They closed the deal well. She did, actually. And it had been a long time since they hadn't had worked together like when they were partner and secretary. Harvey pulling the card that Donna tells him to. The reason why this case got them like before is because it's close to Donna's heart. Patti Mounet was an outstanding Broadway actress, one of her favorites of all time. And the reason she became Harvey's client was because he went after her right after Donna suffer a dislusion for not being picked up between the final three actresses in an off Broadway show. It was about 5 years ago, he even helped her to memorize the lines on his free time but it didn't worked out. She put a lot of effort on that part but it was during a hard time for the firm probably because some of Hardman's bullshit. Watching her coming to the office after that huge disappointment really hit into Harvey's heart, in a way only Donna could. She couldn't help but cry but at the same time didn't wanna make a big deal of it. But he knew how she felt, and he also felt a little bit guilty for not being able to help her pursuing her dreams the way she did with his. That's why he wanted to surprise her, to change the tears for a smile and also to aproach her job with her dream. It took him a lot of contacts to get Patti, but it was worth all the effort. Of course when Donna found out she demanded to go with him to every meeting and of course Patti loved Harvey even more because of her. Those good old days. There was nothing that he wouldn't do for her. That week Patti called needing help with a case with her publicist and it was the perfect excuse for him to call Donna. And they worked close like they used to. Spending as much time as possible in the firm. Harvey was even surprised cause she was free to spend late hours at night, something she stopped doing since Thomas Kessler appeard in her life. After she disclosed that relationship with him he didn't ask anymore questions. Cause the answers hurted too much in ways he couldn't explain. He thinks maybe there's something wrong between the two of them and that's why she's free. So he comes by her office with the excuse of talking about the case but he knew she already knows.
- Hey - he stands in front of her desk with a light smile in his face.
- Hey, what is it?
- So, Patti just called. The deal was closed an hour ago without any inconvenience.
- I know that Harvey, she called me an hour ago. So why are you really here?
He smiles, shyly looking down.
- I just checked my calendar and it turns out that today marks a year since you became COO - He says that with a proud smile on his face. He can't believe it's also the anniversary of when he started dating Paula. He can't believe how far that was and how meaningless that relationship was. But mostly he can't believe he almost fired Donna because of her. He never missed her, not a bit. He actually question himself when his brother made him realize how weird it was to date his therapist. Paula was nice, he enjoyed her company or having someone to come home to but there were no feelings. But he didn't go further with the "why". Of course not, he's Harvey. After they broke up, he actually never thought about her, instead he enjoyed how his relationship with Donna went back to "normal" meaning no more awkwardness of a third person between them, until of course Thomas showed up.
Donna's surprised can't be hidden. Either because she couldn't believe she forgot that important date or because it's Harvey the one who brought that up.
- Oh my God, I can't believe I let that slip by - she actually can believe it, there was a reason why her mind was wandering around other issues.
- What got into you? - He ask laughing.
- So you came here to share some drinks on my behalf?
- Actually I was thinking about our tradition of celebrating anniversaries. Since we didn't do it this year, because of course you stopped being my secretary. I think we have a better reason now.
She smiles looking at him but there's a kind of insecurity in her gaze, and he's aware.
- If you are free tonight of course - He warns himself.
- Actually I am, Thomas is in Miami - Her insecurity comes from the same reasons she didn't remember the date. There's some important decisions to be taken in the near future that will definitely change everything for her, and she's not sure she's ready to tell Harvey about them.
- Good - He smiles. - So be ready in one hour - He left her office a little bit disappointed on the conclussion he had before about a breakup, but he's still looking forward to the dinner with her after so long.
Two hours had passed since they arrived to Del Posto to celebrate their annual tradition which of course was an excuse to enjoy each other's company in a way that only couples do. During that time they remembered old times like they always do, they joke, laugh and drink in a way they haven't done it in a while. They realize how far they have come, together. How much they grew. Harvey is enjoying her company way much. He actually thanks himself he had the courage to ask her instead of being afraid she might say no because of Thomas. He always enjoyed her company and being the focus of her atention, like she was his, like no other woman. Harvey wishes they could do this more often, every week if possible, but then Thomas again crossed his mind.
After a pause of laughter. Donna realize she was distracted the whole night by him but she also had some important issues to disclose with Harvey. She knows it will be hard to swallow but she needs to do it anyway sooner or later so it'll better be sooner. She takes a deep breath, open her mouth to talk when Harvey starts in a confession mode.
- So, the way you worked on this Patti case and also how you handled Louis's transition into managing partner. .. you were great. I mean, Not that you've never been before, you always were... but you've prooved yourself more than worthy of your COO title. And I'm sorry if I ever made you believe otherwise. You are there because you deserved your position more than anyone - He takes his glass of wine and lightly lift it. - So cheers for the best COO the firm ever had.
She smiles - I'm the first one Harvey. - but cheers. Thanks for the compliments.
- For many more years- he says while parting the glasses.
She realize there's the perfect time to bring the subject when He's taking a sip of the wine. Cause she's not going to cheer for something she doesn't even know if it's going to happen.
