A/N: This is during the Eclipse time period. Italics are Jacob's thoughts to Bella that he wouldn't dare say aloud.
"Jake, I don't know what I would do if you left me. I think I would finally die." Bella said to me as we sat on my front porch. She had been acting very depressed today. I loved her, but these mood swings were confusing me. If that blood-sucker had done anything to her...
"Why would I ever leave you?" I asked, scooting closer to her.
"I don't know. I just keep worrying that one day I'll be alone." she said quietly as she stared at the falling rain. "I don't deserve someone like Edward. It just doesn't match up."
You're damn right it doesn't match up. He's a fricking vampire! He's just going to hurt you emotionally and physically. I would never hurt you! We would be so happy together, and I would always be there for you.
"But I don't deserve you either. Yet, after everything I've put you through, you're still here for me." she finished.
"Of course I'm still here." I said, putting my arm around her shoulders gently. I'll always be here for you. I won't ever stop fighting for you. You should know that by now.
"But you might leave someday. You might imprint." she whispered.
Dammit, here we go again. I hate being a fricking werewolf! This is so annoying and complicated. "It might never happen, you know. It's supposed to be very rare." I hope to death it doesn't ever happen to me. I can't imagine loving anyone but you, but if I did imprint you would be left alone again. I can't ever let that happen.
"But what if it does? Will you still be my best friend?"
I could be more than your best friend! I love you! I could be your boyfriend, your husband. We could have a semi-normal life and have kids and be happy! "Bells, I'll always be your best friend. But the problem is...will you always be mine?" It's hard to be my best friend if you're off making out with a vampire.
"Always! How could I ever stop?" she teased, leaning into my shoulder. This felt like the good old days before Edward decided to come back. Everything was going as planned, before he came back. Oh I dunno. You might stop if you turn into one of those bloodsuckers. You might stop if you realize I'm nothing but a complication in your relationship with him. You won't admit you love me too, so you'll just go off alone with your little Edward. Then I'll be the one who's alone. Then I'll be the one to die.
"I was wondering the same thing." I replied as we both sat in silence, listening to the rain fall all around us. How could you ever stop loving me? We had everything going for us. It was always a bit complicated, but it would've worked. Now...well...it's easier for you to stop than it ever was before; for me it's only gotten harder.
A/N: Ok, so this story has lots of potential but it needs some serious medical attention. Is anyone here a plastic surgeon? Moving on, I totally think Jake and Bella should have been together. This is just a little one-shot where Jacob gets all emotional about his love for Bella. Constructive criticism is appreciated, but only constructive criticism, mind you. Thanks for reading.