I played with the past/present tenses to show his progress in thinking. Tell me what you think. I'd be happy for any pointers! :)
Ciao,
heartforthehopeless
I love her and she loves me. It wasn't enough to save her. She's lost to me forever. She belongs here, but she left to die for him. There wasn't any way I could save her. No! I should have tried harder. Does she love me? Yes, I know she does. It wasn't enough. Not enough to save her. Why couldn't she love me enough? I'm still trying to calculate what I did wrong. Wasn't I good enough? Didn't I give it my best shot? I put her back together. Don't I get something for that?
Now she's dead. Her screams fill the air. Cold as ice and as hard as stone. Time slows to a stop because she can live forever. No need for arms to help her up as the grace invades her body. She lost it. Her innocence and worth have vanished. She lost her flawed perfection.
I feel the rain start to fall. I can barely breathe. I scream for her. Can she hear it? I'm broken. I'm not sure where to go or what to do from here. I think of her in his arms. I couldn't have it all. She took it away. Did she love me? Yes, I know she did.
Your presence is still here. I'm tied to the life you left behind. I replay the memories of you in my head, the moments you were so in love with me. The sparkle in your eyes as you laughed. Your beauty in everything you did. Do I cross your mind? Your memories fade. Mine will last. Will you know me if I pass you on the street? Yes, as an enemy. Not as a friend or as a lost love. The memories you carelessly gave away are the ones I cherish. You will live forever but will it be worth it? I loved you with all my heart. I wanted to give you everything a real life could. Did you love me? Yes, I know you did. I want to know the truth. Was immortality worth the love you threw away? The love that legends say should last forever?
R x R