Chapter 1

Here I am on the red carpet, where I have been since I was 10, it was enjoyable at first but now its part of my weekly routine. I am happy for my success, but I am sad also I have few friends most people I guess are jealous, I don't understand I have never been in love and I have had very few boyfriends, most liked me because of my looks or money, my aunt put me into show business and all that when my parents and grandfather died in a train crash. My aunt adopted me unwillingly and put me into modelling and commercials we tried singing I am well good I guess but I am too shy. I still do modelling and few commercials, I am Tohru, Honda, world renowned model. But my celebrity name is Hiromi which means broadminded beauty my last name as a celebrity is Kanae meaning beautiful one, so right now at this moment I am known as Hiromi Kanae. I am going to a movie premier, alone, I hear the screaming fans the interviewers while I pose for the photographers. I am continuing my walking into the theatre.

"hey Hiromi!" screamed Hana who was lucky enough to keep her real name as a celebrity name.

"oh hi Hana how have you been I am so sorry I haven't been able to be in touch." I exclaimed as I thought about how long I have had this alias, almost 9 years next month, I am pretty used to it.

"oh no its nothing I have Uo but she sat it out to memorize her lines, you know that new movie she's making but I forgot what its called" Hana exclaimed as she sent a text message. Uo was into acting for movies Hana does singing its individual. They were both lucky and kept their names.

"anyway the movie should start soon so should we head inside? Oh I brought a date did you?" she asked me what she always does, she has never gone to a red carpet premier without a date.

"no actually I was busy you know in Japan another photo shoot for Lou Lou magazine" I was busy but decided again to go alone besides the many offers I got.

"oh too bad but you can join me and Hiroshi!" exclaimed Hana as Hiroshi approached linking their arms

"oh no I will be okay" I say but who really knows? I always end up leaving early, really early.

"oh well Tohru if you need me, oops I mean Hiromi text me if you need me!" Hana yelled as she disappeared through the theatre door. I guess I will wait out here till the movie ends or at least the paparazzi leave so I can leave.

"hey your Hiromi Kanae right? I was wondering if you want to do an interview?" the interviewer desperately asked.

"oh no I am so sorry I am too busy maybe another time" smiling warmly I get up and head to the washroom.

"okay I will call you! Um I didn't get your peoples numbers!" they yelled after me.

I entered the washroom completely empty, just the way I like it the quiet serenity, I think I will go to that coffee house in a bit, the 'Lucky Bean' I always get a laugh off the name and nobody ever goes there, I don't know why.

"oh so nice to see you! Hiromi" I heard the voice behind me.

"um nice to see you too…Kagura" I said as I swung my brunette hair which had blonde streaks now, to see to my horror Kagura. I took what was supposed to be her position in Lou Lou magazine, they didn't want her after everyone found out she had an eating disorder, it was all over the magazines, but I had to work double cause I was doing French Vogue too.

"I heard that you took over my part in Lou Lou Japan, cause of a…problem" Kagura smiled at the explanation. "I heard you also had a part in French Vogue, you know I knew you would take me over one day, just not so soon. With that damn curvaceous body of yours, the flawless flowing hair, and the flamboyant style you have, your zealous aura. Everyone likes you! You don't even have to try I miss those days when we talked about our crushes and future husbands! I liked it better when we were in grade 4!" Kagura now cried, I ran to embrace her.

" Kagura you don't have to starve yourself to be thin or be liked, nor do you have to pile make up on to be flawless and for hair you can blame your stylists if its bad, but I like it now! Kagura you just have to be yourself" me Tohru Honda was saying this?

When I was jealous of her and tried so hard to be like her, when I was 14 and ended up with an eating disorder, and way too much make-up on all the time. I just had to comfort her.

"when did we become enemies?" I whispered in her ear as she continued to calm herself.

"I don't know when we both decided to try out for the juice commercial and you got the part, when we decided we should be famous" Kagura replied sadly as she pulled away to compose herself.

"yeah I guess it was then, I am sorry I started to ignore you after then but doesn't mean you had to hate me" I replied serenely.

"I didn't hate you at first I grew to hate you" she replied sheepishly.

"oh well I guess I better head out, and lets pretend to hate each other still okay? I don't want to be tailed more by interviewers and paparazzi more than I already am" I said as I got to the exit of the bathroom. "remember though be yourself" I said as I opened the door.

