Well I've only read a few RukiaxGin fanfics and most of them are one shots so I decided to try and write a full story of RukiaxGin. I randomly thought of this idea at 1am in the morning. So I took out my notebook and wrote as many ideas as possible. and here we are. 8D

I really hope everyone (well not everyone.) likes it. Hopefully if I get enough reviews, I just might add a nice sexy party. ;D (that's my friend and mine's way of saying sex scene.) -rubs hands together- I'm quite excited about writing this.

I do not own any of these characters. XD If I did then it would have been banned by now.

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Rain again. How gloomy.

The rain was never a good friend of hers. In fact, it was an enemy to her. The rain always sent a dart of anguish at her heart. There were so many memories in every raindrop. But unlike the rain, her memories couldn't wash away. Her memories couldn't dry out in the sunlight's warm beams to start life anew. They stuck to her. They been stuck there for a long time now.

It seemed the rain gave her a chain of memories, linked to one another. One memory would remind her of another. They reminded her of him...

The day she lost the one that meant to her the most. Kaien Shiba. Her teacher. Her friend. Gone. Gone forever. And to this day still sends streams of pain to her heart.

Back in those days the rain was a reminder of happy thoughts. Back when she was with Kaien, they rain would remind of her of those times where she spent her rainy days in the Rukongai with Renji. She would feel sad, missing him, but Kaien would be there to heal the wounds in her heart and everything would be alright. But those days are gone now. Now the only times she can ever see her precious teachers face is in her dreams.

She loved him. She never denied that. But then there was Miyako. His wife. Yes, Rukia admired her so much but at the same time envied her a little. Every time she saw those two together, a part of her just wished she could be Miyako. Even just for one day to be in her shoes. Just to see what it was like being held, being caressed, being kissed. By him. But she knew that was entirely impossible. Even back then. His heart belonged to Miyako. And she accepted that. That just made her admire Miyako even more. Not only was she strong, but also she had a great husband. But then again, Rukia wanted to blame her for their misfortune. When she actually thought about it, if it weren't for her getting possessed by that hallow, he wouldn't have died. He'd still be right there with her. And who knows? Maybe they could have had a chance. But then again, whenever someone is at fault they always want to point fingers at someone else. What's done is done. She can't change the past and she was aware of that.

Then came Ichigo. She couldn't really explain it. She knew she had feelings for that stupid orange haired boy, but knew that their love could never be. Not only because they were from two different worlds, but that it seemed like their relationship could only be passed as a brotherly sisterly type. Plus he resembled Kaien far too much and that wouldn't be fair to Ichigo. If they ever hugged she would be picturing her teacher, not Ichigo. If they ever kissed, she would be imagining Kaiens lips on hers, and not Ichigos. She couldn't put herself or him through that. And he had Orihime. Funny how things work out like that? How history seems to repeat itself. First Kaien and Miyako, now Ichigo and Orihime.

He knew her way before he knew Rukia. Orihime understood Ichigo more as he did her. They were a match made in heaven. Why would she interfere with that? Orihime has been waiting for him her whole life. And who was she to steal that? Orihime deserved him. Despite of how much it pained her, she tried to be happy for them. And they still treated Rukia as an equal. And in Orihime's case, a best friend. All though Rukia saw her as a love rival, but couldn't help but feel the same way towards her. But she wished they all didn't feel that way towards her. They meant so much to her, but it just wouldn't work out. They were all just too different from each other.

They were humans. They have someplace to go back to, People to expect and welcome them back, a life to live at the fullest. And then they die. They're so lucky. They could die in so many different ways. Peacefully, painfully, unexpectedly, even quickly. But not her. Yes, she could die. Any shinigami could. But not like how a human could. A human's life is kind of like an hourglass. There's only a specific amount of time to live. But when the sand runs out, that's it. Nothing left. You can't turn it over again. It's the end of the line. You stop existing. That's why humans have such a tremendous will to live. It's almost like a game once you think about it. Trying to beat the clock almost. Trying to get everything you can do in-between life and death. She gave it some thought.

"So that's what they mean..." She thought out loud.

"What does what mean Kuchiki Rukia?" A smooth sounding with a hint of chill crawled up behind her.

