Life sucks and then you die, well wouldn't that just be peachy. You have to go through all the crap, all the lies, everything that life throws at you, smile, pretend it's not happening even though on the inside you're slowly dying watching the one person you love more than anyone in the world fall in love, see you as a best friend nothing more, but you take whatever you can get, any bit of affection a hug here, a kiss on the cheek there – anything. Birthdays will come and go and even though it's always a present that shows he knows you, it pales in comparison to the thought and effort you put into his. He's your whole life and yes you can live without him for weeks it's only a half life, it doesn't stop you from curling up in a ball every night, because of that gaping hole you try to hide everyday.
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Why can he not see me for, well what I really am, the right choice, the one he should be with, I would be better for him. So much better. She's just using him. How can he not see it? How can he let her suck him in time and time again? Who does she think he is that she can keep hurting him by pulling him back into that poisonous relationship? It isn't healthy. All he needs to do is open his eyes and look at what is staring him in the face. How can he be so blind?