Chapter 1
Casey was in the courtroom waiting to go up against the board, to see what her punishment would be for lying to a federal judge to put a criminal behind bars. She had really fucked up, and she knew that. How could she go against everything she'd worked for, how could she make a mistake so big as to ruin her career. She couldn't believe she had done it, she was so disappointed in herself and knew Alex was too. Her sweet, beautiful and kind Alex. Her girlfriend of over 3 years.
She felt sick. She needed a release. She needed something to help her breathe. She started to get anxious and panicked.
Alex took her hand in hers and tried to reassure her. "It's okay baby. Whatever happens, we'll get through it together. I'm here. You can do it. I love you, Case. So much, you made a mistake. We'll put it right. It'll be okay"
"I... I, uh... Omg what did I do? Alex, I've ruined my career. What the hell am I gonna do. I can't believe I've done this" Casey said, between cries.
"Case, you made a mistake. You can put it right. We can put it right. They haven't even made their decision yet. It's gonna be okay, I promise. I'm here for you. I know this is hard, but I'm here every step of the way. I love you baby" Alex reiterated.
"What if I can't do Lex? What if I've ruined everything? What if I go back to the way I was before. I can't do this, any of it. I can't control it anymore, I've fucked up Alex, I know I have. I'm trying so hard not to do it, but it's getting so much harder not to give in. I need to do it so badly" Casey cried.
At 14, Casey was sexually assaulted by her history teacher and for a long time she had trouble dealing with it. She soon started cutting, and she'd been doing it on and off ever since. She was so scared she was going to go down that road again, and she didn't know what to do. She was taking her meds but they didn't seem to be working and after she'd made the mistake of lying to the federal judge, she started to become depressed again. She hadn't told Alex how bad it had become but Alex had an idea, and she was keeping an extra eye on Casey when she was with her.
Casey's life had been full of misery and heartbreak. When she was 10, her father was murdered on his way to work. She'd got sexually assaulted at 14, and she was bullied all through high school because of it. And when she was 22, her mother died from a long battle with breast cancer. Her twin sister Holly shunned her and wanted nothing to do with her after their mother's death and their older sister Sasha was nonexistent in their life's. She struggled with her sexuality and was even involved in an abusive and controlling relationship.
A/N: Should I continue with this story? Would it be something you would all follow and enjoy reading? Please review and let me know. You know what to do. I love you all.