Chapter 1

I gave in to Jakes warm lips. My hands tangled in his black silk hair pulling him closer to me. It was not like when Edward kisses me this wasn't safe it was strong and passionate. His arm fastened around my waist, was so warm as he pressed his arms tighter to me; but still not tight enough. I could see and feel the feeling that Jake felt of pain and happiness at the same time. It was like I was seeing my future with Jake, the pack joking and playing like always, college, and two bounce black haired little kids. I wanted that, I wanted Jake to be happy , I wanted to have my sun and don't have to strain and stress myself no longer! I wanted a relationship that was as easy as breathing ! I WILL HAVE IT!

"Jake, I want you" I gasped when I finally got some air in between kisses.

"You do have me Bella" He said kissing the base of my neck. He miss understood what I meant by wanting HIM.

I took my hands from his hair and moved them to each side of his face. He did not fight my attempts to make him look at me, knowing he could resist it. He was staring at me with his black memorizing eyes. It took me a second to remember what I was going to do.

"Bella?" he questioned

I gave him a smile and moved my hand to my button up shirt. Well in this case it is going down. When he realized what I was doing he secured my hand in place I looked up at him. He did not meet my gaze for a moment. When he finally looked up at me. His face full of concern.

"What, Jake?" I question confused . Is this not what he wanted?

"Are you sure you want to do this? You don't have to if you don't want to you know! You could just tell me to-"

"Jake, I want you , I want the life we could live together in, I want to go to college, and to not be strained in a relationship! I want you !" I almost screamed. Tears streamed down my cheeks. Did he change his mind? Now that there is no challenge in the game.

"Ooh, I understand," it was no louder than a whisper "this is cruel, Jake. This is even a low for you!" Now the real water works flowed from my eyes. I turned to storm off. He caught my wrist and swung my around into his chest, his arms so tightly around me I felt something more than what was there before. But what?

"Jake" I mouthed

"Bella, its not like that. I do want you now and always. I just don't want to take advantage of you, honey. don't ever think I don't want you or don't love! I will always love you Bella. Now are you sure you want this?"

"Yes" I expressed wiping away the tears. Jake said nothing, but smiled my smile. I smiled back then continued to unbutton my shirt.

Before I was even down to the forth button, Jake had already made it to the tent. He leaned down pressing his lips against mine. His lips shaped mine with the tip of his tongue outlining my bottom lip. That feeling I had was getting stronger and more intense. I hadn't realized that both of us were tensed and gazing into each others eyes. I notices the passion, kindness, loving , careness in his eyes. He was mine and I felt it deep down in my heart. I felt like something was connecting us , it is so strong like I was being welded to him. He was turning into my everything the reason that I am here.

"Jake?" I muttered "I feel funny"

"I feel it too! How…how do you feel?" His face expression so anxious and interested in what would come out of my mouth next.

" I don't know how to explain it, Jake."

" Try to"

" Umm.. It is like I am being connect to you more and more. It is starting to feel like I cant live with out you. I don't understand what's going on?" I babbled out not even understanding what that meant.

"And Edward?" his voice seem more excited and amused.

"What about him?" I tilted my head down into my hands and tried to recover the feelings that I once held for my Edward.

Jake glared at me with his black eyes. His expression so intended to make me talk. I couldn't help it I gave in.

" Well, I still love Edward but not the way I did." I recoiled at the way that sounded.

" So you are the one!" He muttered it seemed like he was talking to himself.

"The one for what?"

"My soul mate. I just imprinted on you. You… you, the girl I wanted! Yes! I know you know what I am talking about, you felt it to. Like we could never be apart."

I realized what he was say. Does this mean that I will never love Edward the way I did? What did all this mean? Wait didn't he say before that imprinting means that every feeling that I had would change. But what about Edward? Could all my feelings for him just completely disappear? I could just image the hurt and pain that I was causing him. I could not hold in my tears no longer. I am still connected to him but nothing like before . I am so sorry Edward!

"Shh, Bella" Jakes husky voice hummed. Gently stroking my face with his finger tips.

I couldn't cry long with my half naked lover right next me. My body wanted his and I couldn't hold it back no longer. I pulled him on top of me. His body was so warm that the cold didn't even touch me. He was holding me but it felt like it wasn't tight enough. I couldn't stop I wanted him!

~Love~

"Wow" I whispered. Jake was so quite and gazing at the top of the tent. I shifted to my left elbow. "what's wrong ? Did I do something wrong?" His face so concentrated on other things, not even looking at me when I spoke. It must be bad .

