I know both parts are short, but it's split into two parts for two main reasons: one, the first can be read alone; the second is only there because I'm a sucker for happy endings. Also, the first one is a songfic and the second isn't. Sorry for the inconvenience!
Allergy Information: Angsty!Cloud. Language. In the second, some overly cliche and romantic fluff.
The song is "Fallen Through" by Skye Sweetnam. She's not an artist I normally like, but I'm smitten with this song!
I do what he says but I
End up falling off the edge
I don't know what to do, it never seems
To end up being true
"Fucking asshole," I muttered as I searched through my phone for his name. "That fucking asshole." I got rather repetitive when I was upset. Finally finding the contact Leon, I opened up my options and deleted his name and number from my phone. I stared at my phone for a long time, a part of me begging for him to call; erasing his name did nothing, because I'd long ago memorized his number. When my phone offered no consolation, I threw it at the wall; it promptly broke into two pieces.
Staring at my broken cell, I began to cry for the first time since middle school. This was the first time since sixth grade I'd had no one to comfort me when something went wrong. This was the first time since middle school he'd left me alone.
Seeps in underneath the door
Sinks in and stains the floor
I don't know what to feel, it takes so long
For these wounds to heal
Tell me it's not really real
He wasn't even mine… why was I so upset that he had a girlfriend? Why?
It hurt too much… I'd known him for so long, but… Rinoa came along and snatched him up.
"Fucking asshole," I repeated through my tears. How could he have forgotten? He… he'd always been with me, on this day, every year… every year since sixth grade, he'd let me cling to him like a lost child. I was scared. I didn't want to be alone again.
I'd thought I was over it. When Leon was with me, I didn't really care. Now that he was gone, though, the wounds were opening back up.
Fallen through
Why did I fall for you?
Fallen for all the lies, the alibis, that you said
Left me holding on by the last thread
Why Leon? Why? I rested my forehead on the floor, tears still coursing down my cheeks.
"Leon… you said you'd always be here," I whispered. "Where are you?"
You threw my heart away
That's the price that I paid
I know it's never fair, you promised me
You'd always be there
But you never really cared
"You fucking promised," I said. "Where the fuck are you?" I screamed, pounding the floor.
It was raining. Just like the day she left. It was the same relentless torrent of rushing water; the same endless storm, yet without lightning or thunder; the same dark sky regardless of the time.
I'd given Leon my all for this one day of comfort. Where was he?
Fallen through
Why did I fall for you?
Fallen for all the lies, the alibis, that you said
Left me holding on by the last thread
I wrapped my arms around myself. It had always been Leon. My own thin arms felt strange and unfamiliar even to myself. I longed for Leon's arms.
If you feel like a sad ending, then consider this the end. If you're like me, however, and you want a happy ending, hurry to the next part!