Self Deception
By Secret Dancer
He had never considered falling for anyone before. When the opportunity came he confused himself. Was she really who he wanted? Did he want to hurt his brother in returning her feelings? Did he even have those feelings? Cole wondered all these things as he trained.
He and Jay had been fighting over Nya. Of course Jay and Nya were together so he didn't have any right to be with her.
Cole didn't know how he felt about Nya either. She was a teammate, yes but she was showing romantic interest in him. Didn't she care for Jay?
For some unfathomable reason, Cole found himself wanting her attention. He wanted her to look at him, to acknowledge him, to care for him more than a teammate. But he didn't have romantic feelings for her.
Why did he fight with Jay over her? Jay cared about her, not him. Yet she was torn between the two of them. Was it the competition that caused him to think he wanted her?
Cole found himself acting out of character over Nya. He would have never done this before. Something about being the winner of her feelings was appealing to him. Yet he felt guilty for trying to get between her and Jay-the perfect couple.
What was it that made Nya change her mind? Hopefully it wasn't one of those dumb compatibility quizzes or something like that. How could someone put their faith in what others tell them versus what they tell themselves? You're the only person to know yourself, that's why you shouldn't let others make your choices for you.
Cole now knew why he was chasing after a girl he wasn't even interested in. Nya was a close friend of his but that's all he wanted out of their relationship. Dating wasn't for him. But what made him act impulsively was the fact someone was interested in him as a person and not as a ninja. Someone was showing him affection and being the human he is, he was drawn to warmth, protection, and love no matter what form.
A/N: So after eating some oreo's and suffering through my own relationship problems I realized I could write about how Cole might be feeling during the dispute between him and Jay during Rebooted. I find myself wanting to impress people who express interest in me or even random people just so I might feel some affection. During my past romantic relationships I realized I just want to be friends with those people because I am one of those people who doesn't really want a relationship. I thought maybe Cole could be this way too.
The second thing is the morale: Nya let that compatibility machine make her match for her. Because her choice was challenged she began to doubt her decision and start migrating to the other one. What she should have done was analyzed her feelings for both boys and decided which one she really cared for instead of who she thought she cared for. In other words, make your own choices, don't just walk blindly into fire.
I hope you enjoyed.