Hey fanfiction world! Yinji back again. I entered this story in a contest here : stories/54464/chapters/1 please go and heart it if you enjoyed this! Arigato! Dedicated to all of those who think that they aren't worth anything or self harming. Please don't give up. Don't own hxh and enjoy!

Darkness..Kurapika was drowning in darkness. Ever since the massacre of his clan, he was having repeating dreams of it. Empty eye sockets. Blood. The blood of his people. That's why he self-harmed. To erase the mental pain. He wanted to be there, to help them. But he had to be away on a trip. He felt worthless, powerless, and unwanted.

Kurapika slashed his wrists, again and again, satisfied. He thought he was worthless. Sure, he had Gon, Killua, and Leorio, but those were his only true friends. Kurapika cut again, then bandaged his arms up and went to bed.

The next morning, there was a new message on his phone. It was from Gon.

" Hey Kurapika! How are you doing? Killua and I are doing fine. Can you come and meet us at Whale Island soon? We haven't seen you in a while! Leorio called earlier, and he's going to meet us there as well! Hope we can see you soon! -Gon"

Kurapika smiled, a real one, his first in a while. He texted Gon back, saying that he'll get there as soon as possible. Pulling on his long-sleeved white clothes, he made sure that the scars didn't show. Then, he packed his bag and got on the next boat to Whale Island.

"Kurapika!"

As Kurapika stepped off of the boat, he heard the familiar voices of his friends. He looked in the directions of the voices and saw them. Gon, Killua, and Leorio. Gon was grinning from ear to ear and waving. Killua, as usual was sucking on a candy and had his other hand in his pocket. Leorio stood there waving giving the beginning of a smile.

"Guys!" Kurapika ran toward them where they all gave them a big hug. Kurapika only felt safe in the prescence of his friends. He also felt wanted in the presence of his friends.

It didn't take long for them to see Kurapika's scars. They were all heading to the beach, and Kurapika had to reveal his upper body to swim. Gon seemed confused when he saw them. Killua knew what they were and only shook his head. Leorio just took Kurapika back to Gon's house.

"Kurapika... why do you do it?" Leorio said as he set his briefcase down on the floor.

"I..i" Kurapika just broke down crying.

Leorio didn't say anything. He just wrapped his arms around Kurapika and let him cry and cry. All Leorio knew is that Kurapika was not okay.

When Kurapika finished crying, Leorio applied rubbing alcohol and bandages to all of Kurapika's cuts. Just then, Gon and Killua had come back from the beach.

" Why are there scars all over Kurapika's body? " Gon asked.

"Kurapika.. would you like to explain it to them or would you rather me do it?"

Kurapika sighed. " I think that I should do it. "

Kurapika then went on to tell them about his thoughts of suicide and regret.

As soon as Kurapika finished telling his friends everything, another flood of tears found its way out of his eyes.

"Kurapika...why? Why didn't you tell us?" Gon had tears brimming in his eyes as he hugged Kurapika tightly. " We could've helped you, Kurapika."

"Yeah, Kurapika." Killua said. "If it weren't for you, we wouldn' t have gone on these crazy adventures."

"Kurapika.. every human life touches so many others. If you were dead, a lot of people would be sad. And not just us." Leorio said.

"You're right guys," Kurapika said as he hugged all of his friends tightly. "I'm not worthless after all."

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