I know I should update A Broken Soul…but I hit writer's block…honestly…ok so I had a new idea and just had to write it…bleh…
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Dear Journal:
Look at me…at my reflection. The eyes that have seen it all…the eyes that have endured it all. While I strive to become stronger, I will never be acknowledged. My wounds…aren't they obvious? Why must others treat me so inferior, when all I want is love? Then again, what is love? How can I know something I've never had? Journal, if it weren't for you…I would've gone crazy years ago. But no, you keep me company, you allow me to write my woes and simple listen. I can never do that with my team…with my senseis. Three years journal, and when we meet once again, we fight.
Why must he act so…so…stuck up! Does he not know the pain I had to endure for his sake! No…those damn eyes…showing nothing but hatred for everyone who tries to speak of reality and life. No…he's only life is revenge…damn him and his brother! Does he not know of the burden I carry? It seems futile to even consider things, after all, he doesn't know the truth of me…and if he were to know of what I carry, he would blame me for cheating and not being truly strong, and thus will never acknowledge me.
So here I am journal, looking at my reflection, waiting for the verdict of the one Uchiha Sasuke, and awaiting for the final testimony that will decide our futures…if there is one for us. After all, who could ever love a demon?
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Tsunade looked at the papers while the ANBU restrained Uchiha Sasuke like the prisoner he is. Naruto stood on one side, his mask removed as he was one of the restrainers. Sasuke stared at Tsunade, awaiting the verdict and cursing the name of Uzumaki Naruto.
/How is it possible? Three years training…and he defeated me? Have I spent my time in a childish training while Naruto became stronger? How can I defeat him if I can't even defeat that dobe/ thought Sasuke as Tsunade looked at him. Placing the papers back down on the desk, she crossed her hands, her expression showing no emotions.
"Uchiha Sasuke…you are accused of betraying the village of Konoha, shaming the name of a Konoha shinobi…allying with an S class criminal…attacking Konoha…killing one of your fellow Konoha shinobi…and attempting to steal the forbidden scrolls" Tsunade said. Uchiha gritted his teeth…the death of one shinobi was of no concern to him, until he realized the identity of such shinobi. Naruto glared at the ground, because if he looked at Sasuke, he would lose control and kill him. How dare he, of all people, attack her and kill her? But he knew it was partly his fault, if he hadn't told his team of ANBU to attack, then she would be alive.
"Uchiha Sasuke…by law I must ask you…what do you plea?" Tsunade asked. Sasuke snorted as he looked at her, causing Naruto to growl slightly. Tsunade kept her gaze on Sasuke, not losing her cool while Sasuke did the same.
"There's no reason to plea anything if I know my actions…and if I had a choice on whether to do it again or not…I would do the same thing all over again" Sasuke said. Naruto tightened his grip on one of the restraints, trying to keep his cool.
"So you would betray us all once again…for some power which obviously seems lacking" Naruto said. Sasuke looked at him with a raised eyebrow.
"And what is it to you?" he asked him. Tsunade looked at Naruto warningly, who simply ignored her. Naruto stared into the eyes of Sasuke, his blue eyes hard and focused, showing the hardships and training he must have endured, and showing the hatred of pain he managed to consume.
"Naruto…" Sasuke said astounded.
"That is enough" Tsunade said, snapping Sasuke out of his trance.
"Uzumaki…you are on duty and when on duty, the mask remains on…now…take the prisoner to his chambers while we decide his execution method" Tsunade said. Naruto nodded and bowed in respect, then pulled on the restraints to make Sasuke move. Sasuke silently complied as he stared at the back of the blonde, who was the one that defeated him. The two walked down the stairs in silence until Sasuke stop, causing Naruto to stop and turn.
"Why?" Sasuke started. Naruto looked at him annoyed.
"Why is it that every time I see you…you are stronger than me? No matter how much I train…how hard I work you are always one step ahead of me…dammit dobe…why the fuck can you stop me!" shouted Sasuke. Naruto looked at Sasuke boredly as he scratched his cheek, his mask secured in his hip pouch.