"wait Tohru, why haven't you made an album yet? You have always had such a beautiful singing voice." Kagura asked me I stood there in astonishment at how she remembered my first talent.

"I mean in the musical arts school you were in choir and you were the best there while I was in piano lessons, oh and we both had a crush on Yuki and Kyo Sohma but we couldn't pick which one we really wanted for a husband" She laughed this out. I looked at her still astonished, she remembers everything?

"um I don't have the confidence to sing in front of people" I replied quickly as I ran out to cover my blush. I always did love those 2 I could never forget them I wonder where they are now? But that is not fate, why must I always tell myself this?…

Kagura…

Its so nice talking to the old her, or maybe she never did change, maybe it was me who changed, I wonder how she felt when she tried to reach me so many times and I just shunned her. Be myself she said, me would? What would the real me do? Well I guess I should start off eating my favourite food, and I could take up painting again. I need to eat I promise myself and for my new found friendship with Tohru no more eating disorders!

Tohru…

I wonder what time it is. If only I could find that dang phone or whatever its called its just stupid to call a technologic thing a 'blackberry'. Oh here it is! Oh god its that late? 9:47 then I have how long in the Lucky Bean? Never mind I will just wait till they kick me out. I stroll down the street under a black and white fedora with a beige trench coat, this came with the cost of fame. Here it is my quiet serenity it is still quiet but its filled with second class people, how I wish I could be them, theres no more seat so I take a chance to walk into the crowd to the ordering bar.

"nice to see a familiar face well at least to hear from one I cant really see you" announced Momiji the barista, he owned the coffee shop but chose to work at it.

"yeah I cant really enjoy myself when I cant find serenity, nice to see you too" I reply to Momiji, we have been friends since my first commercial. When I was 10.

"well the usual, mocha frappe cappuccino smoothie?" he asked me in his usual soothing voice, he has grown so much.

"yeah that sounds good I really do drink lots of this don't I?" I more so stated rather than asked.

"yeah that's the part I don't understand, you can stay so healthy and pretty when you drink so much of this." He smiled warmly and handed me my drink.

"on the house" he smiled again.

"oh no I cant accept it if its on the house! I mean I have the money and…um" I stuttered severely.

"just take it and leave a tip" He sighed now as he pushed the jar towards me.

"oh okay! I can do that. So what are all these people doing here, its like its morning or something." I looked around curiously.

"oh their just the people going through they have been on tour and awake for 2 days and are determined to stay awake until they get to Mexico." Momiji said laughingly.

"oh their brilliant but its not that far from here, the rough Hollywood." I said exasperatingly. "there's a lot of them but I guess I will take a seat I see a empty one finally." I waved to him goodbye and rounded around the other tables to the spot near the back. The only empty table I sit alone usually Momiji sits with me, but he looks quite busy he must have given the other barista's the night off, he's really nice that way all the time.

"what do you mean its my fault!?" said someone who entered the café I bothered not to look.

"I never did say I just said its your fault?!" growled the other voice who must have entered with him.

"no difference I don't get why I am being blamed or why your blaming me, you were just as involved" hissed the first man. They both sat down in front of me, both wearing baseball caps and leather jackets covering what they were wearing, I stared curiously at them, why had they chosen to sit across from me?

"who are you?" they stared at broodingly at her then their expressions softened.

"well I am Akira Daichi, meaning intelligent and great wisdom" the first man with grey hair said but looked quite young.

"I am Isamu Kouki meaning bravery and vast and strong" said the bright orange haired one.

"and that gives reason for you to sit here why?" I asked now annoyed.

"wait I thought you…" started the grey haired one.

"take your hat off" stated the orange haired one.

"what? You have no right to tell me what to do" I exclaimed. But the orange haired one had already moved to take it off he succeeded.

Akira…

What the hell was Kyo thinking well maybe he still thought this was Amami. But if this isn't her why is she hiding under that trench coat and fedora? Oh no he's taking her hat off what the hell if he makes that move Amami will get mad cause the fans will go mad!

Isamu…

Dammit what is wrong with Amami all I need to do is make sure it is her, I mean don't need someone inferior girl chasing us around again. This girl flinches way too much all I am doing is taking her hat off.

