I lay in darkness of the house, just listening to her breathe. We'd visited her mother for Christmas and had just gotten home this morning after a red eye flight home. She'd been up all day, so when Charlie suggested they celebrate early, watching the ball drop in New York rather than counting down with Seattle, she'd agreed. As for me, Charlie thought I was shooting fireworks behind my house with my family. But I wasn't. I was lying on the bed next to his daughter. Thinking.
If she had her way, and she would, this would stop completely. I would still lie awake at night. For our kind there's no other way to lie awake. But she'd lie awake with me.
Oh, how I'll love it. I'll be there to help her through the tough time at the beginning. I'll hold her when she makes her first mistake. I'll talk with her constantly, and we'll finish each others sentences—like we can read each others minds.
But I'll miss this in a way. I can barely remember being mortal. That time of my life is blurry and distant. But when I'm with her… everything is more real. Running through the woods was just running. I didn't have to notice anything around me until I had her with me. I haven't even thought about tasting food in years, but yesterday I happened to notice the expression on her face when she bit into a piece of pizza.
There are so many mixed emotions surrounding the idea of changing her.
She wants me to so she can be with me forever.
I want to so that she can be with me forever.
Alice has seen it.
She will live forever…
But deep down I can see it for what it is: An Ending.
A/N: I wrote this in a hurry. But I like the idea of doing a twilight oneshot for each holiday. It's not too bad I don't think. It doesn't really fit in chronologically anywhere in the series, but thats ok!