"Because I get strong through hard work…not through revenge…I'm not someone's bitch who will follow them wherever they go…I'm my own person who fights to get stronger…unlike you" Naruto said, which only infuriated Sasuke as Sasuke lounged at him.
"Who the fuck are you calling a bitch!" shouted Sasuke as the two stumbled down the stairs. Naruto landed on top of Sasuke with a loud thud, knocking the wind out of said ex-Konoha shinobi. Naruto stared at Sasuke's face, noticing the changes in his features. Sasuke looked at Naruto and noticed the changes in Naruto as well…but were the changes for better or for worse? Naruto stood up and pulled Sasuke up through the restraints.
"Try that again and I won't hesitate to kill you Uchiha" Naruto said calmly as he dragged him down the hallway. He opened one door and pushed Sasuke into it, closing the door in the same instant. The light was on, illuminating the cell he was held captive. He could feel it though, how the walls slowly began to consume his chakra, and how the walls did not allow his sharingan to see beyond it. It seems as if the chamber was specifically designed for him, for the Uchiha.
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Naruto left the administrative building, having been set off duty. He walked down the streets, heading towards the forest. He past the training grounds finally reaching the memorial stone where Kakashi was.
"You're late…" Kakashi said. Naruto said nothing as he stood next to Kakashi. Shoving his hands into his pockets Naruto stared at the names of those who were killed.
"Who would've thought it has been three years since this team was disbanded?" Kakashi spoke up. Naruto nodded solemnly as he stared into the name of the kuniochi that died in the hands of Sasuke.
"And who would've thought are own team would kill one another?" Naruto stated as he looked at the sky, the first droplets of rain hitting his face as a downpour suddenly occurred.
"He didn't know it was her Naruto…but I understand your feelings" Kakashi said. This time Naruto snorted.
"Face it Kakashi-sensei…no matter what Sasuke does, he will always be your prodigy…your only student…neither Sakura or I matter as much as he…and you've proven it plenty of times" Naruto stated calmly. Kakashi gritted his teeth. After all, it was partly true. He had focused solely on Sasuke because of the sharingan, and neglected both Sakura and Naruto. But now it didn't matter. Sakura was dead and Naruto was an ANBU captain…the best actually.
"The past is the past…we can't live tormenting ourselves over it…a lesson I learned" Kakashi said. Naruto turned around and walked away.
"But the past can give you the strength to move on…sadly not everyone can see it…and thus go in the wrong path…like your beloved Sasuke" Naruto said as he disappeared through the trees, not caring if he was soaking wet.
"You're right…Naruto…you're right" Kakashi said as he sighed and disappeared in a puff of smoke.
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It has been two weeks since Sasuke's capture, and Sakura's memorial. Naruto idly stared at the full length mirror, staring at the reflection that haunted him until this day. He didn't have any duties until the night. He pulled out his journal, his trusty journal, and began to write his soul out.
Dear Journal:
Sasuke execution is in one month. It's a little harsh…but he deserves it. They will remove his eyes though, before killing him, considering it is a bloodline ability and they don't want it to fall on the wrong hands. But I don't understand…after all it's only Sasuke and Itachi…who can fight against an Uchiha if they cease to exist?
I guess it doesn't matter. I haven't seen him since I left him in his cell. I couldn't face him…the moment I fell on him my resolve weakened, and I couldn't wait to just leave that place. They are going to kill him, and I have to kill my heart before it happens. I don't want to suffer the pain of losing him again.
I looked at my reflection again…it's so different from what I feel. I see a strong man who seems to not feel anything, yet I know I'm in nothing but pain…I guess I've managed to create the ultimate mask…funny though how I'm still relying on a mask, though many of my friends…if I can call them that, know of my façade. But somehow they don't do anything to stop it or stop me from using a mask. That's why I don't know if they can be considered friends, or just acquaintances.
Everyday I ask myself this journal…is revenge really important? Do we have to hate so much in order to survive? I try to follow that path…but I can't. It's too harsh…too cruel…to lonely. I'm already lonely as it is…revenge will just kill what is left of my soul.
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Ne? What you think? I know it's short but this is sort of a preview. Should I continue this crap or should I shoot myself off the face of the earth? Lol Ja!