- Harvey - she says without looking at him cause it's too hard. - there's something I want to share with you. I'm not sure this is the right time cause I haven't made my mind yet but I'd rather be upfront with you now before it's too late.
Harvey put the glass on the table with a terrifying look. - What is it?
- I told you Thomas is in Miami. But it's not because of business. His mother was recently diagnosed with Alzheimer. He went to see her cause he's an only child.
- That's too bad. I'm sorry to hear that.
- It is, actually. He's devastated. She's taking a very good treatment but she's still lost. Having him there made her much better. - she pauses, Harvey looks at her with a ver compassionate gaze. - the thing is that He realize he can't be apart of her because she needs him and he loves his mother so he would do anything for her... he's thinking about moving down there.
Harvey nods. The only scenario that crossed his mind is the one where they broke up because of the distance, and that's why she's sad and lost.
- He asked me to go with him - she drops the bomb. Now she looks at his eyes. He doesn't move or say anything, deep inside this is like a bucket of ice. After a pause, with a face which is a mixed of anger and hurt, he says: - So... are you actually considering?
- Well, yes I am... this might be the hardest decision for me cause either way I have a lot to loose.
Harvey is dying inside. He can't believe she just compare their thirteen years together with her four month old relationship. This is so much for him to take it.
- So, let me know your departure date so I can take your letter of resignation. - he says while he takes the napkin over his lap and put it on a table in a gesture to leave.
- Harvey! Please - Donna says in a tone of desesperation looking at him with eyes wide open. But she know he's Harvey and this is his worst fear so she wants to explain. - I haven't decide anything yet!
He stops his intention of leaving her there. - So what do you want from me ? - an impatience tone says.
- I want to talk this trough. Cause this is not easy for me
- what do you want me to say Donna? I think I made myself clear over the years that I would never consider leaving you. Not for anything. Not for anyone... so I don't think I'm the right person to talk this trough. - he said this with the most truthful tone, without regrets. this confession hits into Donna. He's right, he always choose her and fought for her over the years, with Jessica, Paula, when she almost went to jell. And she feels bad for not being able to do the same this time.
- I know that Harvey... and I did the same for you. I put you and my job over my personal life for as long as I remeber. And I don't regret it cause this is all I ever wanted. But I also want something more. - he heard this before.
- i tought you've got the more you wanted.
- part of it yes. But not everything. I neglected my personal life during all those years and now with Thomas I realize... I want to have someone to come home to, to share other things not work related, someone to grow old with... even to have a family. - Harvey thinks that being hit by a bus would hurt less than this. The woman he loves in a way he could never figured it out how saying she wants a family with another man hurts like someone just took a piece of his heart. He's helpless, he can't do anything about it and all he wants to do is go home and cry. Something he didn't do in a long time.
- Fair enough. Whatever that makes you happy.- He says with a tone of indifference. Clearly making the point that he would never agree with it.
He stands, grab his wallet and put the money on the table to pay the check.
- have to go now. I have some important meetings in the morning. He turns his back on the table and walk away.
Donna realize there's nothing she can do. He's Harvey and this is his way of dealing with the stuff. She feels his pain, of course she does. It is just as hurtful for her. The last thing she wants to do is leaving him. But what if she decides to stay. They're gonna be the same old Donna and Harvey doing the same old dance, and that's it. Nothing more. And she really wants something more and cannot wait anymore. Thomas has everything she had ever wanted in a man. He's sending her at that very moment pictures of the apartments he's looking for them paying special attention to the closet area. He's thoughtful, kind, considerate... not to mention sexy and very good at bed. She thinks she is the man she could fall in love with. But she comes home and the only thint she can think is in Harvey, and she hates herself for that. But in some way she thinks that that's gonna make her decision easier. Harvey is always somehow in the middle of all her relationships. And this isn't any different. If she doesn't go it's gonna be because of him. In Donna's mind there's no way Harvey would ever fulfill her personal wishes. She took what he gave her, a very good friendship and that's all. He was clear with that over the years. So she doesn't want to wait anymore time if that's what she really wants. There's not a lot of Thomas in the sea. She answers him the apartment she likes the most. And he can't believe she's actually agreeing with moving with him. His excitment because they're gonna move together makes her happy. She smiles. She sees her future and it's bright, a little bit terryfing but bright.
Harvey on the other hand comes home and grab his usual scotch. He fills the glass, and drink quickly so the tears that wanted to come earlier wouldn't run over his cheek. The alcohol wouldn't let him think clearly. He ask himself "how?". He tries to make a memory lane to get to the conclusion on how the last thing he could ever expected is happening. Of course it's because of Thomas, he hates him, how can he feel with the authority of making Donna choose somehting this big? It's selfish. But even if they don't move he's still the man Donna wants to share a family with. Why?? His body is full of alcohol so he can't think clearly. A lot of thoughts run trough his mind, but not conclussion. At the end of the night he thinks maybe it's better to let her go instead of watching her moving on with him. He's sure he can't stand watching her being happy with another man. Because in his mind she is, because Thomas can give her something he couldn't and he never feel the capacity to do it. He's jealous like he never been. So maybe the distance will help him to forget her. Better to rip the band aid off quickly. Lot of other thought run trough his mind before he fell asleep.
