Dazai grabbed my throat and smashed my face against the wall
We know what you are, he sneered
I gasped for air as he slammed my head against the brick mortar again
And again
And again
Bubbles of blood dripped out my nose
Twinkling stars of black and white shot across my shut eyelids as I hit the ground
He had placed his boot on top of my right cheek, grinding down
Mercy, I begged
He removed his boot from the surface of my face
Ripped my shirt off
And examined the bandages around my chest
The bandages were soaked through with blood, especially on my back
Where I had been whipped
For being an undomesticated white tiger
He took his belt off
I cringed
Expecting my back
To be laced with red stripes
On top of my brown ones
Bruises like exploding stars
Decorated my skin
Beautiful, he sighed
Absolutely-
Breathtaking
And with those words spoken into the air,
He tied my wrists together with his warm belt
Covered my eyes with one of his hands
And sank his jaw onto my throat
Saliva coating my skin
His tongue caressed my apple
My heart throbbed
Then stopped
Screaming ensued
Mine
I was the one, I realized
The one who was screaming.
The fabric on my body began to rip apart
His hands, the man's hands
Suddenly, I was naked
As naked as I emerged from my mother's womb
Then, there was pain
Scathing, burning in my
Hole
My hole, was now being intruded by this-
-foreign object-
The man's heavy breathing echoed in my ear,
My throat began to close up
I couldn't breathe
Drowning
In a sea
Of tears
I gasped for air
And sank
Blackness
Swallowed me
As I gazed up at the moon
And lost my innocence
My body trembled with agony
As I transformed
Into a different entity
The feeling of a
Knife
Pulling out from your body
Leaving you broken
Grieving
The realization that you will never become whole again
A white lamb
Formed from tears
Coated with black
Bleeding from its sack