Hey everyone! I've been having this idea for a while now, and reading a few songfics made me decide to write one of my own. I'll be making a series of them based on Vampire Knight (obviously), and they'll be based on more than one pairing, not just one. So if you don't like one of the pairings, then you can always read another one! For now, I'll only be doing ones that I'm comfortable with, but later on, I might be excepting requests for certain pairings, and songs.
Anyway, moving on... this first songfic is about AkatsukixRuka! Oh yeah! And the song is "Do You Know", by Enrique Iglesias. I really love this song! Hopefully it's going to fit them :)
Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Knight, or the song.
Do You Know
Do you know what it feels like,
The room was dark and quiet. No sound was heard. Absolutely nothing. It was a perfect time to think without having anyone else yell at you or start a fight in the same room that you were in. From the window you could see the full moon, and the millions of stars twinkling brightly.
Akatsuki Kain was lying on his bed, staring blankly at the ceiling. His buttoned-up shirt was, of course, unbuttoned, and his hair was a wild mess. More than usual, even. He lout out a long, sad sigh.
Loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
He was deep in thought, thinking about none other than Ruka. He heard from the others that she went to go see Kaname. He never wanted to hear anything about them, because it made his heart twist in pure jealousy.
Do you know what it feels like,
He closed his eyes and wondered if Ruka was done talking to her admired crush. Kain would always stand by Ruka, no matter what the situation. He knew that she loved Kaname with all of her heart, but he always hoped that the girl he loved would return the feelings.
He couldn't take it anymore. He got out of bed, exited his room, and quickly made his way to Ruka's room.
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
Once he arrived at Ruka and Rima's dorm room, he slowly reached for the doorknob. It was locked. Kain let out a small sigh of frustration, and he decided to knock on the door instead. Before his first knock, he heard soft weeping from behind the door.
It was definitely Ruka.
If birds fly south is a sign of changes.
That was a bad sign. The flame haired vampire knew very well that something definitely wasn't right. Although hearing someone cry could easily reveal that. That only made him want to see her more. He reluctantly knocked on the door, softly calling her name afterward. There was no answer for a long moment. However, the sobbing had stopped.
At least you can predict this every year.
Kain then heard light footsteps head towards the door, and after, the door had opened slightly to reveal a tear-stained Ruka with red and swollen eyes. She let out a small sniffle.
"Akatsuki...?" she said in a questioning tone. Her voice was very quiet, almost like a whisper.
"Ruka..." he said her name in return, his voice showing concern and sympathy.
Suddenly, the distressed girl ran into her friends arms, letting out loud cries. New tears strolled down her cheeks, and her body shook every time she would let out a sob.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly.
Kain's eyes widened in shock, but he held her tightly and rubbed her back soothingly. He then closed his eyes and buried his nose into her sweet smelling hair. He always wanted to hold her like this, just not because she was crying.
After long moments of Ruka crying, she still wouldn't seize. Nonetheless, she was calming down by her friend's comfort. Kain wondered if she was going to tell him what had happened. This time, he had no clue what Kaname could have done.
I can't get it to speak.
"Ssh..." the sympathetic vampire said in a calm and soothing voice, still rubbing her back.
"A-Akatsuki..." she sniffled, still not looking up at him.
"Ssh... you don't have to say anything." Kain reassured her.
Ruka seemed to have obeyed him, because she only relaxed in his arms, all tension leaving her body. She seemed much calmer, and her crying wasn't as loud or violent anymore.
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us.
Kain absolutely hated to see his true love be so upset... so sad, and so vulnerable. It was like a dagger piercing through his aching heart. Yet, he would not rest until he would see her be happy again, and back to her normal self.
All he wanted was her happiness.
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me.
"I... I..." Ruka started, slowly lifting her head up to reveal the same sad expression. Her throat felt tight.
"It's all right, Ruka." Kain said, trying to convince her with his words.
The saddened woman looked deeply into her companion's eyes, seeing her reflection in them.
Look in your eyes to see something about me.
A single tear strolled down her cheek, and the kind vampire gently wiped it away. He then pulled her close to him once more, her head against his chest. All he could ever do right now was hug her and comfort her by soothing her and reassuring her. Other than that, there was nothing else he could possibly think of saying.
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.
"Why... why are you being so good to me?" Ruka asked in a small voice.
