Hello. New story! Lolz I have too much free time, smh. Anyway on to some Cargan, Kind of. Also, I don't plan on this being really long either. Just a few chapters.

I don't own anything but the plot.

Fashion of His Love

Chapter One

Logan sat on the orange couch in apartment 2J with thoughts of Carlos running through his head. That's been happening a lot lately. The little Latino would pop into his mind and he'd be thinking about him for hours on end. The way the smaller boy was so sweet, friendly and innocent. It made Logan feel happiness inside and he couldn't help but get butterflies all of a sudden when he was around the little dare-devil. It was new but not unwelcomed. Logan thinks it started when Carlos started going on more and more dates recently.

He furrowed his brows, as he furthered his thinking on why his body was starting to react this way when he was near Carlos and why he liked the peculiar feeling. Why did it made him smile seeing the Latino every day do something cute. Cute? Hmm. That's not the first time his thoughts thought of Carlos as cute. Sometimes even sexy. Which at first, made the smart boy feel uneasy however the more he thought about it, the more these descriptions seemed to fit Carlos perfectly. Everything seemed to have a deeper meaning too. Like, before Carlos would be on his mind but it was only because he was afraid that his helmet wearing friend would get injured really bad because there was only so much his helmet could protect.

Lately, however, he's been thinking about the smaller boy in other ways too. Like how it would feel to lay next to him, or hold Carlos close to him whenever the Latino was near him. He just wanted to reach his arms out to the Latino whenever he was close and pull him into his arms.

Or how he hates it now when some one tries to flirt with Carlos. These dates have killed him with jealousy. But he doesn't know why exactly he's so jealous or why he gets upset when the smaller boy talks about his dates and how fun they were. Logan should be happy and proud for Carlos but he's not. He's anything but.

Yet, what really shocks Logan is how last night when he was dreaming, he had dreamt he kissed Carlos. And now that dream has played over and over on his brain. It's also making him feel awkward around the Latino as well and he thinks that his friends have noticed. But he doesn't know what to do to hide how he's been feeling. Maybe this affection the smart boy is experiencing for Carlos will fade.

A few weeks have gone by and the sentiment Logan has held for Carlos has yet to hinder. If anything, it's gotten stronger and the smart boy thinks he's figured out what is. He thought he realized this when Carlos told the rest of Big Time Rush that he had a girlfriend. The smart boy tried being happy for the little Latino but he felt like his chest had been ripped open and his eyes became misty. He even tried to congratulate Carlos but his throat constricted and it was hard for him to breathe. He had never felt this much pain before in his life. He felt angry at the person that took away Carlos before he had a chance to fully realize what his heart was telling him. Nothing could stop his furied heart from thinking terrible thoughts about the girl that shared the Latino's affection.

Still, the raven-haired boy couldn't be certain, but his hunch is that it's love and that he's felt this way for some time now but is just now discovering it. Because the more he thought about it the more it made sense. Who would be as upset as he was about their best friend dating some one without having a deep meaning behind it? But there was a problem now and that problem was Amy.

Carlos talked about her all the time and how pretty she was. Or how nice and generous she was. It made him sick.

The smart boy was laying down on his bed with his eyes focused on the ceil when Kendall walked into their shared room and took one look at Logan before shaking his head. The blonde noticed Logan seemed to be depressed about something lately but he's been waiting for the smart boy to come to him and talk to him about it because he thought that's ho their friendship worked. But Logan hasn't made any indication that he wants to talk.

Heaving a sigh, Kendall walked over to Logan's bed and sat down, "What's up with you, dude? You've been acting all sad and mopey lately." Green eyes searched the smaller boy's face. He just wanted to see his friend happy again.

"Nothing." Logan murmured, looking everywhere but at Kendall. Kendall snorted and shook his head.

"You're not fooling anyone Loges. We all see the difference in how you've acted. Can you just talk to me because I just want to help you with whatever's bothering you." The blonde said genuinely. The care evident in his eyes as he looked down at the smart boy. Logan grew stiff and a frown traced his face. Had he really been acting different?

