My Protector
Warning: Contains slash!!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything.
It's twisted.
It's love.
It's gentle
its brothers. tangled limbs.
anger. forgiveness.
abandonment and dissapointment.
Alec and Ben.
Yin and Yang.
Twins.
Clones.
Whichever is your prefrence.
Either way, one needs the other to survive.
Ben's innocent.
Alec's worldly.
Together they make one, they compliment each other, love each other, know what the other needs.
Ben needs to be protected. The world scares him, he can't understand it. Everything is harsh, cruel and none of it makes sense to him. He needs something to believe in, Alec gives him something to believe in.
Alec needs someone to protect, to take care of, to love. What he's learned has hardened him, but with Ben he can let his guard down, not be a soldier. He can be a person.
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On nights when the sky is clear they lie under the sky and Ben tells him stories of the stars. When Ben tells stories the world can fall away and they can just be two boys, hands entwined, promising eternal love, protection, care.
Love.
Happiness.
Forever.
Ben pointed to Leo. "The lion, he looks down, protecting the others. He's fierce and so the others aren't afraid, they know he won't let harm come to them." He looked up at Alec, "Like you. You're the lion, the protector."
Alec smiled, He loves Ben, he'd die for Ben. He is his protector.
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Manticore comes for all of them soon enough.
Alec is unsure of how they found them. He had been so careful, he knows what will happen to both of them if they have to go back. It will be worse than reindoctrination. They will be seperated, studied, his brother will be terminated and the two of them eternally seperated.
Alec is cornered, without Ben, guns on his at all points. It' only one gun that concerns him though.
"Ben?"
This time Alec is the innocent one, the scared one. His own brother, his lover has turned on him. His Ben has turned on him.
Alec thinks he might have a tear in his eye, but maybe its just a reflection of the ache in his soul, his heart. What does it matter that he's caught, Ben is with them, Ben is willing to kill him.
"I'm sorry Alec." Ben looks sorry.
Alec forgives him, maybe he knows that if he doesn't they will kill him.
"It has to be done."
"I understand." Alec said, numb to it all. What does it matter what they do to him, he's already lost Ben.
"I don't want to."
For a minute, Ben looked like Alec's Ben again and he just wanted to hold him, tell him he would make it all better. He'd be the protector.
"It's okay." He assured him, "You don't have to."
Alec turned the gun on himself.
One bullet.
He was still the protector.