Authors Notes: I know there are probably many of these kinds of fics, but I wanted to try and write one myself. Sorry about the bad title. Ken expresses his feelings about his true love and how he can never tell them the truth. I hope this story doesn't completely suck.

Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon.

Impossible Love

Ken stared out of the window on the cold winter night. It was very late and the heating had been switched off. He wrapped his blanket around him. His face was very pale and his hands were freezing. It was another restless night for Ken. He was never able to fall asleep anymore, no matter how hard he tired. He spent most of the nights thinking. Thinking about his one true love. No it wasn't Miyako. It was Daisuke Motomiya. Ever since the Digidestined had defeated Malomyotismon, he realised the strong feelings he had for Daisuke. He had always had these feelings, but it was only a little while ago till he admitted these feelings were true.

At first he couldn't believe these feelings so tried to fight them, but he couldn't. Once he realised he could not stop them, he knew they must show that he really loved him. Ken yawned. He looked over to his Digimon partner Wormmon. He was fast asleep. He looked so peaceful and happy. Ken envied him. He had no trouble falling asleep at night, while Ken lay awake restlessly. This also effected Ken's performance at school. He who was once the smartest child in school was now receiving some of the worst grades. But he couldn't help. No matter what he did, he was always distracted by Daisuke.

"Why? Why can't I make these feelings go away. I suppose that is a stupid question. It is because I love him. I can't help it but I just do. But of course I cannot tell him that. He is my best friend. What would he think if I told him I loved him? He would probably think I'm some weird demented freak, and would never want to see me again. But would Daisuke ever do something like that?"

Ken sighed. It began raining outside. Loud drops of water began hitting off the glass. "What am I saying of course he wouldn't like it if I told him the truth. After all, he is in love with Hikari Yagami. She's perfect for him. Well at least I think so anyway. The moment he laid eyes on her, he knew that he loved her. And why not, she is a really sweet person and has a great personality. Poor Daisuke… I think they make a good couple but nobody else seems to think so. They all think she should belong with Takeru. Hikari seems to think this as well."

"Daisuke would talk about her all the time. Thoughts and feelings about her that no one would expect from someone like him at all. Daisuke is a really deep and sensitive person. People just don't seem to see that in him. But I do. I study every moment he makes. I know all his fears, all his worries, just nearly everything about him. It angers me the way Hikari treats him. She leads him on, making him do whatever she wants, then going and flirting with Takeru behind his back. Like I said she is a nice person, it's just the way she treats him like dirt. It sickens me. This also upsets him a lot. It has even cause him to cry a lot about it."

"I remember one night. A terrible storm was brewing outside. My parents where away visiting my aunt so I was left in the house alone. I heard someone knock on the door loudly. I rushed and opened the door, to find Daisuke. Tears ran down his face. He looked like he had just had his heart broken. And yes it was true. He may act kinda goofing and all tuff when he is around Hikari but when he asked her out this time he was not. He asked her very seriously, if he would be his girlfriend, but she said no."

"She said her heart belonged to someone else and she couldn't go out with him. It was not until then, till I realised how much a person could be hurt. I afforded to let him stay the night and he accepted. But I knew this night would not be a happy one. He told me everything that had happen. I was crying nearly as much as he was when he told me. But I also felt a hint of guilt when he told me this. I knew that he would still be single when Hikari refused to go out with him. That meant he was available. But how could I think like that! Seeing my best friend in so much pain. I felt like a monster again. Then I realised that I could tell him. Tell him all the feelings I had for him. But then I thought. Would it make him happier? Or only make it worst? I wanted to tell him, really I did, but I couldn't. I became over run with fear."

"Whenever I thought about telling him, my heart would beat faster and faster, my chest would hurt. When he asked me what was wrong, I would just lie and say I need the bathroom or some lame excuse like that. I'm coward. But it's probably for the best, that I don't tell him. Like I've been saying he can do so much better than me. Perhaps sometimes he can be a little full of himself and annoying at times. But I love him and I always will. He's such a sweet person."

"I couldn't believe that he forgave me after all the horrible things I done when I was the Digimon Kaiser. He was the first one to forgive me. He stood up for me against the others and said I had changed, even though no one believed him. That's Daisuke. He'll fight for what he believes in, even if the others don't agree. That's what makes him such a great leader. Even if the other Digidestined don't think of him as a great leader, I do. He doesn't like hurting his friends and will encourage everyone when they're down. Like Takeru he won't let anyone loose hope of what's right. If it wasn't for him I may not be with the others just now. He kept encouraging me to join. So did Miyako, but he had faith in me the whole time."

"Maybe one day I will tell him my feelings for him. But I am too scared too. I wish I were brave like him. Most of the time he acts like he isn't afraid of anything, but I know that isn't true. We tell each other nearly everything. He's told me his fears but I haven't told him my biggest fear of all. I suppose everyone must have guessed what it is by now."

"So now I remain alone. Never knowing what his reaction and answer would be. I am too afraid. I don't want my heart broken by the one I love. Just like what happened with him and Hikari. But if he did reject me I know I would never be able to go on. Knowing the one person I loved would have broken my heart…"

Authors Notes: I was maybe going to write this into a story, but probably not since it was very bad. Please review even though it sucked.