She froze. She forgot how to breathe. Everything, even the rain seemed to have gone quiet. The damp chilly feeling of the weather seemed to have faded now into an uncomfortable stuffy feeling. Kind of like the feeling of when you hold your breath. She felt like her circulation just froze up. She knew that voice anywhere.

"I...Ichimaru Gin..." She stuttered. She didn't need to turn around to know it was him. The sudden uncomfortable feeling she has now was enough to know. She knew he was right behind her with his famous mocking smile on his face.

"What do you want Ichimaru Gin?" She managed to mutter out as coldly as she could. He didn't react towards her tone. He never did.

"What's wrong Rukia?" He asked in his usual soft cheerful tone. "You sound as if you're not happy to see me?"

She tried to laugh, but it only came out half-heartedly. "I can't really be happy to see you if I'm not even looking at you."

Then there was silence. She looked back out at the rain. But still couldn't seem to hear it. She suddenly felt awkward. She had to admit that was a pretty dumb comeback and probably shouldn't have said anything. She almost felt embarrassed. But why? She was almost wishing he were to hurry up and say what he needed.

He then set her free with his soft laughter. "Then why don't you turn around and face me then?"

She stiffened. She hoped that he was just joking as usual. Playing around with her emotions like many other times. But not this time. She couldn't sense any humor. None whatsoever.

" Rukia..." He said her name slowly. Almost as if he were savoring the feeling of her name rolling off his tongue. "That's an order."

An order? Why does he think he can start giving her orders?! Turning around and looking at him was the last thing she ever wanted to do. She knew what was waiting for her. That same wide grin carved into his face. That same smile that haunts her anytime something remotely seems similar to him. But she did. She obediently turned towards him slowly. But she looked at the ground. She couldn't look at him. It was too overpowering.

He then laughs tauntingly. " Why can't you look at me?"

She could sense his snake-like grin glowing down upon her. She didn't need to see him to know that. It was always there. She sighed.

"Just tell me what you want Ichimaru Gin..."

"Fair enough. I saw you gazing out at the rain. You looked so deep in though and I felt...concerned." He finished with a hint of fake concern.

"Concerned?!" She blurted out. She knew that was a lie. He can't be concerned about anyone! Could he? It just didn't fit his character. Without thinking, she looked up at him. Big mistake. She felt like a mouse being cornered by a snake. She felt trapped. She then felt that familiar tingle she always gets when he's around. The feeling of snakes slithering all over her small helpless body. She's learned to deal with it better but it was still as powerful as ever.

He leaned forward and she was as stiff as a rock. She didn't know what he was planning nor did she want to find out. He leaned towards her hearing range and whispered.

"What were you thinking about?"

She snapped out of her trance. Time started to flow back in. She sound of rain beating against the rooftop came rushing back into her ears. That stuffy feeling she had earlier disappeared into a sudden chill from rainy weather. She should have known. Why would she think even for a second he would be even remotely concerned? Especially about her. Noticing her in train of thought, he leans back and smiles wider.

"Hey, cheer up Rukia. It's gloomy enough with the rain." What did he just say?! She thought, sparks of anger flashing in her eyes. Why you...

"Ichimaru Gin..." A third voice entered the scene. Rukia darted her eyes in the direction of where it came from and there stood Byakuya. Obviously not too impressed by their unexpected visitor. "Ah, Captain Kuchiki." Gin greeted warmly, not affected at all by Byakuya's coldness towards him. "I was just leaving..." And with a small hand gesture he turned his heel and was gone.

Everything felt to light afterward. She could finally breathe normally. Byakuya had nothing to say and in a flash was gone himself. He never bothered to ask why he was here or what he wanted. Maybe he already knew? Or was he listening? She put those thoughts aside and decided not to question her brother's behavior. She continued to look out at the rain trying to continue where she left off before she was ever so rudely interrupted. But she couldn't. Now the only thing she could think of was that slanted grin directed at her. His voice acting out fake concern. She wanted to gag. She wanted to wipe that picture out of her memory completely but couldn't. It stuck to her just like all her other memories.

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Phew! There, I hope you guys liked it SO FAR. Feel free to give me crits and suggestions. I'm a bit rusty with fanfic writing and it's been a while since I've seen Bleach (all though I'm quite ahead watching and reading it.) This sounds like a one-shot a little bit, but I'm going to see how far I can go with this fic. 8D I have some epic ideas now I just need to figure out how to word it and how it'll end up.