A/N: so i kind of came up with this idea and started writing it and i really enjoined it so that's why i decided to write more so here's the first chapter :) i don't know if youguys will like it but i hope so and feel free to comment about what you like or dislike. -xx-
Chapter one.
Kurt Hummel opens the door of his office to welcome three people, a man a woman and a guy. I'm Dr. Hummel and I'm going to be your doctor for the coming weeks, months, years... He thought but didn't say the last out loud. 'Eileen Anderson' the woman says as she shakes Kurt's hand. The man follows her examples, he shakes Kurt's hand and says his name 'Arthur Anderson'' the three of them sit down on the chairs in front of Kurt's desk. the guy who obviously is the patient hadn't said a thing since they arrived at the hospital and Eileen started to worry 'Blaine sweetie just say hi to your doctor' Blaine just looks at his lap and remains silent. Kurt feels sorry for the boy he looks younger than him, not all too much probably just a couple of years. Blaine finally looked up at Kurt and started blushing at the sight. His voice sounded so sweet and soft like a it stroked your face once it came near you. Kurt takes a deep breath. 'So Blaine can you tell me what's wrong?' Kurt asks in a gentle voice. Blaine stays silent for a long time. His mother lightly touches his knee and he starts talking. 'I have pain' Blaine says but he immediately regrets he said that. Of course he has else he wouldn't be there. 'Where?' Kurt asks. 'In my side' Blaine says almost inaudible. 'Okay and what else?' 'I'm feeling really tired all the time and I feel sick lately' Kurt nods 'sick as in fever?' 'Yes' Blaine answers. 'Is that it or is there more?' Kurt asks after Blaine paused for a long moment. Blaine looks at his mom as if asking her to speak. 'He lost weight' she says and looks at her son with watery eyes. 'And the uhm the thing' Arthur says. Eileen nods 'he has some sort of lump on his side' she whispers. Kurt only nods. He knew where this was going. They probably knew as well but they were just afraid to say it out loud. Of course they knew they weren't send to Kurt without a reason. Kurt who is an oncologist. Of course Kurt knew it was going to be hard to tell them. But he knew he had to. Kurt recognised the symptoms they told but he couldn't tell them yet he just couldn't he needed to be 100 percent sure. He didn't want to make them worry unnecessarily even though he was sure it wouldn't be unnecessary. 'We need to do blood tests, I know they did already but we need to do some more. Also a CT scan ' Blaine looks from his mom to his dad back to his mom and then he meets Kurt's gaze 'o-okay' he says in a high pitched voice very different from the sound that came out of his mouth less than five minutes ago. 'Well if that's the only solution we'll have to do that' Eileen says. 'Well let's make an appointment then' Kurt says and sits back behind his desk opening the 'agenda' he flips some pages and then traces his finger over an empty spot on the page 'next week Monday?' It was now Saturday so that meant the appointment was going to be in two days. 'T-that's really quick' Blaine says in a nervous voice. Kurt knows that and he did that for a reason because if what he thinks is wrong with Blaine they really need to hurry. Kurt looks at Blaine's parents 'are you both okay with next Monday?' 'I have a day off on Monday so that's good' Eileen answers. 'So next Monday it is' Kurt says and drabbles something on the empty spot. 'So the scan will be at 12:00 but you need to be here a little early so we can tell you what is going to happen and to make you ready' Blaine makes a little movement with his head which he probably meant as a nod. 'So 11:00?' 'That's fine' Eileen answers. 'Good, and we'll prick some blood after the scan is that okay?' 'Y-yes' Blaine says. 'Great, well then I think we're done for now' they all stand up and shake hands again. 'See you on Monday Blaine' Kurt says as he shakes Blaine's hand and holds on to it for a little too long and he feels his cheeks turn pink when he realises. 'Bye Mrs. And Mr. Anderson' Kurt says as they leave his office. The door shuts close behind them and he sits down behind his desk. This is going to be tough.
