'Not What I Expected'
Chapter 1 : Him
Life is empty. Life is really empty.
Oh. Sorry. I didn't introduce myself. I'm Lils, Lily Evans. Welcome to my life. Let me tell you something first, I'm a witch. Yes, a witch. A witch attending Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I was a little shocked and excited when I first received my letter telling me I was a witch.
As I boarded the Hogwarts Express, I met up with the Marauders which consisted of - James Potter, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin and Peter Pettigrew. I even met my best friend who was also a muggle-born - Judy Anderson. Her and I stuck like glue until this year.
We drifted apart and were brought back together by the same guy - James Potter.
. (Last Year)
'Jude! Jude! JUDY!' I was jumping up and down at Platform 9 and ¾ and waving frantically at her.
Judy pushed her trolley and met up with me. We hugged and laughed.
'I'm a prefect, Jude! A prefect!'
'Wow, Lils! I always knew you had in you! - not -'
'Har har,' I said. I punched her lightly like how we always did.
'Well, Lils, James' a prefect too. He was surprised. You should have seen his face!' Suddenly, Judy started cracking up.
'Oh my god. *giggling* James Potter, ringleader of the Marauders, a prefect? So, the moon finally turns pink tonight. Speaking of James, how did you know?'
'Oh, he owled me in the summer, and we have been owling each other ever since.'
As soon as she said 'he owled me in the summer', I felt a little hurt. I didn't know why. I guess after a few seconds, I realized. I was jealous. Can you believe it? Hot-tempered Lily "Lils" Evans jealous over a guy? Ever since the first year, I had always been closer to James. He was my best friend besides Judy. I felt a little hurt that he owled her in the summer, and not me. I shrugged it off and went into the train.
.
Judy and I went onto the Hogwarts Express and was finding the Marauders.
'Hold still will you, Wormtail,' said an annoyed voice.
'But I can't,' replied a whiny voice.
'Oh shut up you two hippoes. I don't know how I put up with you two,' said a stronger voice.
'Here we go again,' said a relieved, yet soft voice.
'Yap, that's the Marauders' compartment all right,' I whispered to Judy. We barged into it and found Peter with make up on, and Sirius putting it on him. Remus was reading the Daily Prophet where else James was shielding Peter from Sirius.
As soon as James saw us, he immediately stood up and said, 'Hey Jude, Lils. How are you?'
Again, I felt hurt. James said hi to Judy first, instead of me. I know, I know. Feeling hurt over the choice of words James says? Weird, but I kept feeling it.
'And what pray tell are you two doing?' asked Judy in a bossy voice.
Sirius and Peter explained the whole shenanigan while I just laughed. Sirius' sister had made friends with a muggle in the holidays and had bought Muggle Cosmetics. Sirius stole some to experiment it with Peter, to find out whether it could be prank material.
Okay, now really fast forward to the present, Sixth Year.
Like I said before,
Life is empty.
No one knows how I feel. James and Judy, the people whom I trust the most, even they didn't know, because it involves them.
I had just found out that I liked him. I like him - James Potter. It took me over a year to find out what the hurt I felt meant whenever I saw him giving more attention to Judy.
Ever since he and I were prefects, everything changed. We were to patrol every night two minutes before curfew to find any students out of bed. Ever since the patrol nights, my 'like' for him began growing and growing.
Usually, I am the more straightforward type. I'll always tell you what I think. But, this was the only topic that was holding me back. But what was it? Rejection of course. My head were filled with What Ifs. What if he only likes me as a friend, he'll reject me of course and our friendship will drift apart.
My friendship drifted apart last year with Judy, and was brought back together by him. Apparently, he didn't know what caused the fight was actually him.
Come to think of it now, everything fits into a puzzle. I wasn't afraid of rejection. I never have been afraid of it. What I was afraid of was that he liked Judy instead of me. No wonder he owled her in last summer, and not me. No wonder he stood up abrubtly to say hello to her, and not me. No wonder he always talked about her, always asking questions about her whenever we went out patrolling.
Judy was a very understanding person, I told her all my problems, and yes even this. But I never told her I was jealous of her, and I didn't dare show it. I only told her mild stuff like he obviously likes you, not me.
She kept on insisting that he doesn't like her and she doesn't like him. (I always kept pestering her on and on whether she liked him or not)
I believed in her, I always have. But part of me refused to. Suddenly, I realized ever since I started liking him, our friendship had grown apart. Even though we were in the same house - Gryffindor - we hardly talk anymore. Heck, we even hardly meet, except for Patrol Nights. We exchange a few words on Patrol Nights. Nothing less, nothing more.
Whenever I walk out of the classroom, I always find myself turning back to see if he was following me or not. But one day, I just faced reality. James Potter can never, I repeat, never like me, plain boring Lily Evans.
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Hiya peeps! My first chapter sucks but it's gonna be great for the future chapters. I did this late one night, so you can't expect something good from me. If I get lots of reviews for this, I'd probably continue. But if I don't, I'll have to see first.
