Ghost of You
Songfic for Snape/Lily
Summary: The night Snape finds Lily's dead body.
I never said I'd lie and and wait forever
He could've have waited forever for her. Forever and a day
If I died we'd be together
He contemplated death, would it be worth it, just to be with her?
I can't always just forget her
No matter how hard he'd tried, he'd never been able to forget the red haired beauty he fell in love with
But she could try
However, he thought, she probably didn't even give me a second thought. After all, who'd ever love someone like him?
At the end of the world or the last thing I see
He remembered the last time he'd seen her, he'd just moved out of his father's house. She'd been walking, arm in arm, with that Potter.
You are never coming home, never coming home
He saw her smiling, laughing, she was leaving, going into hiding from the Dark Lord. She'd never return home
Could I? Should I?
Could he apologize for all those years ago? Should he admit that he regretted it?
And all the things that you never ever told me
Last time, she'd wanted to say something to him, but he'd walked right past her, hurt that she had chosen Potter.
And all the smiles that are ever ever
He remembered her beautiful smile, how it shone brighter than the stars.
Ever, Get the feeling that you're never, All alone
He felt so alone in the world. Lily was his only friend and lover
and I remember now
The image was crucial, haunting in his mind
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
He held her lifeless body in his arms. The pain was too much to bear
She dies
He watched her for what seemed forever, he saw baby Harry crying in his cot. He would've picked him up, but at that moment, footsteps were heard. He quickly fled.
At the end of the world
His world had ended. Lily, the only thing important to him, was gone.
Or the last thing I see
The last thing he'd seen was her lifeless green eyes, stare back at him
You are never coming home, Never coming home
She was gone. Just another memory that would haunt him forever
Could I? Should I?
Could he go on? Should he end it all now?
And all the things that you never ever told me
He'd never told her that he'd loved her. Snape stared at the letter in his hand.
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Her laugh, it haunted him in his sleep. Everywhere, he could see that smile of hers.
Never coming home Never coming home
Hogwarts use to be a home to him. But now it just held painful memories. Sad, hurtful ones.
Could I? Should I?
The potion sat on his desk. Just one sip would end his life...should he?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
He was emotionally scared. The word 'Mudblood' had been burned onto his tongue, where he'd carry the burden around forever
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
Late at night, he could her her voice, as soft as ever. Calling him, crying for her son.
If I fall If I fall (Down)
He let himself sink low. He had his mask on for everything. He gained a reputation for being cruel and sullen. Nothing bothered him, apart from one thing...Harry Potter
.aaaaaaaaaa.
At the end of the world, Or the last thing I see
Harry Potter looked so strongly like his father. When Severus first laid eyes on him, he saw a clone of James Potter. He'd thought he'd seen the last of Potter, but the eyes...those emerald green eyes.
You are never coming home, Never coming home,
He'd never realised that after all this time, Harry was Lily's child. Whilst he looked like his arrogant father, he had the heart and soul of Lily.
never coming home, Never coming home
In his heart, he held on to the one thing that kept him sane...the thought that one day, he'd see Lily home, she'd come home to him.
And all the things that you never ever told me
Severus wished that he'd never called her that name. It was a poor mistake.
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Harry's smile, it was Lily's smile. Everytime Potter smiled, Lily smiled. Everytime Potter laughed, Lily laughed.
Never coming home, Never coming home
Lily was never coming back. Severus had known all along, but he'd always held on.
Could I? Should I?
He could never give up. He let himself get killed by Voldemort. He looked into Harry's eyes, Lily's eyes. They were so much alike.
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
No more would he be pained by his memories. He would never feel hurt again. However, the image would always follow him around...forever
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me