Levi's POV
Waking up to the feeling of Eren's warm skin was enough to make me want to keep pretending I was asleep so I'd never have to move again.
His body was draped over mine and sheets entangled our legs. My head was pressed up against his warm chest and I could hear his heartbeat. His chest moved with every breath he took. My god I loved this brat. This brat… is my Alpha and sometimes I can't believe it but he is. He is so rowdy and childish but now that I think of it, this is the only time I've ever seen him calm. He was awake but I sure as hell wasn't going to let him know I was. He was running his fingers through my black hair and humming.
This is fucking bliss. As much as I didn't want to admit it the Omega in me was purring at the attention my Alpha was giving me even if we weren't bonded.
Then as if he read my mind he whispered in my ear, "How long have you been awake?"
It sent chills down my spine, "Long enough to enjoy you touching my hair." I turned away from his chest already missing the extra warmth.
Pulling my head from his chest and placing his nose on mine he breathed, "No work today. It's still a little early in the morning and we are only in our boxers. I think I want to touch something more than your hair now that you're awake." HIs face melted in a seductive grin and his green eyes gleamed in the sun that poured through our window.
Red stained the tips of my ears to the brim of my nose. It has been forever since we've had a moment like this and I had to admit The sight of him in only red boxers did make mine a little tighter. I'd die before I told him that.
My breath hitched as he paved a path of kisses down my neck, "You're still up for this? I just went through heat and ah-okay you're up for this but I don't know if I am. I'm kind of… worn out." My fingers gripped his hair as his tongue lapped at my groin through my boxers.
He looked up, "You don't have to do anything, I'm more than willing to do all the work." he sat up, "Unless you really don't want to, I don't want to make you do anything-" I hushed him with a wet kiss.
"For fuck's sake please just.. Ugh" I rubbed my thighs together to try and relieve myself a bit, "Touch me Eren."
My hands ran across his back as he gripped my sides and licked my inner thighs.
Hickies began to bloom and small moans escaped my lips. Sliding off his red boxers - buzz buzz buzz buzz- is that his damn phone? Who the actual fuck is calling him at nine in the morning? Looking just as pissed as me Eren grabbed his phone from the night stand.
"Who is this?... What are you calling me on a sunday at 9am for? Oh you're at the front door and the key isn't working…"
He stumbled out of the bed throwing on yesterday's shirt and whatever pants were closest to him.
What the fuck just happened?
He glanced nervously at me knowing once the uninvited left he was going to regret answering the phone. Even though I was his Omega he knew I shouldn't be messed with because I was as strong as they come.
I knew who it was before he opened the door. Mikasa.
What is Mikasa doing here again? She literally lives right next door! In the next fucking apartment over! I am sick of her just popping in and out of here to "check up on Eren" Im taking care of him he is fine. If only I could scream this out loud at the breakfast table right now and not in my head. The omega in me was getting jealous of another omega rubbing herself all over my Alpha.
Honestly Eren is my boyfriend my Alpha and Mikasa is… not important is the nicest way I can think about putting it. She's always been on my nerves a little but since Eren and I moved in she's been a pain in my ass. Sitting across the table Eren and I bought together is the actual spawn of satan.
She pops in to make breakfast and takes Eren to work and talks to him and basically cock blocks me. Eren has a car and a more than capable boyfriend to drive him places, and make that brat shitty breakfast or buy him a donut. I've voiced this to Eren and once to Mikasa but I rather not be that dick so i've stuck it out but this is too far. It's been two months of this crap and I'm done.
Walking out of the kitchen trying to contain my emotions I left behind a confused Eren and an uncaring Mikasa I locked myself in the bedroom and sat under the sheets trying to soothe myself with his scent left in the bed. Eren is already knocking on the door and like hell I'm going to answer.
"Levi… come on Levi I'll tell Mikasa to leave okay? I know it bothers you."
He was right. It bothered me because I know she loves him. I know that all she wants is to convince him I'm not enough. Like I don't already know that. Then I heard those magical words that made me unlock the bedroom door.
"Mikasa! Look you should probably go. Please leave. I'll call you in a bit I need to talk to Levi."
Thank God. I slowly unlocked the bedroom door and Eren grabbed my cold hands and rested them on his chest. I secretly love it when he does this and I hate that he knows I love it.
"Levi no one will ever replace you. I love you."
That was the first time he said I love you. Oh shit oh shit do I say it back? Yes of course I do.
"I um.. Same?" I pulled my face away completed embarrassed by my response.
He chuckled and pressed a kiss into my cheek. I wanted Eren so much and I will not live without him. And that terrifies me. It terrifies me knowing that this irrational jealousy is sparked by affection. My affection. For him.
I know I'm not enough. I know my sarcasm and lack of communication will drive him away one day and I'm trying. I'm trying to let him know I'm an actions speak louder than words person. I don't know if it's getting through to him though.
"Levi? You've been kinda staring into space and I'm getting worried." Eren was squeezing my thigh and I could smell his worry in the air. It weighed in the room and was thick enough to swallow.
"I'm- I'm fine I'm just disappointed in myself. I'm letting my emotions get the better of me and that's not who I am. I know how important Mikasa is to you and I shouldn't make you pick between us. This is childish, going to my bedroom? Jesus I feel like a kid." I raked my hand through my hair and fell back onto our bed, "I'm supposed to be strong."
He sat next to me and placed a hand on my chest, "You don't always have to be strong. I… I know. I know you feel like you're not enough and that's why you don't like her, because you feel like she is. And I know that's just because of your past relationship but Levi… I'm with you for a reason."
"What reason?" I pressed my head into his lap.
"Opposites attract I guess is the easiest way to put it. You call out my bullshit and show me I guess a softer side of life. And I hope I do that for you but the opposite if that makes sense. Like I hope I-I don't know like make your life a little more exciting." His face fell into his hands, "This is embarrassing."
"It's not."
-ding ding ding-
The doorbell. I don't even care.
Mikasa quietly spoke through the door, "I forgot my keys."
I managed a soft smile, "I need to clear my head. I'll be back in a bit." I grabbed my shirt and my shoes and with a quick kiss I left.
When I got into this relationship with Eren I was like a stray cat. I was broken from a past relationship with an abusive ex and it was a very "take" relationship. I didn't have anything to give and I made that clear and Eren didn't care. After some time that changed.
I was able to give parts of myself and take parts of him and we were both really happy. My fear is the one thing that constantly has held us back. It's what made me not want to bond with Eren and it's the thing that makes me mad that I'm not bonded with Eren. It's what makes me numb and quiet when I see someone in the least bit interested in Eren. I feel defenseless almost.
My fear is the thing that keeps me from telling him exactly how I feel and it's the thing that makes me look like I just don't care. I am scared shitless of losing him and I'm done. I'm done being scared of that because that's ridiculous, Eren told me he loves me and that he chose to be with me.
I'm going to try something new and trust someone.
I'm going to tell him. Everything, because there is so much I haven't.
Like we need to be bonded as mates; and not just because I love him.