Kain didn't say anything at first. He closed his eyes and held her tighter. That was the only answer he could give her. How could he just tell her straight out that he loved her more than anything else in the whole entire world? How could he tell her that she was all he ever thought about, and that he longed to be with her every living moment? How could he tell her all this...?
"Why do you treat me so well when I don't do anything in return?" She stared back up at him with teary eyes.
Do you know what it feels like,
"I always run for your help and expect you to do anything for me. I never think about what you're feeling..." she went on, looking down at his chest.
Loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
"That doesn't bother me." Kain explained, running his fingers through her tangled hair.
"It should," Ruka argued, rubbing her eyes and backing away slightly.
"It doesn't... Ruka, believe me. I doesn't bother me." he went on.
Do you know what it feels like,
The gorgeous vampire looked up at him with a confused but appreciating gaze. Kain wanted to see a smile appear on her face, but she only stared down at her feet, her hair covering her face. She placed her hands on his half-bare chest, and still didn't look back up.
Kain gently placed his hands on her arms, not saying anything. He wanted to wait until she was comfortable talking.
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
"I'm sorry..." she mumbled, and Kain almost didn't hear her. He didn't think it was necessary for her to say that.
"For what?" he asked her.
Do you know? Do you know?
"You know why I'm sorry, Akatsuki..." Ruka started, her hands gripping his shirt tightly.
Do you know? Do you know?
Kain held his breath, wondering if she was going to say anything about how much she loved him. He wanted her to say that she was sorry for making him suffer, and that she loved him instead of Kaname. But, he knew that the possibilities were slim.
Ruka stayed quiet, her grip on his shirt remaining strong.
How can I love you? How can I love you?
He wanted to reassure her. He wanted to tell her that whatever happened, it would be okay. He wanted everything to be right for her... even though it might not be what he desired.
How can I love you? How can I love you?
He also wanted to tell her everything he has been feeling since the moment he had fallen in love with her. He kept on thinking to tell her that, though he didn't think it was a good idea. He didn't know what would be the right thing to say. He kept on thinking... she still would not speak.
If you just don't talk to me, babe.
What could Kaname have done to upset Ruka so much? Usually, she would just go out an tell Kain what had happened. Well, most of the time, he would know the situation first, and he would be standing near her, so she wouldn't have to explain to him the whole story. Maybe telling him everything was hard for her, and that she had to find the right words to explain. Still...
It flows through my head.
Ruka had always been open to Kain, and she could mostly keep her calm and act natural even when something was bothering her. There were a few times when she couldn't take it, and she would only be vulnerable like this around Akatsuki.
There's a question: is she needed?
The young vampire always was independent, and knew how to take care of herself. Akatsuki sometimes wondered if he could be like her. If he could keep his emotions hidden behind a smile. A beautiful smile...
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Kain wanted to be like her. He wanted to be able to live on with a smile, and think that it was okay, because he had friends who loved him so much.
But right now, he wanted to see Ruka give him a real smile. A smile that came from the heart.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
He thought back at all the times she would keep her calm. Either if it was for the reason of fighting with Aido, or just because she was mad at someone... and of course, when Kaname would do something to make her sad. Ever since they came to this academy, things had changed dramatically for everyone.
I could never see us ending like this.
And now, here she was, all torn and heartbroken. This happened a few times, but never like this. She would fall in his arms for a long while and feel comfortable being with him. She would cry her eyes out and then eventually tell him what had happened. It was almost like Ruka loved him, because he was the only one to see her like this. He was the only one who could hold her and comfort her. This was one thing he could say that only he could provide to her.
Seeing your face no more on my pillow.
Kain then closed his eyes once more to think back at all the times she would sneak in his room because she was so upset. She would fall asleep beside him, and then he would wake up to see her beside him. Sometimes he would think that she really did care for him... He let out a soft sigh, and Ruka look up at him.
Is a scene that's never happened to me.
"Akatsuki..." she mumbled, blinking up at him innocently. "You didn't answer my questions from earlier."
The young man let out a small chuckle. He didn't expect her saying that.
"I don't have to tell you." he answered. "You might already know the answer to those questions."
Ruka titled her head slightly, looking a little confused. Her grip on his shirt decreased. He wasn't sure if she was pretending not to know, or if she actually didn't grasp it.
