I don't own the characters, I'm just playing around with them.
This is my first Joniss fic, ever, I don't know why I didn't decide to do this sooner, but I suppose after rewatching Catching Fire last night, I just jumped on the idea. I love this ship to death so if you don't like it don't read it.
I plan on continuing this, so let me know what you think!
"They can't hurt me. I'm not like the rest of you. There's no one left I love."
That damned sentence kept bouncing around Johanna's head as she sat on the beach, watching the water her hands, deftly sharpening her axe. It hadn't been long since she had screamed those words up to the fake sky.
Rage had simply ripped through her body when she saw Katniss, curled up on the ground, her body shaking with sobs from the screams of the Jabberjays. Once they had gotten her and Finnick calmed down, Johanna exploded. She couldn't take it anymore, she just needed to vent.
Now that everything seemed to be, for the most part, calm, she had time to reflect on exactly what she had said.
Her family was dead, Snow made sure of that when she refused to sell her body. She had never really had any friends, but even the people she would just converse with regularly, were gone and now the only thing left, was her broken, blackened soul.
And her..She thought as she looked up at Katniss who had just plopped down next to her. She should have been paying more attention, but there was nothing she could do now.
"Hey, are you okay?" Johanna asked, tilting her head a bit as she laid down her whetstone. She kept the axe in her hand, to keep up the charade that she could kill the raven haired girl at any moment.
"I'm fine, thank you, you know, for calming me down and..getting me water." Katniss spoke, her voice soft as she glanced up at Johanna before returning her gaze to her folded hands that sat in her lap.
Why does she have to be so cute...Johanna thoughts, shaking her head a bit as her cocky smile made it's way to her lips. "Well, can't very well have you dying on me now can I? Who else would keep me entertained, now that Wiress is gone..though I suppose that was more annoyance than entertainment.." She trailed off when she saw the hurt on the other girl's face.
Well shit, I just messed up, great going, big mouth "Damn it, sorry, I didn't really think before I started talking.." She said softly as Katniss shrugged.
"It's fine, everyone has their way of coping, I suppose yours is to use crude language and sarcasm to mask the fact that you aren't nearly as strong as you let on." Katniss spoke as she doodled in the sand, not noticing the look of shock on Johanna's face.
"I guess you're right, but at least I'm better at hiding my feelings, you get over emotional over everything." The axe wielding girl pointed out. At least I didn't let anyone see just how freaked out I was when you flew off the cornucopia island, if it had been reversed..well I'm not even sure you'd care.
Katniss shrugged again and leaned back on her hands, glancing up at the false sky, a sigh slipping from her lips. Johanna glanced down at the doodle in the sand and shook her head with an amused smile.
"I suppose it's a good thing Peeta is the artistic one in your relationship." She teased as Katniss snorted, rolling her eyes at the brunette, giving no other response as she laid in the sand, thinking of the night to come.
"What's going to happen if Beetee's plan works?" Katniss murmured, her chest rising and falling slowly, her eyes trained on the slight glimmer in the sky, where the force field hummed.
If it works the way we want it, we're getting out of here, or at least you will. "Well, we'll be down to just us and I don't really want to think about what happens after that." Johanna said, biting her lip a bit, she didn't want to dwell on what could happen if things went south.
"Let's not think about that at all right now, yeah? Why don't you just get some rest, you must be exhausted, I'll go get you some more water" She said, getting up before Katniss could even protest.
As she strode across the beach, her mind was wandering to scenes of them all being pitted against each other, she couldn't even think about having to kill Katniss, she could barely even picture her gutting open her arm to get that tracker out.
Damn it, Johanna, pull yourself together, you are not in love with that brainless Mockingjay. You're just feeling this way because she's the key to your freedom and your revenge. You just need to make it through tonight and then your part is done, for now..just gotta keep her safe
As Johanna fought with herself, she knelt down and tapped a tree, gathering the water in an empty coconut shell, before ripping the spile out of the bark and heading back to where the raven haired girl sat, still watching the sky.
"Here, drink up and then get to sleep, brainless." She said, smiling slightly as Katniss rolled her eyes at the pet name.
She watched as the other girl sat up and took the water, downing it with ease, before laying it on the damp sand, offering Johanna a small smile before laying back down, this time on her side, her head resting on her arms.
"Thank you, Johanna." She murmured softly as she closed her eyes, sighing softly as her body relaxed.
Johanna watched her for a while, her eyes trained on the slow rise and fall of other girl's chest, it soothed her to know that she made the Mockingjay safe enough to sleep. A swelling warmth made it's way through the older girl's chest as she came to accept that maybe, just maybe, she did love this idiot in front of her.
After about an hour, she shook her head and stood up, moving to the water's edge, dipping her feet in as she thought about the plan and how risky this all was, but she had to keep calm and stick with the program or else everything could go to hell.
They can't hurt me. I'm not like the rest of you. There's no one left I love, no one that they know about..