Title: Cold Remembrance

Author: Lexus Dovidija (SummerSnowFall)

Disclaimer: I don't own them, Just playing with them and making them do my bidding. You can have them when I'm done.

Fandom: X-2

Rating: PG-13, For Suggested Sex

Pairing: John/Rogue/Bobby with a bit of John/Mystique(as Bobby, Rogue)

Summary: John Relives His Decision, Post Movie.

Warning: Contains Slash and Spoilers For The Movie

The events that led up to his leaving with Magneto weren't mostly about him becoming a god among insects. No, he thinks, it was because he had disappointed his lovers, with each blast of intense heat, Rogue had seen how uncontrolled the fire was inside of him, how it was bursting threw every pore in his body, needing the oxygenated air that he could only breathe.

Then later, as he heard the fragments of the x-jet tire off and the echo of the missile exploding in his ears, he could also hear Bobby screaming for Rogue, their Rogue. As she flew out the hole in the wall, he felt as if a hole was being torn in his heart, fumbling with the seat belts, he tried to get it off, but realized that Jean had caught his frantic movements and was making the seat belt impossible to open. As he drew her eye he wanted to scream at her to bring back his friend, his lover. But instead it was the strange Teleporter, Kurt, that mended the hole in his heart. Mended, but didn't heal, for that was for time to try.

The plane landed with his first encounter with Magneto, more importantly his first meeting with Mystique, the strange blue metamorphic. He watched as she observed Logan, who, in turn, made eyes with professor Jean. He remembered briefly crawling into Bobby's bed as the other boy couldn't sleep and rested his head against the blond boy's shoulder as he told John about the way Rogue looked at Logan and how it still bothered her that Logan wanted Jean. He fell asleep listening and only dimly felt Bobby move as he got up to go to the kitchen, a chaste kiss on the cheek and he was gone. John drifted off to sleep.

That night was a turning point in everybody's lives, it was John's last truly happy moment. He still thinks that one day Bobby and Rogue will forgive him for leaving, for wanting to learn how to control his power before he returned to their embrace. He understands this when Mystique crawls into his bed, changing her skin, making her look like Bobby or Rogue, he knows that this doesn't mean anything. Mystique wants the approval of Magneto, who wants him to be happy and John just wants his family back. So, as he slides his tongue down Mystiques neck, he tries to remember the feeling of Rogues infamous power kicking in, giving his tongue a slight tingle as he pulls it away. Mystique in turn moans into his neck and changes into Bobby, except, when her lips meet his, he doesn't feel the same icy tingle that can only be associated with Bobby. Nor can she reproduce the same sounds of satisfaction that either of his lovers make as they come, or afterward's as they cuddle. Mystique simply takes her leave, pausing to bid him a good night. Tonight he asks her why she comes to him and she smiles.

"Why do you let me?" she replies and glides out of the room, leaving John to an empty bed and aching heart, while back at the mansion, Rogue and Bobby lie in John's bed. As the scent of him fades, so does their hope of his return. With a gloved hand, Rogue strokes Bobby's cheek and lies curled at his side, she knows how Bobby feels because its the way she feels, incomplete and they can only hope for the morning.

"He'll be back," she promises and lies her head on Bobby's shoulder. "He will."

End