Blaine woke up from the light that shone into his room. He turned to his side to watch the clock. Half past four. It was too early to get out of bed already but he couldn't sleep anymore. He knew all too well what day it was today. Monday, day of the appointment. Blaine had always been scared of hospitals so that didn't make it any better. He turned back to look up at the ceiling. His stomach hurt and he started to feel more nauseous every time he thought about the appointment. He turned on the TV but on mute scared to wake his parents. He tried to focus on the TV and distract his thoughts but it had no success. He couldn't take it any longer he started to make himself crazy thinking about the things that could go wrong. He got out of bed and went downstairs in his pyjama. Much to his surprise he saw his mom sitting on the breakfast table. 'Hey sweetie' she says in her soft voice 'why are you up already?' She asks looking a little worried. 'I couldn't sleep anymore' 'me neither' she says 'do you want me to make you some tea?' She says as she stands up and walks to the counter. Blaine didn't really feel like drinking tea but he wouldn't disappoint her. She was obviously searching for some distraction too. 'Yes' he says and he sees her smiling. He sits down on a chair and buries his head in his hands which are lying on the table. He lifts his head as he hears a sound and sees her setting the mug in front of him. 'Drink it sweetie it will do you good' she says. 'You look very pale are you okay honey' she says as she takes a good look at him. 'M fine' he mumbles. She sits down opposite of him and softly grabs his hand over the table. 'It's okay to be nervous' she says and looks at him with her bright blue eyes. 'I love you Blaine' she says and kisses his hand. Blaine swallows 'Love you too mom' he manages to say. With every word and every thought he feels the lump in his throat starting to get even bigger. But then he blurts everything out 'I don't want to go mom, I'm scared what if something goes wrong or what if I'm really sick? I'm just so scared' she stand up from her chair and he does the same. She pulls him into a hug and whispers soothing words in his ear while slightly rubbing his back 'ssh it will be okay honey everything will be fine I promise' she says and kisses the top of his head. 'We love you Blaine so so much' she says as she takes his head in both of her hands. He tries to smile he really tries, for her but his face won't cooperate and instead of a smile his face is now covered with tears which start to blur his vision. 'Oh sweetie come here' she says and pulls him back into a hug, tighter this time. She runs a hand through his hair and smiles 'I like your hair like this, you shouldn't gel it all the time' he shrugs and looks at his feet. They stay like that for a long time. Blaine taking comfort of his mother's presence and she in return taking comfort of just hugging her youngest son.
Kurt woke up early this morning. Since there was no way he could fall asleep again he decided to get dressed and go to work early. Make some stuff ready do a bit of paperwork check upon his patients. Enough things to do. He got out of bed and took a quick shower. Or well quick for him. After he spend more than an hour in the bathroom to fix his hair -even though he knew it was going to be ruined by one of the kids in the hospital- he went downstairs to make himself some breakfast. He ate in front of the TV watching the early morning news.
Blaine was in his room trying to decide what he should wear. He wasn't really feeling like doing his usual routine today and decided to put on a sweater with a beanie and a not all too tight jeans. He made his way back downstairs to see both his mom and dad waiting for him in the living room. Both with their coats already on. His mom was holding his coat and handed it to him when he came closer. 'Here sweetie' she says. 'Thanks' he says back and puts on his coat. 'Are you ready to go?' His dad asks 'are you coming along?' Blaine asks. 'i took the day off' 'thanks' he whispers. 'So ready then?' 'Never' he whispers but more to himself than to his dad. His mom gives him a sad smile and mouthed that it was going to be alright. Everyone was silent the whole car ride long. Normally Blaine would sing along to every song much to the annoyance of his parents but this time they wouldn't have mind. His mom turned in her seat and lightly patted his knee. Blaine looked out of the window and remained silent.
