My big bros best friend
Hey my name is bella. I am plain-Jane and are secretly crushing on my big brother Emmett's best friend Edward. Lets see how can I describe Edward gorges green eyes, beautiful messy bronze hair, and last but definitely not least hi mind blowingly dazzling smile. Hmm now that I think about it might be more than a crush and the only people who know about it are my two best friends Rosalie and alice but they don't see how much it hurts and I will never let them. But the truth is it hurts not to have anyone alice had Rosalie's brother jasper and Rosalie had my brother and to hear them telling me about how wonderful it is to find there dream guys was. It was like they completely forgot about my problem and just twisted the knife in my heart. What was worse was watching him them telling me and I quote "did you see that he smiled at everything you said and aw his eyes sparkle when he sees you" and me believing them just to get crushed again when leaves. The longest I have gone without seeing him and without crying was two days. If only they could see how much pain I was in and see my heart in pieces. Don't get me wrong I am happy for them but at the same time I find myself envying them. Another reason I would never tell them is because I don't want them to pity me or be sad with and I know it would kill them to see me the way I am at night or when they aren't here. The last time I saw him was two days ago and the tears and heart break should be back tomorrow. But I can't let it show right now because rose is here talking about this her date with Emmett. Just keep twisting just keep doing it but I put on a smile and gave a comment at the right time.
"All I can say is wow" she sighed day dreaming as I let I single tear run down my cheek but quickly wiped it away as she turned around.
"That's good rose" I said my voice hoarse.
"Bella what's wrong " She asked running to my side.
"Nothing" I said looking away to compose my face into my fake smile.
"Bella you know you can't lie to save the world tell me what is wrong with you the last hour" she half pleased and half whined.
"Sorry I don't have the perfect boyfriend ! And what has been wrong with me for the last 17 years !!!!!!" I screamed an with that I ran out of the door and to my truck leaving a shocked Rosalie in my dust.
I pressed down on the gas petal as I got on the highway not worrying about the police because that would be my dad and would be off the hook. I went down a road off the highway until the road ended and got out and started climbing up the now very familiar path to my meadow. It is the place I come to let my frustration. Scream, cry and think about what I will blame it on this time.
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I ran back in the house not failing to notice the shiny Volvo sitting in our drive way. This will be good I wont cry again I miss him but when I see him it brings on a new set of pain. I walked in to the living room dreading my fate.
"What was it this time?" Emmett asked looking sad and confused here I was .
"Nothing I don't want to talk about it I told him avoiding the beautiful green eyes sitting across from me.
"Bella you can't keep doing this" He pleaded I could see his disapproving face in my mind.
"What do you want me to do Emmett I can't tell you the truth that is just not even a option" I said traitor tears running down my face.
"Why can't you tell me bella?" He said his voice softening with every word.
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(EPOV)
I got to Emmett's house hopping to see the angel faced girl he called a sister. WOW I am happy he can,t read minds right now because if he could I would be his next punching bag. My heart dropped when I saw her truck gone. I walked in to see a sad Emmett staring out the window waiting for bellas old truck to turn the corner. We were sitting on the couch when the most beautiful girl ever walked in the door. I wanted so much just to grab her and never let her go when a saw her tear stained face.
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(BPOV)
"Nothing Emmett I can't tell you now ok" with that I ran up to my room before the tears were in a steady flow.
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It was 7:00 when Edward left and I waited the ten second before Emmett came in my room.
"Bella I demand you tell me what is wrong with you" he said sitting down on my bed.
"Ok, but keep an open mind" he just nodded "I am in love with Edward and I have been since I don't know when and today when I heard rose talking about your date I lost it. I said not daring to look at his face. He scared me when he laughed I looked at him confused. His laughter died down as he saw my face.
"Your serious" he asked his face turning red with anger.
"Yes" I sighed.
"He made you depressed!" he screamed jumping to his feet.
"Yes, but you can't tell him I said keep a open mind" I said as I jumped in front of the door.
""Got another reason to kill him" he asked.
"No you will not kill him if you love me you will leave it alone" I told him pleadingly.
"Fine" he sighed.