"Nothings wrong I am just trying to make my self wake up from this dream."

"What are you talking about?"

"This has to be a dream I have the girl that I love and now she is my soul mate. What's the chances?"

"This is real and I am yours" I whispered as I closed the gap between our lips. The taste of his breath is so sweet. "I love you" I muttered and then kissed him.

"I love you too" he expressed

Just then I seen a shadow approaching the tent. My body stiffened just think about what would he say when he saw us like this. I stopped breathing when the shadow was at the entrance of the tent. I heard Jake growl a little. I couldn't do anything I just watched the zipper pull up. I am so sorry I cant help it Edward. Making no sound tears started to roll down my face.

" Get off of her," Edward hissed. He misunderstood my tension and tears. " Jake, how could you force her to do…. I cant even say it you are a sick mongrel." I still couldn't move. His reaction made me cry even more. He really did love me ,how I can do this to him I have to stay with him I have to! But I love Jake and cant stay away from him, my love, my soul mate. I have to find a way!

"I didn't force her to do anything she didn't want to do!" My lungs were yelling for oxygen at this point. But I couldn't remember how to breath. Find a way hurry Bella!

"Like I am going to believe that, dog! She is under you cry!" His eyes turning black with fury.

"Bella, tell him!" I couldn't, I finally gasped for oxygen. I loved him but how was I suppose to explain something I don't even understand.

"I am not going to tell you again, GET OFF OF HER!" he hissed through his teeth ,ripping the tent to shreds. At this Jake has snapped up onto his feet pulling me with him. My mind so dazed I couldn't even feel my body.

"Bella, Bella, what did you do to her? Bella!"

" Like I said I have done nothing!" Jake growled back at Edward.

I watched silently as Edward leaned into his crouch. Jake turned to me and looked into my eyes with concern. He leaned in kissing me on my forehead leading me a couple steps back from where we were. He turned walking forward transforming into the big reddish-brown wolf. They started circling each other not taking their gaze off each others eyes. Jake had no chance on defeating Edward. I cant just stand here and let them kill each other. I have to do something but what?

"Prepare to die" a growling chuckle responded to Edwards remark.

My two loves ready to destroy each other. I have to think of something and something fast. The gigantic wolf hurled towed Edward and Edward at the wolf. I could fell my body operating with out me giving it any command. I was in the middle of Edward and Jake now. Edward or Jake did not have time to stop before they attacked. Jake sinked his razor sharp teeth into my leg, letting go as soon as he had the taste of my blood in his mouth. Edward flung me into one of the trees bordering the little meadow we were in. The impact of the tree made me thrush in pain. I could tell he didn't use his full force because if he did I would have broke my spine. The pain surged through my body with so much force that I couldn't help but scream out in pain. It feels as if I cant breath like something is blocking my air way.

"Bella!" A beautiful husky voice call for me. " I am so sorry, Bella. I didn't know ,Bella. Please don't leave me Bella, don't leave me! Bella I love you . I am sorry I promise we will get along Bella. Don't stop breathing, Honey!"

I could feel the blood oozing out of my leg wound. I could fell myself slipping away from reality. All I could manage was to whisper Jake.

Dieing the second time was much like the first. Peaceful, but more hopeful and happier. It was like I had a part of Jake there with me. It was getting really bright where I was, to bright. The blinding light made everything blurry. I blinked furiously at the blinding light trying to even my sight. I hear something, is it humming? No it is something more than that?

"Oh, Bella I was starting to worry you would never wake up" the most heaven sent husky voice called. I could always recognize that voice from anywhere.

"Jake? I-"

"Shh, Bells we will talk later but right now you need your beauty sleep. And I do really mean that you're a mess Bells" he chuckled out.

I tried to set and punch him on his arm but recoiled back to the bed in pain. What happened? How long have I been out? Where is Edward?

" Where's Edward?" I horsed out .

" The bloodsucker and his father are talking to Charlie about what happened. Well, telling him the lie about what happened."

"Is it bad, do I have any broken bones? What is the overall damage?" the pain I felt before was gone now. I sat up trying to capture the expression on his face. If he wouldn't tell me I would find out myself! I pulled the blanket off of my body. Everything felt perfect, my leg was rapped in white gauzes, but I felt nothing there. I maneuvered my feet to the side of the bed.

