Hey so this is the first fanfic that I've ever posted on this site. This takes place around the same time as the first chapter of CoHF. I read the excerpt and I just had to write about it.

Alec had had a tough time sleeping ever since...the event. Every time that he laid his head down he tossed and turned for hours until he finally woke up, panting, tears streaming down his face and his mind haunted by bright golden-green cat eyes.

It had been a while since...the event and it still felt like his heart was being slowly ripped out of his chest cavity.

For the first week, he barely even knew where he was. It just felt like he was wandering around walking through fog, ears stuffed with cotton. He couldn't focus, he couldn't speak, everything was nothingness. Alec had never felt so empty in his life as he did then.

After the initial nothingness, the pain rushed in. There were days that he couldn't even get out of bed. All he could do was lie there and cry. His siblings had come in, trying to make him feel better and he hated looking weak in front of them. He was supposed to be the eldest. He was supposed to be protecting them not the other way around.

Everyone already thought that Alec wasn't as good as Jace, or even Izzy, at anything. Every moment that he spent lying in that bed just further proved how right they were.

He had never hated himself more than he did in those moments. He hated that someone that he loved so much had done this to him. And he hated that he couldn't, for the life of him, let go.

Especially today.

Today was Magnus' birthday.

Alec had tried to ignore it. Tried to act like he was moving on, getting over it.

But it was Magnus' birthday.

Every second that passed made him feel guiltier. He couldn't help the fact that he did, in fact still care. When he had learned the date he had instantly committed it to his memory. He didn't want to ever forget it. He had wanted to be there for that day this year, and every year after until the end of his little forever.

But it had not worked out that way.

Even though they weren't together anymore he could still wish Magnus a happy birthday, right?

People who used to be together but no longer were- his next breath came out a bit harder than usual as he acknowledged the event in his mind- could still be friends, right?

But you had to talk to the other person in order to be considered friends. That thought brought on a whole new round of depression.

Alec ended up arguing with himself for a whole hour.

Magnus had remembered his birthday. It might have been one of Alec's best, having a chance to be with someone who cared about him deeply on the day that he legally became an adult in the eyes of the Clave.

But if the warlock picked up, what would he say?

Magnus had always been there for him. Listening to Alec talk for long periods on end and actually listening to it all when other people would have just grown annoyed.

But would Magnus even want to talk to him now?

Magnus- Alec really just wanted to hear the sound of his voice. Even if it was a rejection, at least he would be able to hear the sweet, slightly accented voice that he missed so much.

Finally, with his heart pounding so hard that he could feel it in every inch of his body he went to his contacts and pressed 'call' before he could talk himself out of it.

His heart was so loud in his ears, he could barely hear the dial tone.

It rang and rang. The boy didn't realize just how hard he was concentrating, his whole being consumed by the drumbeat of his heart and the shrill ringing in his ear.

He finally snapped out of his trance when it went to voicemail:

You've officially reached the high warlock of Brooklyn. I'm either extremely busy or just ignoring you. So leave a message, or not, and I might try to get back to you.

There is was. The voice he longed so much for and he had no idea what to do.

Alec hung up before he heard the beep.

SO I know it's really short but if you guys are interested I might be able to continue from Magnus' perspective.

Thanks for reading!