After all

A/N: Ok, this wasn't an easy one to write but I needed to do it. I hope you enjoy and click a little button to tell me what you think and if I should post the second chapter. Enjoy!

Derek Shepherd loved his little sister like crazy, but she had a way of making him want to pull out his own hair. He always took care of her and she'd always be a child to him. Though she was growing up fast...too fast for her own good perhaps. They'd been through a lot together, but he was strong.

And no matter how much she tried to look strong and uncaring she was broken and weak. Not that she would ever accept that or talk about her feelings...what could actually make her feel better.

Derek had just gotten married and was living with Addison. She had a soft spot for Amelia and she saw her for who she really was. The little girl who had lost her father and was crying in her brother's arms only a couple of years ago. The newlyweds had invited Amy to stay over at their house for the weekend and though she played it cool and pretended to be annoyed, she was really happy about it. She liked spending time with them. Not a lot of time 'cause they annoyed each other after a while.

Amelia and Addison were sitting in the living room talking about boys, contraception, family and other sisterly things as the Sun started to hide. Amelia was drinking a cold Coke and Addi a glass of red wine. "I don't know, Addie...I'm ready and I wanna do it already." The teenager said as she took a sip from the can. "Ok, as long as you're ready. Just...you know...be...careful."

Addison told her little sister while lifting her eyebrows. "I'm not twelve I know I have to use a condom." Amelia said and the her sister-in-law couldn't help but thinking that she wasn't that much older than twelve. As Addison prepared her mouth to answer, the front door opened and Derek walked in. The sisters looked at each other giving a silent vow of silence. He knew they were talking about so

mething that they didn't want him to know. He frowned but didn't say anything. He greeted his wife with a kiss and put his arm around his little sister. "Hey. How are two you doing?" Amelia answered smiling. "We're fine, Derek. We can survive without you for a couple of hours." "Ha-ha. Very funny, Amy." Addison couldn't help but laugh, like she always did when she saw how Amelia bothered her husba

nd. "We're fine, honey." Addison said trying not to laugh. The couple kissed and Amelia wrinkled her nose in disgust. "Yeah I really didn't wanna see that." She stood up and walked towards the stairs. "Where are you going, Hurricane Amelia?" Derek said as he parted from Addison's lips. "To my room...well, the guest room. Leave you two to make out alone...yuck. And don't call me that."

Amelia said already walking up the stairs without looking back. Addison and Derek kept on talking and making out in a very newlyweds kind of way while Amelia was alone in the guest room. She closed the door and started looking through her bag pack. She took out the clothes she had taken and there it was. A little bag with perfectly round little pills inside. She smiled as she put two in her hand.

"Shit." She said nearly whispering. She put them in her pocket and walked down the stairs and back into the living room. Without looking at her brother and sister-in-law she grabbed the can of Coke she had left on the table. "Just wanna grab somethin' to drink. I'm leavin'." and went to her room again barely hearing Derek telling her they were going to call her when the dinner was ready.

She was so eager to take them she didn't care where she was or who she was with. Her body and her mind were already asking for it. She put the pills in her mouth and took a sip from the can allowing them to go through her throat. She lay in her bed and felt as her body started to feel different, her sight changed and she couldn't keep a train of thought. She liked this. No, she loved this. This felt so much better than all the crap she felt on a daily basis. No emptiness, no sadness, no being strong for her mother, no memories, just the high. When she felt she could stand up she went to the window and took a look at the stars. So beautiful, so bright, so lonely. Then she felt a knock on the door and it opened. "Amelia..." Addison said. "It's polite to wait for a reply after you knock."

She said angrily. "I...I'm sorry...I didn't... Are you ok, Amy?" Addison saw she didn't look...was she drugged? She stepped closer to her sister and looked at Amelia's pupils. "Dilated...Amelia, are you high?!" The older woman said raising her voice making Derek hear her and walk over to the two women. Amelia pushed her away and sat on the bed hugging her legs. "Go away, Addison."
"Amelia, I am not..!" Addison started to walk towards her but stopped when she noticed Derek was behind her. She saw Amelia's expression and turned to her husband where she saw anger like she hadn't seen before, but under that, she saw fear. "Wh-What the hell is going on?" He said in a harsh tone of voice, without yelling but wanting to.

Amelia pushed her body further up against the wall, feeling cornered. "Nothing. Now just leave me the hell alone." "Amelia..." Addison said before turning to face her husband. "I..." She didn't know what to do or say. The only thing she knew is that they needed to do something. Amelia had been showing signs for a while but she had never taken drugs while staying with them. "She's high."

Addison said turning her eyes to her feet. Derek was shocked but only for a second. Then he simply looked at his little sister with cold eyes and went towards the door. Tears had started to burn their way into Amelia's eyes when he looked back at her. "I can't believe you, Amelia. You're unbelievable. This... I'm calling mom. You need help, Amelia. And I'm sick and tired of you acting like this!" He said raising his voice. He left the room and went towards the stairs. Amelia's cheeks were already wet. When had she started crying? She couldn't talk or go after her brother. Maybe she didn't want to either. Addison looked at her with pity in her eyes. "I..." Amelia interrupted her when she was trying to find the words and the courage to speak.

"Don't! Don't say anything! Just leave!" The girl said helplessly fighting the tears. Addison turned on her heels and went after her husband. She saw him going down the stairs and walked faster to catch up to him. "Wait! Derek!" He finally looked at her when they reached the bottom of the stairs but didn't say a thing. "Derek, I don't know...

I don't know if this is the right thing...if we should call your mother." He was angry and his tone was harsh. "Do you think I like this? Do you think I want to call my mom? That I want to tell her that after everything she's been through, everything she's done for us...that Amy's...She's... A goddamn drug addict?!"

He was yelling now and Addie couldn't hold back the tears. She knew this wasn't easy for him so she just nodded, letting him know that she supported his decision to call Carolyn. Amelia hadn't been able to move since they had left her room. She was hugging her knees up to her chest and crying.

This couldn't be happening. But she was goddamn 'Hurricane Amelia' so of course it was happening to her. She always messed up and people always ended up hating her or leaving her. But she just didn't know how to be any other way. So she just stayed there. Waiting for the inevitable. Waiting for her brother to barge in and scream at her,

for her mother to cry, for Addison to look at her with pity, for her sisters to be ashamed of her.

After all, that was always what happened.

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