A/N: This is a oneshot about Lupin and Tonks. It takes place during the sixth book, probably sometime around October/November. It's short, but please review.

I'm sitting in a very important Order meeting and I am bored out of my wits. Dumbledore is saying that someone has disappeared and I feel guilty because all I care about is that Remus John Lupin is sitting six chairs down. I can feel his eyes on the side of my head and I wish the floor would open up and eat me alive.

But I soon banish this thought from my mind when I remember that I can't wish for anything because I'm a realist, as of yesterday.

Bloody hell, Dumbledore, I want to scream, I don't care, can I leave, please? You can kick me out of the Order. It's okay.

And I remember that I love the Order even more than my work as an Auror, and I sigh.

"Meeting adjourned," he announces finally. He then stands and leaves to Apparate back to Hogsmeade, back to his school. Minerva McGonnagal follows suit, and it is now I realize Snape is missing.

"Tonks darling, are you staying for dinner?" Molly Weasley asks in her kind, motherly voice. "You look like you haven't had a decent meal in ages, dear. Why don't you stay?"

I shake my head sadly, the gesture I practiced in the mirror for ages this year. "Oh, Molly, don't be silly. I have to catch a train and get a report done at the Ministry, and then I've got to go back to the school. Thanks for the offer, though." I stand and trip on Kingsley's chair. He looks up at me and smiles, chuckling. The rest chuckle, too.

Inwardly, I sigh and curse my clumsiness. It makes me look stupid and immature because I trip over everything I see and I can't be trusted with a glass of water.

As I walk out of the house, I can hear Remus saying in a low voice, "I should get going, too. I'll see you all later, then."

My pace quickens as my feet hit the asphalt and I walk down the Muggle's street. Some of them stare at my strange clothing, but most just pretend not to notice.

When I hear footsteps somewhere behind me, my pace slows, but not by much. I am practically running down the street, trying to get onto the bus so I can enter the Ministry by the visitor's entrance.

I make it to the bus station before he speaks, from only a few meters behind me. "Tonks."

All Remus says is my name, and it sends me into a flying fury. I spin on my heel and spit, "What do you want?"

He stares at me expectantly, and I wonder if I've said something wrong. Stupid, I think, mentally slapping myself, you're not supposed to care. "What?" I ask again.

"What do you want from me, Tonks?" he asks in the softest voice I've ever heard him use. It is now that I realize he has fresh scars on his face and exposed hands. "What do you even want?"

There's the anger again. I try to suppress it, but it breeds with a bit of angst in my heart and sets me aflame. "You know what I want, Remus? I want to forget about you, utterly and completely. I want to walk away and never want to look back, but I can't."

Remus looks at me silently and finally says, "Well, why don't you?"

The bus pulls up and I walk towards it. Because I love him, I look back just before we pull away.

Please review! Also, do you think I should continue this or leave it as a oneshot?