Dirty mud-blood, thats all that he ever called me when we were in public. He had to, I mean that was the only way that they would think that we really hated one another. He would call me it day after day, saying how much he would love to see me in a casket or to kill all the ones like me, but that was really just a cover up, all of it was. He was a true sweetheart, until he who must not be named got a hold of him that is.
We were in love, or I think that is what love feels like, but that's what we both thought we were in, ever since year four. It was a very stressful time for me and he found me and told me how he really felt about me, how he really wanted to act around me and for some odd reason I believe him, this whole time I knew that he was going to go evil sometime. But for some stupid reason I thought that I would be able to change him, to be able to stop him, but here we are, deadly wands pointed sharply at one another, ready to say the words to kill each other at any time.
" Just get out of here Hermione, please." His words reached out of his mouth, blood slipping from his lips.
" Come with me then, we will be free from this terrible world!" I begged, all the dreams of us running away and running to America flooded through my head.
" No, he has me right where he wants me now! I cannot leave until I have finished what I started, or until Potter has killed him. Just leave!" His eyes were hurt, he was torn between coming with me or doing his job, being like his father or being what he wanted to be.
" No." Then there was a spark of green light and it was all over. But for you to understand anything that is going on you have to go back, to when we were fourth years at Hogwarts, the school or witches and wizards. The school that felt more like my home to me then my own home really ever would.
" Harry this is all madness! You say that you know who is back, and that he really is going to kill you? I cannot believe this!" I said to my friend since the first year at Hogwarts.
" Yes." He said, head places deeply into his hands not looking up.
" Bloody hell Harry, what will you do?" My other friend Ron asked him.
" I don't know." He sighed.
" Well we will have to do something! But for tonight, lets just get some rest and we will think about it in the morning.
I slipped into my room and acted like I was going to sleep, making all the girls believe that I would be, but some of them knew that I was sneaking out in the night. They all thought that I was going off to see Ron off in some place of the school, but really he was just to childish for me, I could never be with him, but if that's what they want to believe then so be it. Ginny even tried to follow me one time, but couldn't quite keep my trail. I slipped into one of my night shirts and some bottoms to go along with it and then got into my bed, waiting for all the girls to come up and fall into their slumber.
It was just over an hour before Ginny finally fell to sleep and I used a spell to make sure that no one would see me leave the common room, it was a spell that would make you invisible to the human eye and to any other kind of eye that would be seeing you, I read it in a book the other week and I knew that it would come in handy, I also read the spell to make sure that I could become visible. Then I left the room and went to the stairs. None of the teachers would be able to see me, but I was still quite scared that some how I would be caught, I guess it's after so many years of getting caught with Harry and Ron that makes me this way.
We were going to meet in one of the upper parts of the highest tower in the school, I do not really know why we were meeting there, most likely because no ghost or paintings were up there. No one to snitch that we had been out there after hours. It was all his idea, the fact that he knew where this place was made it even odder to me, but I really did not care. I just snatched up Harry map and went looking for his footprints and then followed them to the tower, it really was not that hard. It was still the fact of keeping perfectly quite that made me slower then I pleased, also making sure that no one had followed me either. But I got there, just as he did and made me counter-curse to make me visible again.
" There you are Granger, I thought that you were about to flake on me." He said, looking me in the eyes with that smile that I could not resist, not even with me own life.
" No, I had to make sure that no one was following me. At one point I thought that the Head Master had figured out what I was doing, but I guess that he did not." I smiled and looked down at my feet.
" Why am I doing this? This isn't me, I am supposed to be in my room asleep like all the other girls in the school. Not with this punk, no I should not be doing this. But he is so addicting and with Victor leaving soon, I will have no one again." I thought deeply into my head, before looking up to see him moving closer to me.
" So is it true? Did Potter really see him? Did he really see my dad there too?" He seemed desperate to answers, like he did not know that his dad was a death eater.
" Yes to both of those questions." I sighed, moving some hair from my face to the back of my ear. " He is back and he was the one that killed Cedric. Your dad was there for all of it, I guess he just watched and did nothing to try and stop it." I said, his blue eyes shinned into mine.
