Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight and all characters belong to Stephenie Meyer. Song lyrics alluded to: Something I Can Never Have by Nine Inch Nails.
I really hope you like this. I wanted to take a new approach so don't get mad. This one's for the girls (what I mean by that is it's in BPOV) . I love you guys. Thanks for reading!
Okay, so here I am in Forks yet again. Why would I ever trick myself into thinking that it wouldn't be this bad? That I could deal with the rain and the trees and the utter lack of sunshine? In Phoenix I could lie out in the sun and wear shorts nearly all year. The only believable explanation is that I was delusional getting out of my mom's car at the airport in Phoenix with my sunglasses on. This is terrible. It's worse than terrible, Forks is my own personal wet dreary hell. Yes, it feels like hell. Deep down I knew what I was getting myself into of course but I just couldn't bear to see my mother so unhappy when Phil had to leave every other week or so. I smirked at this thought. Well, I guess there are the sacrifices we are all willing to take in order to keep those close to us happy.
Charlie's house was just as I remembered from my childhood. Almost nothing had changed. Everywhere you dare look in the house Renee's touch is all you see. Just a fading reminder of her for Charlie. Upstairs, my old bedroom was just as I remembered as well. I sat down on the soft twin bed and glanced at my only suitcase sitting near the foot where I left it a week and a half ago. I still hadn't gotten around to unpacking anything
that wasn't essential. I started school on my second day in Forks and haven't really done anything but homework. Its funny how one person can change your life forever. Two years ago I never would have foreseen myself in this situation I'm in now. After all who could possibly be masochistic enough to dream this up for themselves? When Phil came into Renee's life my mother and I drifted apart. She wanted to be with him all the time and I became nothing but a hindrance. I love my mother but I felt jealous all the same. I decided that it would be best if I just moved in here with Charlie.
The rain started to tap against my window and I thought to myself, ok so I might be a little masochistic.
I decided to unpack and make dinner. Charlie had insisted that we go out and eat every night since I arrived and I definitely didn't want this to turn out to be the norm around here. The fridge was empty and the freezer was full of whole fish. That's great. Just spectacular. What does Charlie think I am? A Grizzly bear or something? I grabbed my raincoat, my keys, and the money Charlie left me for normal human food. The drive wasn't very long because everything important to these people was located in the center of town. Everything important consisting of: the gas station, school, grocery store, bank, and of course the police station where Charlie was thankfully working today even though it was Saturday. My truck was a little noisy making its way through town but no one really seemed to notice to my amusement. The parking lot was fairly crowded, at least for Forks, when I arrived but I noticed one car right away. Mike's green Camry. I had forgotten that he worked at the market on weekends and
now I grimaced at the thought of him following me around the store making sure I found everything I was looking for with his undivided attention.
I pulled into the parking lot, circled around, and drove right back out onto the main street again. Not today. I was definitely not in the mood. I didn't really want to go back to Charlie's right away so I turned onto an unfamiliar back road and just continued to drive. After about a mile I noticed a little building nestled behind a few trees on my right. My truck made it down the dirt driveway with no problem and I parked in front of the curious brick building. It was a library! I really don't know how I could've missed this haven before but I wasn't about to ignore it now. I went inside and let the warm air feel my nose. Ah the smell of old books. I didn't know where to begin. The building itself looked small but it was stocked full inside. The carpet was a warm brownish red and the wooden isles seemed endless. After about an hour I started to feel like someone else was watching me. It was really starting to creep me out. I glanced up at the front desk and the little woman with long brown hair and thick rimmed glasses seemed to be engrossed a novel of her own. I made my way to another isle stopping to look behind me every few feet when I noticed him in front of me all of a sudden. I knew who he was right away. It was Edward Cullen. He was leaning rather nonchalantly against the bookshelf staring back at me with a slightly crooked grin.
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