CHAPTER 1: A TERRIBLE MISTAKE!
BELLA'S POV!
I woke up in an unfamiliar room. It wasn't any of Edward and mine, or even Charlie's. the bed beneath me moved. Some one else is in here! I roll over and saw who it was. I felt my blood leave my body. i felt like screaming my head off. just anything to get the scaredness out of my body.
"JACOB!" I scream and he falls out of the bed. My heart beat is going a thousand miles per hour and I'm practically have a panic attack.
We were both naked. "what happened last night?" I asked terrified of what DID happen. i remember some of last night now, Edward and i had a fight. i stormed out crying and i went to Jacob's. he was always there for me, but something else happened then just a little comforting. He looked at me with those deep brown eyes. "please tell me we didn't--" I didn't even need to finish my sentence or wait for an answer from Jacob. I knew what we did, we both did. and i felt guilt hanging off every strand of hair. Guilt was pulsing through my blood stream, it was tingling on my skin.
"OH no" was all that Jacob could say. I gathered the bed covers and covered my naked body, trying to cover myself. He buried his face in his head, guilt was lingering on him as well. it was everywhere. in the bed covers. on the bed. in his room. in the entire house. but it was mostly on my body.
"how did this happen? What's Edward gonna think!" I shouted at him, luckily he lived on his own since Billy died a few years back. Well of course it wasn't lucky I just slept with my best friend. "I'm his wife, you're his best friend! your my best friend!" I broke into tears. he out his arm around me. he was in boxers now.
"we won't tell him. We were both drunk. Besides you had a fight and--" I stopped him. Putting my hand up. "we shouldn't tell him. He'll flip and you two will get a divorce. I'll loose my best friend and you'll loose a husband. everyone knows you two are the perfect couple" he continued.
"not anymore" I said wiping my tears. "okay we won't tell him but, I just feel so guilty" I said
"I know I feel guilty too. your not the only one." he breathed heavily and then said "we'd better get change and you better go home" he said. I nodded and he left the room to let me change. i pulled on yesterday's clothes feeling the guilt build inside of me was the worst feeling i have ever had. just then i heard my ring tone go off. it was Edward.
"Edward" i whispered.
i opened my phone.
"hello?" i asked trying stop myself from crying.
"Bella, it's me Edward"
"hi" i said feebly.
"I'm so sorry for that fight we had. please forgive me , i love you more than life itself." he said, a line from his vows at our wedding, this just made me feel even more guilty.
"i-i forgive you" i said my voice breaking. he should be the one forgiving me!
"thank you. where are you?" he asked i hesitated. would he guess what happened if i told him where i was? no of course he wouldn't.
"I'm at Jacob's." i could sense him tense his body, in the background.
"okay. when are you coming back?" he asked still tense.
"I'm just leaving."i said putting my shoe on.
"okay, i love you" he said. MORE GUILT!
"i love you too, babe" I said putting a brave act on.
"bye"
"bye" and i closed my phone. i broke into a sob and Jake came into the room and gave me a comforting hug (he was changed now). i pushed him away wanting to cry on my own.i wiped away my tears and put my other shoe on.
"I'd better go" i sniffed and ran a hand through my hair.
"Kay'" and with that i grabbed my bag and phone and got into my car, driving off to my house where Edward was waiting.
i opened the front door to our house. mine and Edward's house. the one that we have lived in for 3 years ,last month. i took a big breath before walking into the kitchen, where Edward was. he was sitting at the table, deep in thought. when he saw me he rushed up to be hugging me lovingly. i felt so right in his arms, yet guilt was in between he didn't know it!
"I'm so sorry" he whispered into my ear.
"it's okay" i said hugging him back how on earth would i tell him. even though i didn't plan on telling him now. what if he did find out, Jake might tell him. ahh! i must stop thinking of this, it was a stupid mistake, nothing more.
"I'll make it up to you" he promised looking me in the eyes.
"you don't have to i started it, really" it wasn't really he started it by saying he couldn't wait to move away from here and go live in new york. near his adoptive parents, Carlisle and Esme. they had once lived here in Forks but they moved back to New york so Carlisle could work there as a doctor.
"no you didn't i did okay?" i nodded in agreement. there was only thing on my mind, that should be written on my face. GUILT. suddenly he picked me up taking me upstairs.
"where are we going, Ed?" i asked as he carried me fireman style up the staircase.
"to make it up to you" and I couldn't help giggling at the statement.