Poppy P.O.V

I was sitting on Nile's bed just watching him playing on his Xbox, as usual. We use to talk so much more but now we hardly speak at all. I'll go round his and watch him play on his Xbox for hours on end. Sometimes I'll even go downstairs and talk to molly! Then just before I have to go he'll come over and give me a quick kiss and cuddle. I can't actually remember the last time we even went out on a date. Don't get me wrong I love Nile an awful lot, but its just annoying that he ignores me I just want a bit of attention from him since I'm like his girlfriend. I mean I will play on the Xbox with him from time to time but to be honest 'm not much of a gamer. Sometimes it would be nice to just talk for a little bit, the way we use to when he was helping me, but we haven't talked like that in a long time.

As I sat on his bed I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I'm kind of used to him ignoring me now but there is something else, something killing me inside. A good boyfriend should of realised there was something wrong.

Nile turned his head to check on me. Probably to check I was still there. I wasn't doing anything. Normally I would be reading a book or something but today I was just staring into space, trying not to cry. He seemed to notice something; maybe it was the tears in my eyes.

"What's wrong babe?" he asked

"Nothing" I lied. I didn't want to upset his game. He doesn't like it when I do.

"Yeah there is" he got of the sofa, turned of his Xbox, then came and sat next to me on his bed taking me tightly in his arms. He has never held me like that.

"What did you do that for?" I asked confused. He didn't have to and he normally wouldn't.

"Because my baby girl is upset, and I don't like seeing her upset, so I want to know what's wrong" he said brushing my fringe out of my eyes

"There's really nothing wrong. I'm fine" I lied again

"Tell me" he whispered his face inches from mine. I could feel his breath on my skin, and his lips lightly touching mine.

I sighed

"Lets go to the beach it's nicer there" he gently pulled me of the bed and put his arm firmly around my waist. We walked downstairs Nile shouted at Molly that we were going out, and then we walked out the front door.

We walked along the cliffs above the beach, when we came across a bench he sat down on it, pulling me down next to him, taking my hands in his and holding them tightly.

"Come on, tell me what's upsetting you so much"

"Err…" I trailed of

"Come on, what's the worst I could do?" he paused "actually don't answer that"

I knew what he meant, He knew he could break up with me, and he knows that would rip my heart out and hurt me so much.

I sighed, "Why do you ignore me? I come round to your house to spend time with you, and all I do for something like 3 hours is sit and watch you play Xbox, wishing you would take me on dates like you use to. Or even just talk to me you won't even do that!" I said as calmly as possible, pulling my hands out of his, then pulling my knees up to my chest and hugging them.

"I'm so sorry. I had no idea you felt like that. I promise we're go on a proper date… err later if you want. And we're talking now aren't we?" he grinned pulling me back tightly against him. "Is they're anything else?" Nile asked kissing the top of my head.

I new I would have to tell him. He should know. But I've been bottling my emotions up inside me all day, and keeping back the tears, trying to be strong for my sister Sophie.

It had to happen now didn't it? Why? It's not fair. Sophie's starting primary school in a few months, and my dad just lost his fucking job. That means no fucking money, and since my dad will have nothing else to do he'll be spending probably all his time drinking. Maybe I might be able to see Nile more now. He lives what five minutes walk away from me; he normal picks me up in his car though. But I don't think I've ever seen him after school. My mum said he was a bad influence because he was older, that I should be focusing on my schoolwork so I obeyed most of the time.

I've never had very much freedom; my mum always told me I couldn't go out with my friends or boyfriend unless it was a weekend. I have limited computed time, limited amount to spend on clothes, limited amount of time in the sun, limited amount of everything. I get grounded for the most minor things like being back five minutes late or wearing a top that shows slightly to much flesh. And well when it comes to party's I'm not actually allowed to go I normally sneak out my window. But those where my mum's rules maybe everything will be different now. My dads not around much and I don't suppose he'll have strict rules like my mum he probably won't have any rules at all.

About 2 years ago now I went through a rebellious teenager stage, which my parents didn't actually know about. I started sneaking out with my boyfriend Danny to have a little bit of a life. The only problem was I didn't realise what Danny and his friends were really like. They got me involved with stuff I shouldn't have got involved with Drugs, Sex, Smoking and alcohol. Danny got me pregnant I didn't know what to do. I was frightened. I'd lost all my decent friends and the friends I had wouldn't have helped me. Then out of nowhere Nile the popular, good-looking guy in the year above, began to notice me. He came over and asked me what was wrong. I hesitated at first because I didn't know if he would just run off and tell everyone what a mess I was. But I discovered he was Genuine and just trying to help so I spilled everything to him. I remember him taking my hands in his and telling me everything was going to be all right, and for some strange reason I believed him.

He took me to the abortion clinic to get my baby problem dealt with. Deciding to get rid of the baby was probably the hardest thing I've ever done but I thought it was necessary for me to try and continue a normal life. Nile helped me to get of the drugs and cigarettes. Of course the whole school was going mad. They couldn't understand why the popular, good-looking guy was helping someone like me, but then again I didn't know why either.

Danny by now was also going ballistic. I dumped him realising he was bad for me, but he didn't take it well, because Nile asked me out straight afterwards. Danny flipped and attacked Nile landing him with a few days in hospital. I don't know what's happened to Danny he just disappeared. That whole year of sneaking out smoking drugs etc my parents never suspected anything, which I'm glad about. If they had I probable would have never been allowed out the house again.

If I'm desperate to talk to Nile, which I tend not to be anymore I have to call him or he has to come round to my house which is a bit awkward to ask. Maybe that will change now, but what if everything goes wrong. Again.

Tears started trickling out my eyes "Poppy please. Tell me what's going on," he said pulling me right against him.

I love the feeling of his arms around me they make me feel safe and protected. Until now I don't think I realised how much I missed Nile and the way things use to be I love Nile I really do, I would hate it if we split up, I don't know how well I would take it.

I put my head on his chest "you know my mums been in hospital?" I sniffed. Suddenly I burst out crying. Big sobs where coming from my chest and the tears where welling up so quickly in my eyes.

"Shhhhhhhhh" he whispered pulling me onto him lap and holding me tightly, whispering words of comfort in my ear.

"Last night she died"