My name is Marco Bodt. And no, I'm not a guy. I'm not trans. I'm 100%, biologically female. And here is the story of how I fell hopelessly in love with Jean Kirstchien.
It was the first day of college, and I was scared. Actually, scared doesn't even describe it. It was more a mix of fear, excitement, and dread. My mom had dropped me off with an "I love you" and "Have fun" and "We'll miss you" and left to drop my little sister off at a birthday party.
With a deep breath, I hauled my stuff to my dorm, but not after getting lost a few times. Apparently my roommate had already settled in or was still unpacking since I heard music from the partially open door. "Hello?" I kicked the door open with my foot. My arms were filled with boxes so I had to move sideways to see inside. "Oh, hey," said the girl from inside. "Here, let me help with that," she said as she took the box on top of the one I was holding. "Thanks." It looked like she had already claimed the bed on the right side of the room, so I set my stuff on my new bed. She had blonde hair that went about halfway down her back, and the left side of her head was shaved and was light brown.
"I'm Marco," I said as I held a hand out. I silently hoped she wouldn't make fun of me for my name. She didn't. Instead, she looked a bit… relived? "I'm Jean," she said, shaking my hand. Ah, so that's why. "Are you serious? I thought I was the only one with a guy's name!" "I thought they were going to put me in a guy's dorm," Jean said with a laugh. And her laugh was adorable, no matter how many people might have later told me that she was scary.
A while later we were unpacked and ready for dinner. "Wanna get something to eat? I'm meeting up with some friends," Jean said. "Sure," I shrugged. None of my friends from high school were going to Trost, mostly because I lived several hours away, and there were several other colleges that were closer than Trost. "Are you okay with going to the café across the road?" "Uh, yeah, that's fine," I responded. I wasn't really a picky person, so I was fine with just about anything.
When we got to the café, I was introduced to several people. Ymir, a tall, lanky girl with freckles, though not as many as mine; Christa, a short girl with blonde hair who seemed lovable (and taken by Ymir); Armin, a boy with short blonde hair who talked like a professor; Mikasa, a quiet girl, and she seemed to only talk to Armin and Eren, a boy who seemed to enjoy poking fun at Jean. It seemed like they were all pretty close. "Did you all go to high school together?" I inquired. I was answered with nodding heads and a few 'yes's.
A while later we all had our orders and ate and talked about school and what classes we had and anything that really came to mind.
"So Marco," Ymir started. "You got a boyfriend or something?" I took my time chewing the bite of pizza I was eating, debating whether or not I should tell them. I swallowed. "Uh, I don't… I'm gay," I said, my voice small. The table was quiet for a moment, and I just really wished someone would say something. "Cool," Ymir said with a crooked grin. The others smiled at me, completely comfortable, saying how they were fine with it and such. Except for Jean, who said nothing and kind of just sat next to me and looked out the window. I decided not to say anything for now.
"Hey, Jean?" I asked as we walked back to the dorm. "I-I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable back there. You don't have to worry about it. I mean I don't really even like anyone at the moment." "No, no, it's not that. I'm fine with you being gay and all; I was just a little surprised. And I was spacing out for a while; I've got a lot on my mind." I nodded in response. We were silent until we reached our room. "Do you want to watch a movie?" Jean asked with a grin. "Sure, why not?"
Why? Why did Jean have to like horror movies? I hated horror movies. I'm pretty sure I made a few pathetic squeaking sounds, judging from how Jean laughed whenever I jumped. I ended up hugging my pillow while trying not to hold onto Jean's arm or something. I don't think it'd be a good idea, not after what I told Jean and the others in the café. I couldn't tell if she was honest when she said she was fine with it, and I wasn't risking anything. I jumped as my phone started ringing. 'Am I more than you bargained for yet? I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear, 'cause that's just who I am this week-" "Hello?" "Marco!" a voice shouted into the phone. "Hi Sophie, I smiled. "What are you up to? Isn't it past your bedtime?" I asked. It was about 8:00, about the time I would tuck her into bed when mom was at work. "Yeah, but mommy says I can talk to you for a while. I miss you!" "Already? You just saw me this morning." "Yeah, but I reeeeeeeeally miss you!" "Okay then, tomorrow you go and ask mom if you can borrow the computer and we can talk on Skype for a while. I'll call you when I'm ready, alright? Now go get some sleep. I love you." "I love you too Marco! Bye-bye!"
"Who was that?" Jean asked after I hung up. "My little sister, Sophie. She had a birthday party to go to, but if she didn't she'd probably want to see the dorm and 'help' me unpack by digging through my stuff." "I'll bet," Jean laughed. "I have an older brother and an older sister. They're really successful and went to those really nice colleges." I hummed in response, doodling in my sketchbook. "Well, I think I'm gonna get some sleep," Jean said after a while of conversation. "Okay. I'm gonna draw for a few more minutes and then I'll turn the lights out, okay?" "Alright. G'night." I put a headphone in and listened to some music while and drew until I ran out of ideas. Jean mumbled something unintelligible as she slept. Maybe I could… no. No Marco, you can't draw your roommate; not after just meeting her today and especially not when she's sleeping, I chided myself. I sighed and put my sketchbook away, turning out the light and going to sleep.
[Alright, so to all of my old followers, I'm sorry, but I deleted my Soul Eater stories. I couldn't do it, and I just really lost interest in them. I'm really sorry, but I promise to try my hardest to make these updates on this story! If you have any suggestions for the title, please give me some suggestions! Also, if there are any grammatical errors, don't be afraid to point them out to me! I could always use some help with editing and such.]