" I can't believe it, I would have never really thought it. I mean I thought that maybe he would be like my aunt, but I mean him, a death eater. It honestly is a shock to me, I know that you must not believe me when I say it, but I thought of him to be a better man then that." He said, combing his messy hair back, he must have been sleeping before this meeting. " I mean I know that I have to keep up this expectation that I had everyone that is not a pure blood and everything like that because my parents and whole family are a bunch of racists, but I never thought that they would all sink this low." He sighed, sitting on the top stair of the tower.
" I know that you have to Draco, I know. But you don't have to be like them you know, you don't have to become a death eater like all the rest of them, you can still be a good person." He chuckled at this. " Just because someone's family is bad, doesn't mean that the spawn on that family will become bad. Just like a none magic family can't make a magic kid, it's just the way that it is." I sat next to him and smiled lightly, trying to make him see where I was coming from.
" I am really sorry for all the things that I say to you Ganger, I am. But I have to keep up this whole look that I have about me, you know that right?" I thought about this for a second, he has told me time after time that it's not really him, but sometimes I don't believe him.
" Yes Draco, I believe you." I lied, I do but then again I don't. I guess it's just the crush that working it's way into me that is telling me to lie to him to make him feel a little better.
" Good, so tell me about you and that Victor fellow that you have been snogging with."He has Victor name so sharply that I thought it was going to cut through my skin.
" I mean we are dating, but we haven't snogged much, it's more of a physical thing I guess." I smiled with this, but he gave me an odd look. " Not like that, get your mind out of the gutter. I mean like he watches me while I study, or we just walk together, there really isn't anything else to it beside that. It's not like a relationship should be." I sighed.
" How is a relationship supposed to be then?" I knew that he was going to ask this question. Who wouldn't ask that question?
" It's supposed to be a mix of emotional and physical attraction, that feeling liking someone's face, but also loving being near that person. That feeling of know that they are so right being near you, but also just loving to sit next to them and have a nice conversation with them. Getting goosebumps and butterflies when they say your name and not being able to take your eyes off of them when they walk by. It's the feelings mixing with the physical stuff that make a relationship so great." I smiled thinking about what I really wanted.
" I see what you mean, you really have some high expectations on what you want in a true relationship, huh Granger?" He smiled at this, his eyes filling with joy.
" If you want to put it that way." I smiled back at him. " Well what are your expectations then?" I asked, trying to keep the conversation alive.
" Great sex." He joked around, before getting a little more serious about the topic. " Hmm, I really don't know. I mean I want to be attracted to the girl, I have to be really for me to notice her, but she also can't just be pretty, she has to have some brains to her, it doesn't matter how much though. We have to be a good match together too ya know? I can't just be like someone pairs us off together and we hate each other, we have to be good with one another. I think that I would be happy with that, nothing to over the top but nothing to low either." He smiled, playing with his wand.
" I see then, when you say smart do you mean street smart of book smart?" I don't know what I was asking that, but for an odd reason I just really wanted to know.
" Both, mostly book smart. Like you." I smiled at me, I could feel my heart flutter but I did not know why.
We were not dating, not at all. But sometimes it felt like we were, the way that we sneak around to see each other, the little notes that we would fly to each other when no one was looking, never wanting him to get hurt during games, and the way that we both smile at each other when no one was looking. It seemed like we really were, but we weren't, we were just secret friends, very secret friends. That's the way that it should be too, I don't know why we were talking like this or why I would be feeling this way with him, but I was. Maybe he had given me a love potion, maybe he had drugged me or something like that!
" Like me? Why like me? I thought that you were dating that girl from your house?" I asked trying to change the topic.
" No, that's all for show." He smiled leaning in closer to me, I could smell his breath getting closer and closer to me, it smelled of fresh mint tooth paste. He kept getting closer and closer, I kept getting father and father away, moving closer and closer to the walls that were around.
" Who's up there?" Came a voice from the stairs, it was Snape. Crap. I'm dead.
" Hide, make sure that he can't see or hear you and make sure that you don't fall off the tower. I'll take care of him." Draco said and smiled lightly at me before moving up and walking down the stairs.