Enjoy reading! cRyStaLLiZeD
Life is empty. Life is really empty.
Oh. Sorry. I didn't introduce myself. I'm Lils, Lily Evans. Welcome to my life. Let me tell you something first, I'm a witch. Yes, a witch. A witch attending Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I was a little shocked and excited when I first received my letter telling me I was a witch.
As I boarded the Hogwarts Express, I met up with the Marauders which consisted of - James Potter, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin and Peter Pettigrew. I even met my best friend who was also a muggle-born - Judy Anderson. Her and I stuck like glue until this year.
We drifted apart and were brought back together by the same guy - James Potter.
. (Last Year)
'Jude! Jude! JUDY!' I was jumping up and down at Platform 9 and ¾ and waving frantically at her.
Judy pushed her trolley and met up with me. We hugged and laughed.
'I'm a prefect, Jude! A prefect!'
'Wow, Lils! I always knew you had in you! - not -'
'Har har,' I said. I punched her lightly like how we always did.
'Well, Lils, James' a prefect too. He was surprised. You should have seen his face!' Suddenly, Judy started cracking up.
'Oh my god. *giggling* James Potter, ringleader of the Marauders, a prefect? So, the moon finally turns pink tonight. Speaking of James, how did you know?'
'Oh, he owled me in the summer, and we have been owling each other ever since.'
As soon as she said 'he owled me in the summer', I felt a little hurt. I didn't know why. I guess after a few seconds, I realized. I was jealous. Can you believe it? Hot-tempered Lily "Lils" Evans jealous over a guy? Ever since the first year, I had always been closer to James. He was my best friend besides Judy. I felt a little hurt that he owled her in the summer, and not me. I shrugged it off and went into the train.
.
Judy and I went onto the Hogwarts Express and was finding the Marauders.
'Hold still will you, Wormtail,' said an annoyed voice.
'But I can't,' replied a whiny voice.
'Oh shut up you two hippoes. I don't know how I put up with you two,' said a stronger voice.
'Here we go again,' said a relieved, yet soft voice.
'Yap, that's the Marauders' compartment all right,' I whispered to Judy. We barged into it and found Peter with make up on, and Sirius putting it on him. Remus was reading the Daily Prophet where else James was shielding Peter from Sirius.
As soon as James saw us, he immediately stood up and said, 'Hey Jude, Lils. How are you?'
Again, I felt hurt. James said hi to Judy first, instead of me. I know, I know. Feeling hurt over the choice of words James says? Weird, but I kept feeling it.
'And what pray tell are you two doing?' asked Judy in a bossy voice.
Sirius and Peter explained the whole shenanigan while I just laughed. Sirius' sister had made friends with a muggle in the holidays and had bought Muggle Cosmetics. Sirius stole some to experiment it with Peter, to find out whether it could be prank material.
Okay, now really fast forward to the present, Sixth Year.
Like I said before,
Life is empty.
No one knows how I feel. James and Judy, the people whom I trust the most, even they didn't know, because it involves them.
I had just found out that I liked him. I like him - James Potter. It took me over a year to find out what the hurt I felt meant whenever I saw him giving more attention to Judy.
Ever since he and I were prefects, everything changed. We were to patrol every night two minutes before curfew to find any students out of bed. Ever since the patrol nights, my 'like' for him began growing and growing.
Usually, I am the more straightforward type. I'll always tell you what I think. But, this was the only topic that was holding me back. But what was it? Rejection of course. My head were filled with What Ifs. What if he only likes me as a friend, he'll reject me of course and our friendship will drift apart.
My friendship drifted apart last year with Judy, and was brought back together by him. Apparently, he didn't know what caused the fight was actually him.
Come to think of it now, everything fits into a puzzle. I wasn't afraid of rejection. I never have been afraid of it. What I was afraid of was that he liked Judy instead of me. No wonder he owled her in last summer, and not me. No wonder he stood up abrubtly to say hello to her, and not me. No wonder he always talked about her, always asking questions about her whenever we went out patrolling.
Judy was a very understanding person, I told her all my problems, and yes even this. But I never told her I was jealous of her, and I didn't dare show it. I only told her mild stuff like he obviously likes you, not me.
She kept on insisting that he doesn't like her and she doesn't like him. (I always kept pestering her on and on whether she liked him or not)
I believed in her, I always have. But part of me refused to. Suddenly, I realized ever since I started liking him, our friendship had grown apart. Even though we were in the same house - Gryffindor - we hardly talk anymore. Heck, we even hardly meet, except for Patrol Nights. We exchange a few words on Patrol Nights. Nothing less, nothing more.
Whenever I walk out of the classroom, I always find myself turning back to see if he was following me or not. But one day, I just faced reality. James Potter can never, I repeat, never like me, plain boring Lily Evans.
...................................................
Hiya peeps! My first chapter sucks but it's gonna be great for the future chapters. I did this late one night, so you can't expect something good from me. If I get lots of reviews for this, I'd probably continue. But if I don't, I'll have to see first.
Enjoy reading! cRyStaLLiZeD