Without your hold on me

Chapter1: IS there still love?

I OWN NOTHING!

Harry's eyes surveyed the land, taking in every little detail. It was amazing to a point of almost it being creepy about how mush it had changed over only the year in which he hasn't seen it. The once green and trimmed grass was down brown, overgrown and dried-up. The school had a gapping hole in it that he knew would be fixed, somehow, before it reopened. The lake was a muggy brownish color. The only thing that really remained the same was the forest at the far end of the grounds.

He leaned by a near-by tree and slide down to the grass. He was alone on the grounds for almost everyone else was either packing or in the great hall, either looking over their dead or getting help with their wounds. Harry pulled his knees into his chest, resting his head on his knees.

"Why can't I fell anything? Shouldn't I feel something? Sad? Happy? Relived? Anything?" The question was to no one, just to the air. "Are there any answers?" Harry whispered the last part, closing his eyes tight.

Harry stood like that for what seemed like forever, just letting the cool air hot his face and letting the smell of the trees hit his for what seemed like the first time.

"Shouldn't you be inside celebrating with everyone else?" A voice caused Harry to stand and point his want at the person to who it belonged to, making her jump back.

"Oh," Harry put his wand away, "Sorry Ginny; force of habit."

"That's ok, I know what you mean," Ginny's eyes looked past Harry, almost as if tiring not to look at him, "So, why are you out here all by yourself? People have been looking for you everywhere."

Harry lowered his head, looking at his feet, noticing for the first time that there was almost nothing left to his shoe, "I'm sorry." The words came out broken and low but they cam out, letting out a stream of inner emotion along with it.

"What are you talking about? Sorry? For what?" Ginny asked, glaring at Harry's head.

Harry closed his eyes and bit his lip, turning his head away from Ginny. He let out a great sigh and reopened his eyes, "Ginny," His voice was soft and kind; his eyes were now looking right into her own, "For everything, everything. Ever since you began to get close to me…" His voice trailed off, his eyes now looking past her, "..I mean your first year even. He even used you against me then-"

"-Harry-" Ginny started

"Ginny, please. Just let me finish," Ginny nodded slowly, "Every year something happened. Then last year with everything that happened to us and now…now because of me your brother is dead." Harry turned from her, His hand in a fist on the tree.

"Harry, don't say that-"

"ITS TRUE!" Harry burst out, his hands raised above his head, "It was my fault, Ginny. He died while tiring to protect me. Just like so many others. BEAUCSE OF ME!" Harry was now back on the ground, a single tear falling down his face. He angrily wiped it away and looked into the forest.

"Harry," Ginny placed her hand under his chin and made him look her in the eyes,"

Harry, look at me. None of this is your fault. None. Of. IT. No one is mad at you." Ginny bit her lip, willing her tears to stay in her eyes.

"Its not that Ginny. I was afraid. I was afraid for everyone; but mostly for you. I was so worried about you, always wondering and hoping you were fine…" Harry let his thought trail off, not needing to complete it.

Ginny wiped at a tear that fall from her eyes. Her voice was weak when she spoke again, "Harry, I was always fine, but you don't know how worried we were for you. We only knew that you hadn't been found by Volamort; but past that we didn't know anything. We were all so worried." Ginny put her hand between Harry's and looked down to avoid his gaze, "Harry, When…when I saw. When I saw," Ginny wiped away another tear with her free hand, licking her lips slowly, "When I saw you I thought you were…you weren't moving…and Volamort kept saying ….Harry, I thought you were de-" Ginny couldn't finish the sentence because she broke down crying, her body shaking.

Harry put his free hand under Ginny's chin and forced her to look at him, he wiped a tear from her check, "You thought I was dead?" The question was spoken very low, barely heard over the sobs but Ginny nodded and broke down even more. Harry pulled both hands away and put them around her, pulled her down and into a hug.

"It was h-horrible….Yo-you were o-o-ur last…It seemed so real.." Ginny spoke these words between sobs, not caring if he heard or not.

"Shhh….shhhh" Harry rubbed her back and silenced her, pushing her a little away from him so as he can see her face, "Ginny. Look at me. I will never leave you." His voice was now stern and strong, reassuring Ginny.

Ginny pulled away and dried her eyes, her breathing slow and clam. She looked put into Harry's eyes, "What now? What will happen to us. I waited Harry. I did." Ginny never left her eye contact with Harry, wanting to know the truth.

"I hoped you would. I know we can't go back to what we were but we can try." Harry took Ginny's hands in his own, still keeping the eye contact, "Will you be willing to try? Do you want to?"

Ginny brought Harry into a large hug, wrapping her arms around him tight, She then pressed her lips down on his, her hands combing his hair while his own moved slowly up and down her back. Harry then titled his head, licking her lips a bit while she did the same; she then slowly pulled away, "Those that answer your question?"

Harry beamed down at her, his heavy breathing thick on her lips. He moved in closer, giving her a small peck and pulled away, "I," Harry gave her another peck, "Love," He then pushed his lips heavily down on hers, moving his hand to the back of her neck and as he was slowly pulling away he re-said what he wanted to, "I love you. Ginny, I love you so mush."

Ginny stared at Harry in pure disbelief, "What? W-w-what did you say?"

Harry looked Ginny in the eyes, talking slower then before, "I love you."

A tear streamed down Ginny's check and she smiled widely, "Y-you mean that?"

Harry stood up, helping Ginny up with him. He wiped all her tears away, He looked down at her, "I would never lie about something like that."

Ginny hugged Harry tightly, "I love you too."

Um..this isn't really a one shot, I just really wanted Giiny's reaction to Harry's "death" been known. I hope you enjoyed it. Review!