"It's... nothing really. Just, well I've felt strange lately. New, even. I... Would you be my friend no matter what? You wouldn't hate me if I were different or something like that?" Logan whispered, sitting up more. Kendall's thoughts became a circus. Why was Logan asking him this? Of course he's be his friend no matter what.

"Yeah of course, you should know that. Why?" The taller boy noticed how Logan seemed to become shy and timid and a blush crossed over his dimpled cheeks. Kendall tilted his head slightly to the side in confusion.

"I... think that I'm..." Logan cleared his throat and looked down at his hands and anticipation rose inside the blonde as he watched the smaller boy with interest. "I think I'm gay." The smart boy finished still staring down at his hands that were in his lap. Kendall was absolutely speechless.

"Well, that wasn't what I was expecting..." Kendall awkward cleared his throat, feeling the silence that surrounded them. "Hmm, I'm not that shocked... No offense. But, when did you find or figure this out?" The blonde asked out of curiosity. Logan bit his lip and ran a hand through his hair as he felt nervous bubbles boil in his stomach.

"I just figured it out, actually. I think I'm in love with Carlos..." He trailed off, closing his eyes so he wouldn't see Kendall's face. He didn't want to see how the taller boy reacted, good or bad. But that wasn't a very wise decision because he missed the mischievous smirk the blonde wore. A smirk that seemed to know something.

"I think you should tell him." Kendall informed. He felt happy and relieved that Logan shared this information with him.

Logan eyes snapped open and he looked at Kendall in fear. He shook his head vehemently. "No! And please don't tell him either, okay. He seems happy with Amy and I don't want to ruin that." Logan explained before continuing, "And I don't want him to hate me..." Logan muttered sadly. Chocolate eyes looked watery and his face twisted up in hurt at the thought and Kendall couldn't help but feel bad. He wanted to tell Logan right then and there his secret but he couldn't.

"Okay I won't, and he could never hate you. None of us could. Your family." Kendall smiled warmly at Logan and the smaller boy smiled back.

"James! Come here!" Kendall said from the other side of the pool, trying to get the hazel-eyed boy's attention. Said boy was flirting with some new girl and of course seemed to be doing really well. James made an annoyed face, and told the girl he'd see her around before walking over to the blonde.

He huffed and crossed his arms. "What Kendall! I was working my cuda magic on that girl over there."

"You are not going to believe what Logan told me!" Kendall said jumping up and down with excitement. James smiled.

"What? Is he finally out of his depressing mood?" James asked. He too had been concerned about Logan too. Everyone is actually. He seems so down and no one's sure what to do.

"No, but he told me something that is going to help us with the mission." James perked up at Kendall's words.

"Then why aren't you about to tell Carlos too if it's important?"

"Because I promised Logan I wouldn't... It's a long story. But anyways Logan told me that he likes Carlos. Like, likes him. You know what I mean?" Kendall said enthusiastically. James grinned and Kendall did the same.

"This... This is perfect. Carlos is going to be so excited when we tell him! His plan worked out amazingly." James said, feeling the same excitement Kendall had shown earlier. The taller boy couldn't believe that Carlos's plan to make Logan jealous or at least realize his feelings for the smaller boy had worked. Carlos had pretended to go on dates and hired a fake girlfriend to date to push Logan into the right direction and realize he liked Carlos. The Latino was going to be crying and jumping with joy soon at the news. Kendall, however, stopped smiling and shook his head no, confusing James.

"We can't tell Carlos." Kendall stated firmly.

"What-Why?!" James exclaimed, gaining some attention from the fellow pool people.

"Because I promised Logan. I wouldn't tell him." The blonde sighed.

"Well I didn't! This is exactly what we needed to know to help Carlos with his plan." James huffed in irritation.

"I know but it wouldn't be fair to Logan if I told Carlos. He seemed so stressed and upset already. I don't want to make him feel worse. Plus I have a plan." Kendall grinned an evil grin that made James feel uncomfortable but he nodded slowly anyway.