But after this episode I don't see,
"I don't know what the answer is, Akatsuki." she said simply.
Kain looked down at her, not saying anything. His heart was starting to beat faster, and he was afraid that Ruka might hear it. She didn't seem to notice, because she kept on looking at him, waiting for him to say something.
"Ruka..." he started, trailing off.
"I honestly don't know. Please give me and answer..." she begged.
You could never tell the next thing life could be.
Kain let out a small sigh, staring down at her with the same unread expression. He didn't want to tell her everything that he's been thinking all this time, since the very beginning. Wouldn't that just seem kind of... awkward? The confused man didn't know what to say.
"Well..." he started, looking around. "Will you tell me what happened with you an Kaname first?"
He wasn't sure if he should have said that.
Ruka's small smile slowly disappeared, turning into a frown.
Do you know what it feels like,
"Um... well, I guess so." she answered, staring down at her feet again.
Now Kain felt kind of bad for her. She had finally calmed down, and now he had upset her. All because he didn't want to answer he questions. He felt really stupid.
"Actually, Akatsuki..." Ruka said, looking back up at him once more. "I should have told you since the very beginning. I'm sorry..."
"Don't be sorry, Ruka." Kain said, shaking his head. He didn't want her to apologize. There was no reason for her to do that.
Loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Ruka's small smile returned once more, and she nodded her head slowly.
"All right," she said in a happier tone.
Kain patiently waited for her to start her story. He wasn't exactly sure what Kaname could have done to upset her and make her cry so much, and he was just dying to know.
Do you know what it feels like,
"Well, I went to see Kaname so I could talk to him..." Ruka explained, looking right into Kain's eyes as she spoke.
The young vampire looked back at her with a reassuring gaze, urging her to go on.
"Somehow, the subject happened to be about Yuki. I asked him why he was always being so nice to her and treasuring her like he does. He... he didn't seem like he wanted to talk about it, but I was too stupid to realize. I kept on begging him to give me a reason, and... Kaname..." Ruka's eyes started to fill with tears, but she sniffled and tried her best to hold them back.
"Ruka, you don't have to say everything..." Kain reassured her, his hands that were gently placed on her arms holding her tighter.
"No, Akatsuki... I want to say everything." Ruka said firmly, nearly digging her nails into his skin.
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
"He... he gently pushed me away and said that I wouldn't understand what he felt... about the pain that he's going through. He said that I didn't know what yearning for someone was like, and he knows that I love him! He knows how I feel, but he still tells me this with that hurtful look." she explained, looking down on the hardwood floor.
Kain's heart twisted in grief. How could Kaname tell her this? Usually he was very careful about that subject, but all of a sudden, he tells her these cruel things, and knows the truth about Ruka's feelings towards him. Kaname knows... yet he acts this way.
Do you know what it feels like,
"I told him that I knew what he felt, because I was yearning for him. He then looked at me with cold eyes, and said that I shouldn't compare my silly problems to his..." Ruka finished, still not looking up to meet her friends gaze.
Loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
"Ruka..." he mumbled, his hands slowly backing away from her. He wanted to give her some space, because Kain knew that this was hard for her.
Without warning, Ruka pushed Kain until he hit the wall behind them, bawling her hands into fists, scrunching up his shirt. She slowly rested her forehead against his chest.
Do you know what it feels like,
"Are my problems silly to you, Akatsuki?" she asked, looking up at him with gritted teeth and teary eyes.
"Of course not..." Kain said quickly, surprised by how aggressive she was acting all of a sudden, although his usual serious face remained the same. "Your problems-"
"Tell me the truth!" she yelled, pressing her hands against him so hard, that it almost made Kain protest.
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
"I'm telling you the truth." he said honestly, looking deep into her eyes. His hands remained on his side, and he wasn't sure if he should consult her just yet.
"How... how can you be so sure?" she asked him, calming down a little bit. Her hands weren't putting as much pressure on his anymore.
Do you know what it feels like,
"Because I believe in you, Ruka... I always have, and I always will. Your problems were never silly to me, and you know I've always been there for you." Akatsuki answered, truth in every single word he spoke.
Ruka blinked at him for a minute, not saying anything.
Loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
"Yes... you're right, Akatsuki." she said finally, nodding her head.
