Cm punks POV:
I rolled over and noticed the empty space beside me. All I could feel were the empty sheets, I closed my eyes in frustration, and thought about what had happened a few hours earlier.
FLASH BACK
'I'm not discussing this with you now...I'm tired...its been an extremely long day.' I said as I walked through the door of the hotel. There she stood arms folded, looking exhausted herself.
I just wanted to take her in my arms and make it all go away. But I couldn't she was in this state because of me...my stupid actions. Not being able to say no.
'Why did you do it...that's all I need to know...then I will be out of your hair' she asked looking down at the ground as soon as she started to speak. I knew she was trying to his the fact she was crying. She was so predictable.
'Why do you have to push...where will you go to get out of my hair...do you know what...why can't you just drop it?' I asked frustration filling my tone running my hands through my hair. Only after I saw her flinch I realised I was shouting. I clenched my fists trying to calm myself, taking a few deep breaths to control the anger, I stepped towards her and she stepped back.
'No I will not just drop it...' She said in a whisper so low I nearly didn't hear her. She took a deep breath before speaking again, this time it was a lot louder and clearer. 'You are the one who always wants to talk things through so now that's what we are going to do...why did you have to cheat on me again? With her of all people!' She asked I could tell she was angry.
Dam she had every right to be. I couldn't tell her it had been going on for months, as far as she knew it was a one time thing. That's how I planned to keep it. For the first time since I walked through the door she looked at me, not to the ground, not through me, behind me, at me. Her chocolate brown eyes called to me to take the pain away, tell her it wasn't true. But I couldn't.
She laughed inwardly before shaking her head. 'You can't even do that...is that how little I mean to you? Your pathetic...a coward...a joke of a man. You don't deserve happiness...not with me, her or any other poor innocent girl.' she said walking towards me with every word. Until she was right in my face. I had to control the emotions that were burning inside. I wanted to grab her, tell her to stop. Thats when I realised she was still talking.
'To you love is just a game, you see it just like life. Do you remember what you said to me when I said I thought I was in love all those years ago?' I racked my brain trying to think but it wouldn't come to me. She shied before continuing.
'You always said being in love is just infatuation on an extreme level. An idea that only exists in fairy tales, that I was stupid to believe in it.' I said that to her when she thought she was in love with some stupid guy who wasn't me. I couldnt stand seeing her with someone else it tore me apart.
I looked up to see her by the door. Bag in one hand suitcase and coat in the other. I rushed and shut the door before she could open it any more. I slammed it with some force, I grabbed her shoulder and held her against the door, when my brain caught up with my actions I looked at her face. Her beautiful eyes were filled with sadness like I had never seen. Her breath was shaking along with the rest of her body. The tears in her eyes threatened to spill over.
What the hell was I doing , I wasn't this guy. I didn't hurt women, or anyone else outside of the ring for that matter. I had the overwhelming urge to kiss her. Before I knew what I was doing my lips collided with force into hers, with such passion. If we were going to end I was going out with a bang. A small moan escaped her throat before she kissed me back. She paced her hand on my chest pushing me backwards until I scooped her up putting myself back in control. She wrapped her legs around my waist and I pushed her into the first wall I could find. Her hands started to roam under my T-shirt, small moans of pleasure escaping both of us at random intervals. I made my way to the bed laying her down the whole time she was pulling at my shirt. I took my shirt off throwing it to the ground. Not once taking my focus off her. She laid under me, I wanted her so bad, my body aching to be inside hers. She grabbed my face and pulled me closer as she moved up the bed. She pushed me to the side, straddling me so I couldn't move. She pinned my arms above my head placing small kissed down my neck, chest , torso and just above the waist band of my boxers. She was driving me insane I had to take back control. Kicking my left leg out to the side I managed to roll her onto her back. Repeating the motions she had just gone through. Ripping her top off and placing small butterfly kissed down her neck, chest and torso. Ending in the same place she did. Goosebumps covered her body. She reached over and turned the light off signaling she wanted this as much as I did, and boy was she gonna get it.
END OF FLASH BACK
I got up looking around the hotel room for her, but she was gone along with her belongings. 'Where the hell could she have gone'. I wondered as I ran my fingers through my short hair...
Jessica's POV:
I sat in the bar thinking about the past few hours. Why was I so stupid, I should have just grabbed my shit and walked out. Why did i feel i needed answers. He would never give them to me. Why had I been so stupid. I thought slapping my forehead with the plan of my hand.
'You know I'm sure that's not gonna help at all,' I heard someone behind me say within a bit of a chuckle. Before I heard a chair being pulled out beside me. Great that's all I need is all I could think. I really didn't want to talk to anyone right now.
'Well if you knew what was going on then you wouldn't think it was so bad. ' I said burying my face in my hands.
I felt a warm hand on the small of my back. This made me flinch, he instantly pulled away. Great what on earth did you do that for. Is all I could think.
'Trust me if you knew what had happened then you would justify it. ' I said shying putting my head in my hands once more.
'Then explain, did you and punk have another fight?' He asked rolling his eyes, pulling my left hand away from my face so he could look at my face.
'Randy...it...I...its just complicated...' I said looking anywhere but him.
'Come on Jess, tell me. I have known you far to long to know when your lying. ' Randy said grabbing my other hand and holding into it, turning my face to his.
I couldn't look at him.
'Well did you have a fight? Because if that's all it is then you will work it out.' Randy said forcing a smile.
