Have you ever cried for someone you don't know, for someone you will never meet?
Staring to your eyes, I can see world spinning behind them. Spinning from life to death, wondering where the universe begins and where it ends.
You know, don't you? But you won't tell me, will you? So I cry, cry for something you can't understand, you don't want to understand.
Enlightenment is something no one asks for and yet there are times when it hit you like a warhammer.
Truth is always too much to bear, always. But it's wonderful to know. And scary.
Did I mentioned it's scary?
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I am watching you slicing wrists, eyes dead, nothing else left in your life. You gave her everything, didn't you? She hadn't asked you to do that, yet still you did it. She didn't encourage you to do so instead she warned you. You knew Her life was like extinguishing candle in the wind but you did not care, knowing exactly how this whole tragedy is going to end.
So I am watching your dying. You decided to follow her...
I don't know you, we haven't even spoken but strangely I know you.
And I cry. Why? I ask myself. No, there is no answer for that question.
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You are facing Death itself and you don't hesitate to take its bony hand. Second person in your life who cares at least one bit about you...
You told yourself you will never cry again but you can't help it now.
Because she is taking you where you really want to be.
But I cry. I don't know why. Because your life is lost?
No. These are tears you were unable to shed in your entire life.
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She is your sister, Gabrielle, they used to tell you. You can't love her, not now, not tomorrow, not ever. Who named you, Gabrielle, after Archangel Gabriel, the Messenger of God? When I imagine you, you hold bouquet of lilies. The one angel who has female spirit...
But you did, you loved Fleur. Fleur, flower, lily. Names, symbols. You two were meant to be together but this cruel world denied so.
For this I cry... for this world.
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You hold her hand now, standing in the field of flowers that means so much to both of you.
You are happy. Now. Was it worth it?
Yes, I think it was. For seeing your sister to smile like that, this special smile she saves only for the one she ever loved.
She saved this smile for you, Gabrielle.
What message God gave you? No don't tell me, I know. And this is why I cry. Because I know. Because it was me who was supposed to deliver it.