marked by a bunch of pictures. She flipped to the page where she found the memorial Maria had designed for him. Isabel began looking through the pictures Liz had stuck in that page. There were different pictures of Liz, Maria and Alex, some of just Alex, and a really funny one of Alex, Max, and Michael. Isabel didn't know where Liz got that one. Then she noticed another picture it was of her and Alex dancing at the prom. She just stared at it tears forming in her eyes. Max, Michael, Kyle, Liz, and Maria came around Isabel.
"I miss Alex." Liz said.
"We all do." Max told her.
"Things just aren't the same without him." Kyle said.
"They never will be." Maria said quietly.
"He was great friend. I remember he punched me because he thought I was cheating on you with Courtney." Michael said pointing to Maria and remembering that day.
"Don't talk about that right now." Maria told him.
Isabel felt the tears streaming down her face now. Max noticing this put his arm around her and gave her a hug. He pulled away and looked her in the eye. "It's sometimes a good thing to remember good things about our friends."
"I know but it just makes me feel even worse about this whole thing. This shouldn't have happened, especially not to Alex." Isabel said, her tears still coming.
Just then the door to the Crashdown opened. Everyone turned around to find Jesse standing there. They all still had sad looks on their faces and Isabel was quickly wiping away her tears, but Jesse didn't notice her doing that.
"What's going on? You guys look like someone just died." Jesse gave a little laugh, but no one else did. Isabel began to cry again and the tears were starting to come from Maria and Liz, too. "What's wrong, Isabel?" Jesse walked up to Isabel, gave her a hug and said, "You were acting pretty weird this morning and now I come in here you're crying and you all have these depressed looks on your faces."
"Isabel, I think you should tell him now." Maria said.
"Tell me what?" Jesse asked with a worried look on his face.
"We need to talk. Liz can we go into the backroom?" Isabel said wiping her tears again.
"Sure. Go ahead." Liz told her.
Isabel took Jesse's hand and led him into the backroom of the Crashdown.
"Isabel, what's going on?" Jesse asked again.
"Um. . . Jesse there's something I haven't told you about yet." Isabel took a deep breath and was about to speak but Jesse cut her off.
"What?!" Isabel could tell he was angry.
"Please let me tell you everything before you say anything. This is a hard story for me to tell. Exactly a year and one day ago I ad my junior prom. I went with one of my best friends, Alex. He had always liked me, but I constantly told him we could only be friends. That night I realized how much I loved him." Isabel felt fresh tears forming in her eyes. She knew this would be hard. She looked up at Jesse who had a confused look on his face after she said she loved Alex. "Alex was the first person besides Max and Michael that I trusted. Though, I never told him that. The next day Alex died in a car accident. I felt liked I died, too. It was so hard for me. I can remember all the times I was mean to Alex That made me feel worse because I never really told Alex how much I appreciated him always being there for me. We all dealt with it in our own ways. I kept denying the fact that he was gone and I could never see him again. Because I knew if I told myself he was never coming back I would go crazy. I finally realized that I can't bring him back. But do u want to know the best thing Alex ever did for me? He showed me how to love. That's how I can love you with all my heart. Because I finally learned to let people into my life and not to be afraid. I love you so much. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you this earlier. It's just so hard for me." Isabel began to cry again.
Jesse wiped away her tears with his thumb and smiled at her. " Isabel, it's okay I understand. He was your first love. I just want you to know that you don't have to be afraid to tell me these things. I will love you no matter what.
"Thank you so much for understanding." She gave him a soft kiss and hugged him staying there in his arms. That's one secret down, one to go. Isabel thought.
A/N: thats it for now. tell me if u want me to continue cause she'll probably be telling her alien secret next.