Kain gave her a small smile, placing his hands on her shoulders in a comforting way. All that was left was for him to tell her everything he truly felt for her, and to see her smile. To see her smile for real.
"I think I understand now..." Ruka mumbled, playing with the ends of his shirt.
The confused vampire stared at her, not really sure what she was talking about.
Do you know what it feels like,
"Kaname... he will never love me..." she went on, now tugging at a loose strand of his shirt.
Kain looked at her curiously. What was she getting at? He didn't know.
"Countless times, he was trying to tell me that in a gentle way, but that didn't seem to work... so, this time he was being more rude, hinting it. I know that..." Ruka said, giving up on the irritating loose strand that refused to be broken. She flattened out Kain's shirt and looked back up at him.
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
"Ruka, what are you trying to say?" he asked her slowly.
"You tell me that you believe in me and you'll always stay by my side. And, you were right when you said you didn't have to give me any answers to my questions... I already know them now. It makes sense." Ruka answered, removing his hands from her shoulders and holding them tightly.
Do you know what it feels like,
Kain's heart started to race even faster than it ever had before. He thought that in any moment, it would explode. His hands in hers was enough to take his breath away.
"I know how you feel, Akatsuki..." she whispered, bringing their hands up to her lips.
He held his breath, waiting for her to continue. What is she going to say next? Different options swirled through his head like a tornado. She then gently lowered their hands so she could speak.
Loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
"You yearn for the one you love... just like me." Ruka explained.
"I... I know..." Kain said, closing his eyes. He already knew that she somewhat felt what he was feeling, but he wanted to hear her say it to him.
"I should have known you might have already figured it out. You've always been there for me when I was sad... when I was a wreck." Ruka said, chuckling to herself in a slightly cold way.
Do you know what it feels like,
Ruka knows. She knows what Kain had been feeling, and she had finally realized it and had opened her eyes to see it.
"You and I... we have more in common than any of us have ever thought, huh?" Ruka asked him.
"Yes..." Kain said in a quiet voice. "Yes..."
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
"Akatsuki... thank you." she whispered, once again bringing their hands up to her lips. She gently laid her lips on his fingers, and the contact sent a small chill down Kain's spin as they brushed his skin. "For everything that you've done..."
"It's always a pleasure, Ruka." he said in a calm voice.
Ruka looked up at him, giving him the most beautiful smile. This time, it felt as if this one was real. That made Kain's heart fill with joy.
The young woman slowly let go of his hands and backed away. She gave him a small nod, and turned around to head back in her room.
Do you know?
"Wait, Ruka..." he said, her name smooth rolling off of his tongue.
The called vampire turned around to face her friend, tilting her head to the side slightly.
"What is it...?" she asked.
Do you know?
Kain slowly walked up to her, slowly placing his hands on the side of her face. He gave her a smile, and she looked back at him with curious eyes.
"Ruka... I love you..." he mumbled, pressing his lips against hers. This time, millions of chills ran through his whole body, and he felt sparks fly. His heart pounded loudly.
Do you know?
Ruka's eyes grew wide in shock, but she eventually closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him closer.
Once they pulled way, the two vampires stared at each other for a few long minutes, not saying a single word, but enjoying every single moment of it.
Do you know?
"I know..." she said, smiling sweetly.
Ruka then rested her forehead against his. Her breath brushed against Kain's nose, which made him shiver slightly.
"I love you, too." she mumbled, her lips softly touching his as they kissed once more.
Kain never felt so happy in his entire life. Ruka did know how he felt, but she had never even realized it until now. Kaname was hurting her just as much as Ruka was hurting him... But now the two were there for each other, knowing that each others company was all that they needed to relieve their heavy hearts and to fill them with joy, and love.
There was no need for Kain to tell Ruka what he had truly felt for her all of these years. She now understood him, and saying I love you was the only thing he needed to say.
Phew! So... how was it? Good? Bad? Terrible? Does it have potential? Haha, I'm just putting pressure on myself. This was actually harder to write than I thought, but it was still fun! I've also noticed that writing the beginning—and the ending especially—is really hard for me! I've also tried to stay in Kain's perspective, because it's easier for me to do that, and what else... oh yeah, was the kiss scene okay? I've never written one before, so... yeah... ;) Anyway, please review! I would love to hear from you guys! Bye :)