Sam's letter to Dean:

Dean,

I don't usually write letters, you know that, but I feel like I have to write this down, please keep reading til the end.

Here it goes!

With everything that we have been through in our lives and we have been through a lot. This time, I'm really scared of what will happen!

Am I going to be able to save you? I mean, you know that time I was caught in a time loop, I went through so many Tuesdays, watched you die so many ways and woke up again knowing I would see you die once more. Well, what I didn't tell you is that there was also a Wednesday where you died too but this time for real. Dean, that time I didn't wake up in the time loop, I went through months without you, months obsessing about that Trickster, months seeing myself becomming like... Dad! Now I look back on it and I'm really afraid of what I am capable of doing, of how I can become. The Trickster told me that he was trying to teach me a lesson. And that lesson was that you are my main weakness, that it will destroy me to loose you, the bad guys know it and they will use that against me and no matter what I do, I can't save you. And unfortunately, I think that he may be right.

God I hate to say this!!

The big problem is that I can't stay in this world knowing that you're in hell. HELL Dean!!

Hell because you decided to sacrifice yourself for me like Dad did for you. And I have to admit that at first I thought that what you had done was extermely selfish but after experiencing loosing you... I UNDERSTAND!

Now you're going to hell soon and I...

I CAN'T accept that, I don't want to accept that!!

The other thing I'm scared of, I mean really scared of... is MYSELF!

What is happening to me? Am I really me, or was Yellow Eyes right and what you brought back isn't all me? What am I supposed to become? Am I really supposed to be the leader of a demon army? Do I want to do this? Is that good or bad considering the new enemy? I'm so confused about what I'm supposed to become!! It really scares me and at the point we are at now, no matter what, there is no turning back no ignoring anything... it's terrifying me! Worse, was Gordon right about me? Am I the new Anti-Christ or something? Because if I am then, Dad was right, and you better kill me!

I'm not sure about what my destiny is meant to be and that scares the hell out of me! Dean, I'm... I don't know, I'm so afraid of what will happen, I'm so... yeah that's the word, TERRYFIED!!

Remember Dad said you might have to kill me, remember I made you promise to do it if ever you saw that I was becoming something evil? Don't forget that promise, okay? I have to know that I can count on you to keep me from, God forbid, becoming as bad as those very things we were brought up to hunt and kill!

I don't want the sacrifice you made for me to become worthless, I mean, what good was it to bring me back if I'm to become this evil many think I'm going to become?

Just keep your promise, please!

And why is it taking you so long to get food??

Well, I just wanted you to know how I feel about what's going on, I hope you kept reading to the end of this letter. I know I wouldn't have been able to tell you all this, you just would have kept interrupting me and dodging the subject!

Here comes the chick flic moment you hate, but I have to tell you...

I love you Dean, you are my brother, my friend, my family, you always took care of me, you always looked after me, heck, you have been more of a father to me than Dad, you are the most imporatnt person in my life and love you!

There, just wanted to make sure you knew that!

Sammy