After Kurt checked upon all his patients he settled in his chair behind his desk and waited for the Andersons to arrive. After a few minutes there was a knock on the door. 'Come in' Kurt says and he sees the handle going down. The man, Arthur came in first. Followed by his wife and at last Blaine. He looked very different from the last time Kurt saw him even thought that was only two days ago. Kurt saw what his mother had meant by the weight loss. Blaine also looked very pale compared to the last time he saw him and he looked like he might throw up every minute. 'Take a seat' Kurt says as he points at the chairs in front of his desk. They all settle down and the room remains silent. 'Is it correct you went to see the radiographer yesterday?' Kurt asks. Since Blaine isn't looking as if he is going to answer Eileen answers the question. 'Yes we did' Kurt nods 'Good, so she told you about the not eating part and all those things?' Kurt asks and Eileen nods. Kurt looks at his watch 'She'll be here any minute' He says and that is followed by a knock on the door. 'Come in' Kurt says and the door is opened by a brunette. 'Hey Kurt' she says as she walks in. 'Hey Juliet' Kurt says as he smiles at her. Juliet was one of his favourite colleagues and they always were together during lunch breaks. 'I think you remember me right?' Juliet asks smiling as she turns to the Andersons after closing the door behind her. 'As I told yesterday you weren't supposed to eat this morning. I hope you remembered that?' she asks as she looks at Blaine. He nods and she smiles. 'Good' she pauses for a moment and gives Kurt a meaningful look. 'so what we're going to do, we're going to another room soon. We will inject you with the ''dye'' like I told you. Then we have to wait a little and then it's time for the scan.' She smiles again trying to be the happy one in the room since no one id feeling all too happy. 'shall we go?' she asks as she looks at Blaine and his parents. They stand up from their chairs and follow her into the hallway. She opens a door and closes it after Kurt since he is the last one to come into the room. You can sit over there she says to Eileen and Arthur while pointing at two chairs. 'Blaine I'd like you to come sit here' she says as she pats the examination couch. Blaine does as he is ordered and sits down. 'okay so after I injected you, you may get a warm feeling, this will disappear again so don't worry about it. It is also possible that you have a strange taste in your mouth or you will get the idea that you have to pee. But that's perfectly normal and it is just a feeling, and not really the case. With this I mean that you don't really have to pee' she whispers the last few words. 'Are you ready?' she asks as she walks away to get the needle. Blaine closes his eyes and tries to think about other stuff but he can't. she comes back and smiles at him again 'Do you want to squeeze someone's hand?' she asks as she smirks at Kurt. Blaine swallows and looks at Kurt and then back to Juliet. 'N-no I ….I am fine' he says. 'Okay' she says in her still oh so happy voice. 'Do you want me to count down?' 'Just..just do it' he says and as he demands she carefully pushes the needle into his skin. She smiles as she pulls it out. 'Done' she puts the needle away and stand next to Kurt. 'oh and as I told you yesterday you are able to wear your own clothes as long as they have no metal in them. You have to remove belts or jewellery though as metal can interfere with the scan and causes streaking on the images.' She says. 'You can give them to Kurt he'll take good care of it' she says. Blaine looks at his hand which are laying in his lap. 'I only have a belt' he whispers not looking up at Juliet. 'That's okay' Blaine unbuckles the belt and as Kurt comes closer Blaine hands him the belt. 'Can you uhm can you stand on yourself?' Kurt asks to Blaine 'Kurt he is not some sort of disabled person' she says 'I'm sorry' Kurt says. And Juliet and Blaine share a smile a very little one but a smile. 'Well let's go then' Juliet says after a while. They go to another room in which is the ct-scan. 'Okay Blaine so you're going to lay down here' she pats the examination table we will go in there' she points at a tiny room. 'We can still talk with you and you can hear us. Every now and then we might ask you to hold your breath but that's normal okay?' He nods 'the scan will take about 15 minutes' 'o-okay' is the only thing Blaine says. 'Kurt can you take Mrs. and Mr. Anderson?' 'Sure, follow me please' Kurt says as he looks at Arthur and Eileen. 'Can I say goodbye before we go?' Eileen asks in a soft voice 'oh sure how stupid of me, I'll wait for you two on the hallway' he says and leaves the room. 'Do you want me to go?' Juliet asks 'no it's fine you can stay' Arthur says as both Blaine and Eileen don't answer. Blaine is sitting on the examination table and she walks over to him. She takes his hands out of his lap and squeezes them 'I love you sweetie, everything will be alright, we'll be there in that tiny room okay? And we can still talk with you' she says as she looks at him and he gives her a small smile 't-thanks mom' she swallows before she says something again. 'We'll see you soon sweetie' she lets go of his hand and kisses him on his cheek. 'Bye' she says and waves at him before walking to the hallway. Arthur stands there a little awkwardly and smiles a little. 'I'll see you soon' he says and then walks away so Juliet and Blaine are alone in the room. Blaine feels sick and he feels like he is going to throw up every moment. 'Are you okay?' Juliet asks but Blaine doesn't even hear her he is too focused on not fainting or something terrible like that. 'Blaine?...' He hears a voice and realises Juliet is talking to him. 'Sorry what?' He stammers 'I asked if you are okay?' She pauses 'I don't think so though since you have no idea where I am talking about' she says and smiles a little 'do you want to wait a little longer to do it or?' 'No let's just do it the earlier it's done the better' he says. 'Well okay lay down then' Blaine does.
