Dirty little secret
As usual Kate woke up in very early morning, she hadn't had much sleep lately due to the reoccurring dream she kept havingThe same dream that she had been having ever since that night when she killed her father.
Kate rolled off her bedspread, pulled back her tarp and sat down in the sand, burying her toes in and watched the waves. Somehow she was always dragged back to the exact same spot thinking about everything, her past, her father, being on the run and she couldn't even believe the next one, she was thinking mostly about Sawyer. She had no idea why she was thinking about him, but she was somehow just drawn to him. She shuffled closer to the ocean so the waves slowly lapped at her ankles; she closed her eyes feeling the cool, soft breeze against her face.
Sawyer sat up frustrated, he just couldn't get to sleep no matter how hard he tried; he was just so hot and sticky, he had to get out. Sawyer slowly pulled back his tarp and walked outside, he was surprised what he saw; Kate sitting practically in the water and about to tilt over.
"Well damn freckles wanna towel?" He smirked.
Kate said nothing her eyes were closed and she was tilting over, Sawyer noticed this and moved towards her and she fell into his arms.
"Easy now, you been poppin' back pills sweetheart?" He teased with a grin but she was unaware, he was getting slightly worried.
"…Kate? C'mon now, time to wake up..." He shook her slightly; she moaned a little but didn't wake. Sawyer cupped his hands in the ocean and gently poured water over her forehead. Kate's eyes fluttered open and she shivered when she realized she was in Sawyer's arms.
"Sawyer? What are you doing?" She looked around at her surroundings and remembered. "Did I fall asleep here?" She asked, confused.
"Hell if I know freckles, I came outta my tent to find you damn near dead!"
Kate laughed.
"I'm serious! I thought you bin' poppin' back pills that's how…worr…er...how damn deep your sleep was!" He knew he had just screwed that one up.
Kate realized what Sawyer was about to say, Was he really worried about me? She thought. But she still kept quiet.
"…how come you were out here anyways?" He wondered, his eyes moved down to her clothes and he wondered if she realized she was practically soaking. He couldn't help eyeing her up and down as well.
"I uh...I couldn't sleep" She stood up and noticed that Sawyer was eyeing her up and down. "Hey tex, my face is up here" He seemed to be in some sort of trance and didn't move.
"I know" He slurred still eyeing her.
Kate rolled her eyes and noticed that she was soaking.
"…great, what's more comfortable than wet clothes?" She said sarcastically.
"Well freckles, I know someone who wouldn't have a problem with helping you outta those" He said.
"Yeah, better go wake Jack up" She teased and grinned at him knowing that it would piss him off.
"Har har very funny" He said, trying to hide the jealously.
"Who says I was joking..?" She was still smiling as she turned around. She felt herself going dizzy and lightheaded, she stumbled. Sawyer moved forward and held her up.
"Whoa, you ok?" He held her closer.
"..Um...yeah I haven't had much sleep lately, I just need some water" She swallowed and noticed the dryness parching in her throat. She slipped out of his grasp and went into the nearest tent, which just so happened to be Sawyers.
"Well hey now! If you wanted me so bad freckles you coulda' just said!" he smirked. Kate rolled her eyes and sat down on his bedspread holding her head.
"Here, take this" He gave her a water bottle. He noticed she was shaking; he got out a shirt from his bag and gave it to her.
"What's this for?" She asked confused, taking the shirt.
"Damn woman, if you don't wanna' die I suggest you put the damn thing on" He answered.
Kate smiled, she loved that he cared but she knew he would never tell her that. She had no idea why she liked it so much, that he cared about her, but something inside of her gave out a sudden rush, she liked it. She was just about to take off her top but then stopped.
"Sorry but when did I become a peepshow?" She questioned with a smile.
Sawyer noticed her smiling Damn why she have to look so damn beautiful when she smiles… he thought.
He laughed "All right, all right!" He turned around.
Kate went back to taking off her shirt, but she was having trouble with it, it was so wet it stuck to her skin.
"…Um…Sawyer…could you uh..." Kate hesitated.
She hated asking him for things like this, all it would do is give his already huge ego a massive boost.
"Hell it would be my pleasure freckles" He smiled so his dimples showed. Kate rolled her eyes and moved closer to him.
"Would you just do it!" She said to hurry him up even though she wanted it to go slower, she couldn't admit to that.
Sawyer smirked and pressed closer. He grabbed the bottom of her shirt and started to pull it up. He was going to do this slowly, teasing her, to nourish in the moment.
Kate knew what he was doing and it was working. She had goose bumps already, she couldn't help it he was just…so...damn hot! Ok Kate stop it! Right now! She said to herself.
"Would you stop that?" She exclaimed.
"Stop what freckles?" He gave her an innocent look and looked directly into her eyes.
Kate became breathless, the way he looked in her eyes like that just made her heart skip. Sawyer moved his head closer to hers and continued to pull the shirt up.
"…I know what you're doing" She said trying to calm her voice.
Sawyer lifted the shirt higher and let his hands stroke her skin as he did so.
"Oh really?" He said in a low husky voice. He dipped his head lower, still slowly removing the shirt, their lips we're inches apart.
"….Yeah" She whispered as they both moved closer.
Their lips met and Sawyer pressed against her causing Kate to take an intake of breath and with that Sawyer dipped his tongue deep into her mouth. Kate hesitated but then responded, locking her arms around his neck she pulled him closer deepening the kiss. The kiss was long, deep and full with passion and need, they both wanted each other and they knew it. Sawyer was getting annoyed that both his hands were pre-occupied by holding Kate's shirt half way up, so he pulled it up higher and over her head. Now taking her shirt off for an entirely different reason, he let his hands roam free over Kate's body and brought one hand up to her face stroking her cheek and getting it tangled in Kate's hair. He broke the kiss leaving both of them heavily breathing and he moved down onto her neck planting soft kisses and nipping her slightly.
Kate let out a moan and was getting very flustered. She couldn't believe she was doing this. No, she couldn't, she had to get away but with him kissing her neck like that she wasn't going anywhere. No Kate this isn't what you want, you want Jack - no I don't I really want Sawyer but I cant, I can't do this. She told herself. Kate brought both her hands up onto his chest and pushed him away.
"I…I can't do this" She stuttered.
"Wh…what?" He said confused and breathless.
"I cant, I have to go..." She picked up Sawyers shirt and started to walk out, but Sawyer caught her by the wrist.
"…stay" He said in such a soft calming voice that Kate nearly kissed him with all the lust and passion she had left, but she restrained herself and tried to block him out as best she could. "Please Kate" She loved it when he used her name normally it was only when he was mad at her, but not now he really did want her to stay.
"I have to go" She said avoiding his eyes, her voice breaking a little. She knew he was giving her one of those looks and that if she looked into his eyes right now she would just fall into them.
Kate turned around and Sawyer picked up her shirt, but when he turned around she was gone. He pulled back his tarp and ran outside.
"KATE!" He shouted but there was no answer, she was gone.
Sawyer stood there, still with her shirt in his hand.
"Son of a bitch" He whispered, he new this was going to be a sleepless night.
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