"What are you doing are you in-" Jake growled, but I stopped him. I know what he is going to say and I know how I feel, it is nothing like he things.

I stood with no problem not even pain. I was a little light headed though. I walk to the long full body mirror hanging on the back of the door. I slid my hand underneath the gauzes on my leg unwrapping the mess, revealing my leg. I gasped at the gigantic scar on my leg. How long have I been out?

"How long was I ..? I choked on the ending trying to figure out how long it would take for my wound to heal.

" Three days" he said with is head in his hands.

" Jake, that cant be possible! This couldn't have done this in three days!" I didn't understand what was going on. What does this mean? I have to find Carlisle, he would know what was going on! I swung the door open , breaking the mirror when the door collided with the wall. I ran out down the hall. As I came through the long hallway I recognized where I was at. It was Edward's house. I approached the grand staircase, not even slowing down I ran down the stairs falling at the very end sliding into the table holding a vas. The vas came crashing down as I ran toward the direction I heard voices.

"Dad?" I yelled coming through the kitchen door way . Looking around the room searching for my human father.

But he was nowhere in sight. I look around the room at all the pale none moving faces. Everyone of them with the same surprised and concerned expression painted across there faces. What were they all gawking at? I walk slowly to where Carlisle was standing.

"I want to talk to Charlie!" I insisted

"Bella?"

I didn't reply ;I didn't even give him the chance to explain before I snatched the phone from his hand.

"Charlie?"

"Are you alright ,Bells? Carlisle just told me that you were out walking when you fell and hit your head."

"Ya, I just woke up and wanted to talk to you. Well, I am felling a little sleepy so I will talk to you later alright." eager the end this conversation so I can really figure out what is going on.

"Alright Bells, talk to you later." I held the phone there until I heard the 'click'. The line going dead.

I turn to the pale faced wide eyed vampires looking strait at me. I must really look horrible.

"What is going on? How long have I been out? And why are you all looking like you just seen a miracle? I would have to wake sometime." I walk to the dinning room table combing through my hair with my fingers; trying to make it look at least a little way better. I noticed the foot steps coming into the room. Jake looked so tired and worn out. I got to my feet and started making my way toward him. Only stopping in my tracks as soon as he lifted his head, his eyes darting from my leg to my face then settling on my leg. His face then mirrored all the others in the room.

"That is exactly it, Bella. We are looking at a miracle." Edward explains, still look at me with that look.

"Amazing! Bella, how did… what did you… It has only been three days!" Jasper said whipping his head side to side. I watched as his blond curls whip side to side with it.

" It is extraordinary. Isn't it ?" Carlisle questioned with is thumb and index finger shaping the bottom of his chin.

"What is going on? Am I a vampire?"

"No!" Rosalie hissed.

"Then how did my leg heal in three days?" I questioned looking directly into Carlisle's eyes. Knowing he had the answer I am looking for.

"We don't know." Edward answered. His gaze so longing and pained. I had to look away. I turned my gaze on Jake. When he meet my gaze I could see the anger and my old Jake. Before he was a werewolf, before it was so confusing. Jake turned and started heading out the room, and to the front door.

"Jacob!" I shout ,running after him.

He was so fast, by the time I get out the door. I watch as he phases and takes off into the forest. I start after him after he disappears into the night black forest.

"Jake!" I scream at the top of my lungs with no response. I run at top speed looking for him. What was going on? Why was he so upset? I could fell my heart beat harder and harder, I thought it would come out of my chest. I felt light headed and ready to black out, but I couldn't give up yet. My body had something else in mind. I collapsed scratching my knees and hands; just feeling the heat my body is radiating. I am running a fever, it feels like I am on fire. I was gasping for air at this point. I heard something behind me but I am too weak to look and see who it is.

"Jake, I love you. I want you!" I whispered out the last of the my oxygen I took in. making me gasp for more.

I listened to the footsteps approach me. I didn't care any more what happened to me at this point, as long as he know how I felt. I let my body fall over to the ground, letting my head hit the moss covered ground. It felt like everything was spinning and wouldn't stop. The sweat streamed down my face. It was getting hotter and hotter by the minute. The footsteps stop right in front of me. I could see two bare, olive skinned feet. I close my eyes felling relived knowing that Jake was there with me.

Finally giving into my exhaustion letting myself drift into unconsciousness not before whispering to Jake. Something I want him to know.

"Jake, thank you. I fell it… I" that was all I could get out before everything turned black.

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