A/N: HEY, GUYS! This is my first fanfic. I'm not really good with writing so if you could just bear with my English, yeah? I would really appreciate it if you guys review. :D
And yes, I like Jade and Robbie's chemistry. It's cute. Hehe. Enjoy guys! C:
Everything looks more sober now, that I've finally managed to take a rest at Tori's birthday party. I don't really drink at all. EVER. This was actually, um, the first time. "Aw, you can't take it anymore, Shapiro?" Trina pouted as I stood up. "You know, I have to go home. Tell Tori, will you?" I pleaded as I placed the glass into the coffee table inside this empty den. "What do you think of me, a maid?" Trina rose a brow. "Whatever, Robbie. I'm going to leave you now. There are more important things I have to spend my time to." She mumbles as she leaves quickly. I ignore and thought of Tori. I really need to tell her a happy birthday, and then I will leave. I will, I've had enough of drunken teens. I get out of the room and see dancing drunk teens in front of me. "Hey," I call, "Hey!" I call again, louder this time. Two of these boys have finally looked at me. "Have you seen Tori?" I ask. I leave in frustration when I asked for the tenth time.
I was literally bumped on my hips and shoulders by dancing persons, one which you should call wild ones. They were enjoying too much that there were no space for me to walk in. I gladly smile as I see Tori, making out with his new boyfriend on the couch. Quickly, I pushed the girls from beside me and fell into the couch; this made Tori and his boyfriend get their attention. "Robbie?" Tori raised her hands up as if she's mad at me, groaning. "Sorry to bother, I... I gotta leave now. I just want to tell you happy birthday before I leave. And this is, this is a great party!" I forced a smile as I quickly stand up, leaving Tori and her boyfriend back to their make out.
It actually surprised me to see a black haired woman outside of the porch, leaning on a pole. I try to ignore her and be on my way. "Going somewhere?" A familiar voice asks. So familiar that it makes me want to run and scream. Her voice just terrifies me. To think that that voice is full of memories that haunted me, bullied me, made fun of me. I try to turn my back, and see Jade with her usual expression. "Home, Jade" I answer back, exhausted. "I knew it," she smirked, her usual smirk. "Why are you here outside?" I ask awkwardly, it's not every day Jade would talk to me first. "What do you care, dork?" she raises a brow. I was kind of offended, but I guess I'm used to it. I give back a smile and turned to walk away.
"Hey, guys" I greeted Andre and Tori from the hallway, seeing that they've already got their stuffs from the lockers. "Shapiro," Andre greeted back. "Hey, Robbie!" Cheerful Tori replies back. "Thank you so much for coming to my birthday party last night." She smiles. "Nah, it's nothing. What are friends for, I love you?" Stupid! This is why I make things so awkward. I see Beck and Cat walk to us. "Heeeey, guys." Beck greeted. "Hey, Beck!" I grin what I think is my usual, weird grin. The others greeted them as well. "I like golf balls, they're so smooth" ditsy, little Cat says. It's still weird why I still have a crush on her. "You gon' be on your way? Or are we just gonna stand here and wait for Christmas?" Rex complains. I forgot, I got to get my books from my locker. "Well, I'll see you around. I got to go" just as I could turn my back, I see Jade standing in front of me. "Move out of the way, will you?" Bitter, why did she have to push my shoulder? "Ow!" I softly cried in pain. I made my way, though. I don't have time for her cruelty.
"Alright, class! Tell me, what it feels..." Sikowitz started, but then stopped and stared at his large coconut. "What?" Tori asks. "Just continue and stop wasting my time," Jade mutters as if she is wasting her time here. Sikowitz glares back with a surprised expression. He walks around, pacing. "What does it feel to be in love? Any experiences, hm?" He finally asks.
It feels nothing. I have never been in love. I guess i had, but it turn out that she was just a friend and it also turns out to be a big crush on someone, Cat. But not in love, why would I be? It's a sick circle of never ending pain and happiness. You're happy at first, but you suffer at the end. I don't even actually believe in love at someone... you know, emotionally attached. Mutual feelings are just what your hypothalamus dictates you.
"I've always kissed lots of kids when I was in pre-school." Cat recites, "No, you were a kid back then, Cat" Sikowitz answered. "Oh," Cat shrugs. "Any other?"
I actually sense that Beck and Jade are feeling awkward right now, now that they've just recently broke up. But someone had to stand up, maybe not those two. Maybe Tori, or Andre? "Robbie?" Sikowitz looked at me. Curious, I raise my brows and begin to tremble. "W-what?" I stutter. Everyone burst into laughter when my name was called. "Share your own experiences," Sikowitz can't help but laugh, too. I stand, feeling numb. "Er... I-I've never been in love," I sigh. Rex suddenly interrupts "Everyone knows that". Then it started, they begin to throw offending insults 'bout me. I ignore their words and then I start to open my mouth. "Well, I have a crush. Her name is... Cat," "Well, she sure won't fall for you" Rex added, another burst of laughter from the class but I continued. "And when I see her, I don't know. I can't help but smile. Every time her hair blows up, she still looks so... stunning. Her childish attitude, as I may add, is... well, sweet. She makes me blush all the time." I don't know why I said that. I slowly turn to Cat. She's smiling, her friendly smile. " I've told myself that I shouldn't ask her out, ever. Yes, I do like her. She makes me happy and completes my day with just... a smile. And that is what I like about her, when she smiles at me. And the thought of her ignoring me is just too painful. I don't want that to happen. I don't want our friendship to be ruined with just a pile of problematic relationship. I don't want to wake up one day, and see her not smiling back. It's just sad. And so, I've accepted that we should just be friends. I'm fully content with that." I turn to Sikowitz, giving me an 'o' shape from his mouth. I made a sigh of relief, but i was still so nervous. I didn't expect my classmates to drop their jaws off. I see Cat, still smiling at me. I smile, too. Just the thought of those statements, well... I think I sounded dumb but it was real. I look at my friends. Tori's giving me a thumbs up, while Andre was still in surprise. Beck was having no emotion while Jade, well, she was dropping her jaws off like the rest of the class.
"Well, I didn't expect that babble out of you." Sikowitz finally talks. I sit, awkwardly again. "Cat? What do you feel now that Robbie admitted his feelings for you?" Cat stands up, twirling her hair. "It's obvious that he likes me," I was stunned for a second, was it really that obvious? "It's a good thing he knows we should just be friends. I treat him only as my brother," she mutters. I was happy to hear that, really. It was satisfying. I accidentally glanced at Jade who was looking at me like I killed someone. She stands up and seat at the empty chair at my back. I twitch. I don't want her to annoy me today; I'm such in a good mood. I feel her chin rest on her arms, which was resting on the back of my chair. "So, Cat huh?" She mumbles. I flinch and turned to her. "What are you doing?" I ask. She's so random it makes me want to push her away. One day she's bad, the other day she's being in the mood.
"Why do you like her?" She asks, I can see the curiosity in her eyes. I reply back, "What do you care, West?" that made her frown. "Yeah, take that you Goth." Rex suddenly mutters back at Jade. "Ugh," she groans, now leaning on her chair. "Freaks," she mumbles and I turn my back now. "I heard that," Rex says.
A/N: IT SOUNDS BORING. YES. SORRY! I'll update soon. Like really soon. I will work with it all morning if that's what it takes. Mehehe -_- sorry if my English is sorta boring too. so review you guys! Thankieeees!
-KatieKitKat