Eileen, Arthur, Kurt and Juliet are all in the small adjacent room. No one talks except Juliet who is saying something to Blaine every now and then. 'Okay hold your breath now Blaine' she says as she looks at the monitor. 'Good a little longer' she waits for a moment 'yes let go again' after 16 minutes had passed the scan had finished and Juliet had gone back into the room. 'Not too bad huh?' she asks happily 'I think so' she smiles 'good' as she helps Blaine of the examination table she beckons him to follow her to the hallway. 'Kurt will take you back to his office now since I am no longer needed' she says and grins. She shakes the hands of Blaine's parents before leaving and pats Blaine's shoulder for a moment. 'Bye' she says and then she's gone walking into the opposite direction of where Kurt's office is. 'Well let's go then' he says as they go back to his office. They all settle down before Kurt starts talking 'so we'll just go take some blood now, you've done that before right?' Blaine nods not meeting Kurt's gaz. 'Okay and after that we'll make a new appointment to discuss the test results and then we're done' he says now more to Eileen and Arthur than to Blaine and then both not in answer. 'Well come on then' Kurt stands up and Blaine follows his example. 'You can sit down there' Blaine does. Kurt gets the needle and a few 'let's see' he says as he walks to Blaine. 'Can i?' He says as he looks at Blaine's sleeve 'y-yes' Kurt touched Blaine's sleeve and lightly pulls it up. When Kurt's fingers touched Blaine's skin there goes a shiver down his spine. Kurt searches for the vein and when he founds it he looks at Blaine. 'Ready?' Blaine says yes without realising what he really said and when he feels the cold metal in his skin he squeaks. Kurt immediately stops pushing the needle in. 'Are you okay?' Kurt asks concerned 'yes it was just really sudden...' 'You said you were ready but I can always stop' 'no no it's okay Blaine says quickly even though he feels like screaming and ripping the needle out of his arm himself he tries to stay calm. 'Do you want something to squeeze in?' Kurt asks gentle. Blaine have to admits he would like that and since he embarrassed himself already he doesn't really care anymore. 'Yes please' he says. 'I am afraid I need to use both of my arms' Kurt says smiling 'but I'm sure your mom wouldn't mind, right Mrs. Anderson?' 'Sure' she says and stands up put of her chair. She holds out her hand as she comes near Blaine and he lightly holds it. 'Okay ready?' Kurt asks Blaine and be nods. Kurt gently pushes the needle further in and Blaine squeezes his mother's hand. The tubule slowly fills itself with blood and Kurt gently pulls it out. 'Well it wasn't that bad was it?' Kurt asks gently but as he sees the look on Blaine's face he realises he was wrong. Kurt doesn't want to but he needs to take another tubule 'I'm sorry but I need to take another one' Blaine let's out a long sigh and looks at Kurt. 'Is that, is that really necessary?' Blaine asks blushing and looks away from Kurt. 'Yes, I am sorry but I need to be sure I have enough blood' Kurt says and Blaine nods. Kurt cleans the needle and pushes it back into Blaine's skin, on another spot this time. The red substance fills the tubule one more time. 'Okay done' Kurt says as he gently pulls it out. 'I'll get you a plaster he says and opens a drawer. He places it on the spot and smiles. 'We're done now' Blaine finally releases his mother's hand and they both sit back down in the chairs near Kurt's desk. 'Okay so we have to make a nee appointment to discuss the results of the scan and the blood. It will take a while for it to be done so I think next week is good, is it?' He asks 'yes next week is g-good' Blaine says. 'Any preferences for a day?' Kurt asks as he looks at Eileen and Arthur. 'Maybe after school Blaine? Because then you don't need to miss anything right sweetie?' She asks in a soft voice as she looks at Blaine with a sad look in her eyes even though she tries to hide it.