Looking down at it, I have to wonder why I accepted it. Sure, he's handsome, has money, and most of the time, a very attending fiancé.
Then why do I feel so empty? My thoughts had apparently echoed in my actions, for the very last night Draco had told me that I wasn't 'performing' as well as usual. I had merely shrugged him off, which he responded to with a few harsh words. Looking back on that, I can see what he was talking about.
I glanced down at it with a bit of wonder. Why a ruby? Why not the traditional diamond? Did he not think me worthy enough to buy a diamond and spend money on it? I sighed at the thought. As I sat near the window, I watched the rain trickle down and hit the window pane. A brilliant flash of lightning flashed across the sky and soon after, thunder cracked, sending a shiver down my spine. Thunder storms used to be one of the only things that scared me. Even now, they would give me a case of the jitters. A sound outside the room sent my head whipping around to face the door to see Draco leaning up against the door frame. The end of his shirt was rumpled and his tie loosened, giving him an edgy look. He smirked excitedly, to which I replied with another. Getting up from my seat by the window, I wandered over to him and pulled him onto the bed. He leaned in for a kiss, but I put my finger up to his lips. As soon as he did that, I instantly regretted pulling him over. He looked a little agitated, but relented to let me get up.
I nearly ran into the bathroom and quickly shut the door. My breath was ragged and uneven. Was I actually nervous? I shouldn't be nervous. Leaning back up against the door, I closed my eyes and tried to clear my head. I pictured anything and everything to try and get rid of the thoughts racing through my head. I pictured the bathroom, the white porcelain tile, the marble countertop, the green shower curtain. I pictured what I was wearing: my pajamas, black nail polish, and the ruby. I flinched. Not the greatest thing to think about. I fingered it tenderly around my finger, watching as the light hit it.
Am I really ready? I toyed with the idea of being married again. This was probably the twelfth time this month. You're having second thoughts… This sent my heart racing, almost breaking through my chest. Why should I need to have second thoughts? Draco obviously loves me…and my money. He cares for me, and he makes sure that I'm healthy…so that I can be good in bed. He works so I don't have to…so that I can look like a good little house wife.
Stop. Why am I thinking of the negative? There are positive things! He does love me, otherwise he wouldn't ask me to be his wife. He makes sure that I'm healthy because he doesn't want to risk my health. He works so I don't have to because he doesn't want to have to make me, but he would let me if I wanted to…I think. I heard Draco clear his throat in the bedroom and I snapped back into my senses. I splashed handfuls of water on my face and shook my head. I looked once more at my ring before opening the door and smiling at Draco, ready to face whatever life threw at me.