Disclaimer: I own, ok, get ready for this... Nothing! This is a songfic and the song is by Coldplay entitled In My Place.
A/N: This takes place before Erik takes Christine through the mirror, and are Erik's thoughts on the matter.
In my place, in my place,
Were lines that I couldn't change,
I was lost, oh yah.
Seeing her sing this evening at the gala was perfect. Finally she was able to show off her talents in front of France's finest. I had brought her to what she was now, and yet that boy wanted to bask in her glory. Woo her to becoming his. No, I wouldn't let that happen. I know where I belong in her life and tonight I would make sure she knew it as well. At her side I would always be, and that would never change. Never.
I was lost, I was lost,
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed,
I was lost, oh yah.
I knew I shouldn't be doing this as soon as I had the key to her room in my hand. Yet it was too late for me now. I was in too deep, lost in the memory of her voice and beauty. I made a final decision as I turned the lock to her room. There was no going back now, I had crossed that line a long time ago when I fell in love with her.
How long must you wait for it?
How long must you pay for it?
How long must you wait for it, for it?
Years I molded and trained her, helped ease the pain and suffering. I was there the nights she cried and mourned her father. I consoled her and felt her pain as I would my own. I was an expert at that, never knowing in my life anything but pain and suffering as well. Now I was risking everything we had built by finally revealing who I am, this horrid face the only thing separating us, our love. Sometimes it was to much to handle, but not tonight. The tears would not come again tonight. My Christine would be with me. I have waited long enough.
I was scared, I was scared,
Tired and under prepared,
But I'll wait for it.
Now she would know the truth. What if she's angry for the lies I told her? What if she doesn't accept me? What if... To many questions, they terrify me. My breathing began to become short and painful, like sharp knives were slicing me. I still continued with my plan as I made my journey back to the mirror. Not ready for rejection if it should occur. It probably would, but just for the chance to hold her in my arms, if only for tonight, I'll gladly wait for it.
And if you go, if you go,
And leave me down here on my own,
Then I'll wait for you.
I must show her that I can love her more than her childhood sweetheart ever could. Still a part of me ponders over the thought if she does choose him over me. Leaving me alone in this living grave five cellars under the world she would be living in, with him. Never could I love another like her. I would wait for all eternity for her to return should she change her mind, and if she doesn't, then I will die with the memory of this night, alone. My only regret being that I can't embrace a memory in my arms.
How long must you wait for it?
How long must you pay for it?
How long must you wait for it, for it?
Watching her now, all alone in the dark, I wanted to rush in and take her in my arms. Assure her everything would be all right now that I was there. Confess my undying love and devotion to her alone, that I would never leave her, and she would never have to worry of my ever straying from her. To her and her alone I would pledge my love forever. I would gladly do all she wished of me and more. Whatever burden of hers I would take as my own. The seconds ticked by as I watched her. They felt like life times. Patience Erik, patience. It's almost time.
Singing please, please, please,
Come back and sing to me,
To me, me.
Come on and sing it out, now, now.
Come on and sing it out, to me, me.
Come back and see me.
Finally to hear her voice is to breathe again. I had heard the performance only earlier this evening but it was as if I haven't heard that clear melodic sound for years. I listened to her, greedily gulping down the air of her song. It was my own private concert, too beautiful for others to fully appreciate .
In my place,
in my place,
Were lines that I couldn't change,
I was lost, oh yah, oh yah.
The moment had arrived for my love and I to finally close the distance between us. We had past the point of no return and the bridge that we crossed burned, oh how it burned. Beautiful crimson flames like the ones I felt for her that would never go out or diminish in the slightest. If anything, they would grow as they did now with the anticipation of her hand in mine. I beckoned her with my gloved hand, reassuring her she was safe. Hesitantly she lowered her hand to mine and I could feel the warmth before we even made contact, yes through the gloves! An electric current that was undeniable caused the fire to blaze out of control. Unknowing to her, I was lost forever.
A/N: I was listening to this song and thought it would be a great songfic. Please leave a review and let me know what you think. Thanks -GP