Companion to Perfect Obsession.

Warnings: implied slash and unbeta edited.

Disclaimer: I own nothing related to the Covenant or make a profit out of writing this.

Caleb was a strong believer of no regrets.

And if that was the case than why was he continuously thinking about Chase's unsure death? Regretting the day he didn't find out sooner about his supposedly "big brother's" origin and addiction problems.

Why couldn't he stop himself from thinking about that day in Sarah's bathroom when Chase kissed him? Or the day they both had the face off at the Putnam farm?

Every time he saw Sarah now a day's and saw her beautiful doll like face; he couldn't bring himself to love her like he use to before Putnam farm. All he could see when he sets his gaze at her is regret.

Regret for killing one of his own for a girl he didn't even know for a week.

He regretted the fact that he didn't take the time to actually know the person Chase was behind the mask he so carelessly put on. He would never know for sure what drove Chase to be the kind of person he was. He'll never know why he did the things he did, the only clue he had was the addiction. He'll never know Chase's hopes and dreams and he'll never get the chance to lend a guiding hand.

Yes regret was a terrible thing, Caleb should know. Yet he couldn't stop regretting his mistakes, mistakes he wished he could take back. What good was this power he has if it couldn't take away the pain he was feeling?

Every step he took, his subconscious would know that Chase Collins would never walk among other people. He'll never have the chance to see Chase smile even if it is a fake smile.

He wished that he didn't have the power, that he didn't have to hide a part of him in the shadow's. He wished he wasn't afraid of the darkness locked away in his heart, fearing that one day it would be released into the world.

But mostly he wished he could rip this unbarring regret that was consuming his body that he knew was worse than the power that was slowly decaying his body.

Maybe it would have been better if he had died with Chase in the farm. Maybe than he wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe...

Caleb was sure of one thing.

He'll never regret believing that Chase, deep down was good.

Please R&R