I place the spell upon myself and slid to one of the beams on the towers, making sure that I was unseen, but could still see and hear everything that was going on, Draco walking down a few stairs and Snape coming up the stairs, wand in hand, looking for whoever he could get into trouble this time. He would be sad that he would not be able to take points away from anyone – well anyone that was not in his own house.
" What are you doing up here at this late house Mister Malfoy?" His dark voice beamed throughout all of the tower, it was going to be easy to hear what they were saying, but my heart was going to be me up at any time. It was going to make me pass out, maybe even fall from the tower, I hope not, that would be almost at terrible as getting caught up here after hours.
" I was getting a little fresh air, stupid Crab has got gas and I could not take it anymore, he was going to kill me if I stayed in there for one more second, so I came up here to get some air that was breathable . Sue me." Giving such a rude attitude to a professor, it was almost sexy. Really sexy actually.
" Well I heard another voice, where is the other person that you were talking to Mister Malfoy?" He asked, crap should I just come out now? Arms in the air ready to get expelled? I just stood where I was, ready for Draco to give me up.
" I think you should really have your hearing checked, possibly even your head checked out too because I really think that you are out of your rather large head old man, there's no one up here see?" He casted a spell to show the whole area and there was no one that he could see up here, thank god.
" Just get back to your common room soon Mister Malfoy." He said darkly before leaving the area and walking back down the stairs, I stayed where I was.
" You can come back out now Hermione." His voice was much softer when he was talking to me. Always. " He's gone."
All I could do was stay where I was, I knew that if I went back to him that I would be falling in love with him more then ever, but if I stayed where I was I was going to break his heart and maybe miss out on something great. I did not know what to do, should I stay here and act like a coward or should I go off and try something that could turn out so terrible for me? I knew that I should not be here, but I was and I could not change that at all. I wanted to be here and I had wanted to see him too, why would I stop now. I guess that I would just have to see where this would take me, for better or for worse I guess. I knew that my friend would strongly disagree on what I was doing, but what the hell, I was my own person and they really did not have a say in what I did.
" I'm over here." I said from where I was, un-casting the spell. I was trying to move but the feet were not allowing me to, my body telling me this was all wrong.
" There you are! Come out from there Love." He smiled when he said that last word, like I was really his love or something. I moved to him, like his words were the only thing that could move me from where I was. " Now where were we?" His voice charmed me into moving closer so that he could see my face fully.
He smiled as he moved closer to me, and for some reason I moved closer to him. I could not stop myself, I placed my arms around his neck and he put his around my waist softly. We were both moving in closer to the other person, moving slowly into the full embrace of our bodies before our lips met. He seemed very pleased to find my lips melting into his, but I could not tell why I was allowing all of this to happen still, he was Draco Malfoy where had all of my self respect gone? But at the same time I really did not care who he was, I just wanted to let myself melt into him, that's all I really wanted and I could not resist. He was very addicting, like a really bad drug.
When we opened our eyes and then embrace was over we both went back to sitting on the stairs, but we were a little closer to one another, his arm around my shoulders and my head sometimes finding it's way to his shoulder or chest. We sat there and talked or kissing for over the next few hours until it was late into the night, until we both were rather tired and went our own ways back into our own common rooms, when I placed Harry's map back into it's hiding place and went back into the girls bedroom, where they all seemed to be sleeping. But none of them were I knew, they were all waiting for me to come back in, so I un-did my spell before I walked into the room.
" It's Victor isn't it Hermione?" One of the girls, Lauren said.
" No it's so someone different." Ginny said
" Who?" They all shrieked.
" It's Ron isn't it?" Another said named Lindsey.
" No bloody way it's my brother!" Ginny shrieked.
" You guys, I was just sneaking out to get a bath. Honestly." One of the girls- Taylor walked over to me and just stood there.
" She reeks of cologne and tooth paste." She smiled and ran back to her own bed.
" So who were you taking that bath with then?" Lindsey smiled and said.
" No one! There must have just been a boy sneaking around in there because it reeked of cologne in there before I got in there and I smell like that because I brushed my teeth, duh." I smiled, thinking that it was going to be over. " Now goodnight!" I said and slipped into my bed, knowing that this would not be the last time that I would be hearing about this.