Disclaimer: I do not own Gakuen Alice. I just really love it!

They are 14 years old in here.

Chapter 1:Feeling sad

Flashback

"I.. I.. I love you Natsume!" Mikan shouted as the boy turned his back on her.

"Get lost, little girl" he answered back and he continued to walk, leaving the girl behind.

End of Flashback

On a Monday morning, Mikan was walking around the halls of the Academy not being her enthusiastic self. She could not smile due to the confusion of her feelings, yes, she did love Natsume and she was certain this time that what she had some feelings for him. Her confession for the raven haired boy was unexpected even for her, because that night that she told him how she felt, she just blurted out the words not even thinking.

Little did she know that Ruka and Hotaru were watching her.

"I'm getting concerned, Hotaru" The blonde boy said.

"Me too, what the heck is wrong with that idiot?" Hotaru responded.

During class hours, Mikan was just staring blankly at the black board. Natsume was not around during the class. She wondered where he was and if he was mad at her. Suddenly, someone opened the door and Mikan was surprised to find out that it was him. She looked at him for a second and then looked away; she was having a hard time looking at him. She felt like her heart was being broken into pieces as she was looking at him. Natsume took a seat and classes carried on.

After classes, Mikan stood up and walked out of the room.

"I wonder if he's mad at me" she was thinking.

She walked towards her room and plopped on the bed. She didn't feel like doing anything today, not even bug Hotaru or something she just felt numb and sad.

Knock .knock. knock.

"Go away" Mikan said.

"It's me you idiot" Hotaru replied.

"I'm sorry Hotaru but if you're going to hit me with your baka gun, I'm really not in the mood"

"Let me in you or I'll break your door down"

"..Fine" Mikan said as she got up and opened the door.

Surprisingly, Hotaru didn't have her baka gun with her. Mikan plopped on the bed again looking at the ceiling.

"what's bugging you?" Hotaru asked.

"nothing" the brunette replied.

"yeah right, out with it you moron"

"really, its nothing" Mikan assured her bestfriend.

"What's wrong with you? You're not like this Mikan! You idiot!" Hotaru shouted.

Tears started falling Mikan's eyes, she stood up and turned her back on Hotaru.

"I accidentally told Natsume what I feel for him during the dance festival" she said while crying.

"Mikan… Ho--" Hotaru's sentence was cut.

"To tell you the truth, I don't know why I am crying or why I'm sad. Maybe because when I said "I love you" to him he told me to get lost or maybe it's the fact that I know that he hates me or I honestly don't know Hotaru!" she said and she hugged her best friend really tight.

"Idiot. Crying won't help you know, and you look even uglier when you cry, so stop it."

Mikan hugged her best friend tighter and said " Thanks Hotaru, I don't want to cry but I really don't know why I'm like this"

Knock. Knock. Knock.

"Mikan? Hotaru?" It was the voice of Yuu.

"Get dressed, we're going to central town with Yuu, Ruka, Ana and Nonoko" Hotaru said as she smiled on her best friend.

So off they went to Central Town and they all tried to cheer her up. Mikan tried her best to be her old cheerful self , she went shopping with Anna and Nonoko for awhile.

While Mikan was away with the 2 girls, Yuu, Ruka and Hotaru talked about her and what's going on with Mikan.

"I see… so Mikan already told Natsume, huh? " Ruka said in a sad voice.

Ruka still had feelings for Mikan but was not sure about it. Nevertheless, he was very much concerned with Mikan.

"Yes, and Natsume told her to get lost" Hotaru said.

"Poor Mikan" Yuu said.

"I know that Natsume likes her as well and I feel that something is holding him back. Maybe that's why he told her to get lost" Ruka said.

" Havent you talked to him yet?" Yuu asked.

"No, not yet."

Mikan went to them and said "Hotaru, Yuu, Ruka I haven't gotten that much sleep and I'm kind of tired right now. Is it okay if I go ahead?"

"Okay, take care Mikan" Yuu said.

"Okay, take care idiot. Maybe I'll come by your room tomorrow" Hotaru said.

"I'll accompany you back, Mikan" Ruka suggested.

"Thanks Ruka, are you sure?" Mikan asked with a fake smile.

"Of course. Well, should we go?"

"Yes. Bye guys!" she said waving her hand.

After taking the bus back to the dormitories, Ruka wanted to ask her what happened while they were walking.

"Ruka?" Mikan said.

"uh, yes Mikan?" The blonde boy asked.

"….Nevermind" Mikan said smiling.

"Were you going to ask about Natsume?" He said.

Mikan stopped walking. Ruka looked at her and she was starting to cry.

"I'm sorry Mikan"

"No, you didn't do anything, Ruka. I'm really just a crybaby." She said wiping away her tears.

Ruka went closer to her and he hugged her. Mikan was surprised about what he did.

"Thanks a lot Ruka." She said.

"If only you knew that I love you mikan, but I cant let you know" ruka thought.

"Well, I can go by myself to my room, Ruka. I'll see you tomorrow" Mikan said and she ran off.

"I know you're there Natsume" he said

The raven haired boy went down the branch of the tree and went closer to his best friend.

"She's really sad you know"

"I told her to get lost so that she would hate me and forget about me, maybe find someone else. Someone like you"

"Me?" Ruka asked surprisingly.

"I know you like her a lot. You just don't want to tell her. You should actually tell her, you know she'll be happy with you"

Ruka shook his head "No she wont, she loves you"

"Tch. She's an idiot" Natsume replied