'Yeah we did...but I don't think we will sort it this time.' I said tears coming to my eyes. I felt his hand tighten around mine as I tried to pull away.
'What do you mean, you won't sort it...what has he done.' Randy asked raising his tone a little.
I jumped back slightly , before swallowing hard. Which he noticed. He apologised before nodding at me to continue.
'Not here...' Was all I could say before he was out of his seat and ready to go. I smiled slightly. As much as I loved punk sometimes I wish he could be more like this.
We walked to Randy's room I'm complete silence. Only when I got outside the door waiting for him to open the door did I realise that it was eight next door to mine and Phil's.
'So you room is next to mine and Phil's huh?' I asked as he looked for the door key.
'Yeah don't worry I went out when I heard you fighting. I know what comes next.' Randy said laughing slightly at the last part. This was only made worse when he turned around and saw the look on my face.
'Oh my god...really...I...umm...' I didn't know what to say and the more I tried the reader my face went. I buried my face trying desperately to hide my embarrassment.
'Hay...I use to be married you know...I kind of know how it goes.' Randy said laughing I cringed at the thought.
When he finally opened the door a wave of nausea hit me like a tone of bricks. I ran past randy and straight to the bathroom. I didn't have time to lock the door, as soon as my head found the rim I felt one hand on my back and another grabbing my hair, pulling it out of my face.
About then minutes passed and I didn't feel sick anymore. Well for now at least. I was sat on Randy's bed looking at my feet. I noticed that I really needed to repaint my nails. Oh maybe I could get a pedicure when we hit up the next city. I will have to look up salons. All of a sudden I heard someone clear their troat.
'Here' Was all Randy said before handing me a glass of water and a mint. I looked up at him and raised an eyebrow.
'You just threw up, I'm not talking to you unless you eat this mint.' He said chuckling to himself slightly.
'Fine...but will you sit down please.' I said before throwing the mint in my mouth. It tasted awful but I kept on chewing.
'So what's happened. Have you been drinking...is that why you threw up?' Randy asked looking directly at me. Which made me quite uncomfortable. I exhaled loudly before laying on my back. My legs now dangled over the edge as they were to short to reach the floor.
'Come one Randy...don't make me do this...please.' I begged. All i got was a raised eyebrow and a demanding look I was going to have to tell him. Dam it I have never begged anyone for anything. But he was going to make me beg. What a bitch.
'Right you can't go off on one. Coz I don't know for sure yet...' Was all I could get in before he jumped in.
'Please tell me your not pregnant...with his baby. How the hell has he not noticed...is he that much of an idiot.' Randy asked now he was the one with his head in his hands.
'I said I don't know...all I know is I have been throwing up for about two week's now.' I said quite defensively. How dare he judge me.
'Right well we are going to find out then.' Randy hissed before getting up, grabbing his coat, jacket and keys.
'Where are you go...' With that he was gone and I was all alone in the room. I wanted to run, but I knew I couldn't. I mean come on where would I go.
Shying I sat back on the bed and turned on the TV. Some show about home improvements was on. I really hope this isn't what he was watching. I thought as I chuckled to myself.
Flicking through the channels I felt my eyelids get heavier and heavier until the sound from the TV was gone. Why did things have to be so complicated.
I woke and looked around , for a second I forgot where I was. All I felt were strong arms around the lower part of my hips, and someone behind me. As I started to snuggle down I remembered the fight between Phil and I. Then I realised that those arms didn't belong to Phil. I panicked, I felt the person behind me stir as they came to. Closing my eyes and pretending I was asleep I felt the other person slip their arms out from under me.
'Why him Jessie...anyone but him...I'm not for one second suggesting myself, I know that would never happen. I just wish you wouldn't settle for less than your worth. You don't see the beauty that you are...not just physically but spirituality to. You brighten my day, with your worm smile, big heart...just everything about you. You will make a great Mama I just wish it wasn't with him...' Oh thank goodness its just Randy...wait what did he just say... I thought just as I was about to open my eyes I heard him breath in and start to speak.
'...I wish it was me dam it...I wish I would have told you this before now. Or even when your awake and you can take it all in...I love you Jessie.' Keeping my eyes shut I felt a warm pair of lips on my cheek.
I stretched slightly like I always did when I first woke up. Looking over my shoulder at Randy I smiled as if I had heard nothing. He just gave me a half arsed smile and got out of the bed.
'Morning' I said cheerily as I got out of the bed making my way to the bathroom.
'Not so fast...take this with you. Make sure you do it we're gonna find out once and for all. I will be right here.' Randy said as he handed me a pregnancy test. I could see the hope in his eyes but it was mixed with hurt. I knew how he wanted this to go. I however wasn't to sure how I wanted it to go.
I mean I was verging 26, in the eyes of mother nature I was no spring chicken. I had always wanted kids just not this way. Thinking about how much I love Phil I just don't think he is the guy I want to have a family with. Oh god I didn't want to take this test.
I grabbed it from his had rolling my eyes and slamming the door. 'A little less attitude next time Jessica.' Randy said laughing. I grunted as I sat down on the toilet.
About a minute later I walked out and handed the test to Randy. 'Here I can't.' Is all I said before walking back to the bed. The next three minutes where going to be the longest of my life.
'So...umm...what do you want it to say?' Randy asked sitting on the bed swinging my ,legs over his.
'I don't know...' Was all I managed to say...