Tohru…

I glared at him as he removed my fedora. I watched my brunette and blonde streaked hair fall in front of my face they dropped their jaws as he dropped my fedora on the floor.

"your not Amami are you?" Isamu asked. Well that was apparently his name, he sounded dazed.

"no she's not she is Hiromi Kanae" Akira stated also dazed.

"meaning broadminded beauty and the beautiful one, I am the model" I stated as I swiftly removed both their hats.

"oh I see now your Akira the actor, and Isamu the rock star" I said blankly as I examined them. Both of them blushed. "and Amami the lead singer of your band" I stated happily.

"um yeah actually the place is loaded so can we sit here" stated Isamu.

"fine then both can sit here but don't think your inferior to me, cause your not to inferior to anyone in here" I said sternly.

"so have you gotten the offer yet?" Akira asked shyly.

"offer for what?" I say vaguely.

"well you see I am doing a movie and you were to get an offer for the main character, or one of them" he said quickly.

"oh um--" I started unsure, before I was interrupted by an ear piercing shriek.

"LOOK OH MY GOSH ITS, HIROMI, AKIRA, AND ISAMU" shrieked the girl who just entered this attracted all attention to us. Before I knew it I was being dragged along by Isamu and Akira. About 30 minutes later of sprinting we were in middle of a dark deserted park.

"thank you I guess but I am sorry I should have been the only one running away I removed your hats" I frantically apologised.

"nah its alright it was my fault I should have left your hat." Isamu said soothingly. I was surprised at his sincerity.

"yes I am so sorry my cousin had done that" Akira apologised sincerely also. I am still stunned.

Akira…

Wow I do hope this women gets the part or at least she wants it. She's so beautiful I can understand why she is a model, I couldn't believe it when she took her fedora off.

Isamu…

She's so beautiful how have I never noticed her before? hasn't she been to plenty premiers? I felt as though I have seen her before.

Tohru…

"so my place is near here, we could go there" I asked it is most likely that they will say no.

"sure" both replied in unison they sounded quite eager.

"okay but you high class guys won't mind walking will you?" I asked jokingly.

"no I can run cant I?" Isamu replied sarcastically.

"no not really" Akira replied monotonously as he texted someone.

"well then lets head on I can make some tea I really need some anyway, you don't mind cupcakes that's all I have at home." I said as I removed these 3 inch penthouse stiletto heels. We started to walk along, me barefoot.

"those look like those are a sore" Akira stated as he examined from beside me.

"yeah they are but I didn't choose them, my designer did." I replied thankful that I hadn't chosen such horrible shoes.

"so is Hiromi Kanae your real name?" Isamu asked me, I stopped in my tracks.

"how did you know?" I asked astonished.

"it was a guess, but apparently its not, look your pretty and all but that name is too good to be true" he stated and he blushed, so did I, was he hitting on me?

Isamu…

Shit did I just say that? Fuck I cant believe that what if she gets the wrong impression.

Tohru..

"thank you, its not my real name but are both of yours real? I mean I think he said you guys are related but different last names?" I tilted my head to the side confused, and continued my strut.

"actually we have celebrity names our surnames are Sohma, I am Yuki Sohma, he is Kyo Sohma" Akira, I mean Yuki? I guess, they were my elementary crushes and this is what has become of them, they don't fight as much as they used to.

"so your Yuki and Kyo from the musical arts school?" I ask curiously. They stared at me stunned and astonished.

"yeah" Yuki said inaudibly.

"oh , well maybe you don't really remember me" I mumbled and they both reached for my left hand and They turned it over to see the top of my hand.

"Hahahaha I knew it, seemed familiar" Kyo stated as he blushed furiously 'this is the girl from elementary, the girl I loved' Kyo thought.

'the girl me and Kyo had always fought over, haha a coincidence, I see why we loved her' Yuki thought as he looked at Tohru.

"Tohru Honda" Kyo said confidently.

"omigosh you remembered that's so considerate" Tohru said excitedly.

"it was the scar that told" in unison they said.

"yes I got that when someone was pushing me on the swing in grade 4" I said running my finger over the scar, trying to remember who it was.

"oh yeah sorry about that" came from Kyo as I looked at them both looked away again blushing and running their hands through their hair.

"but I don't think you guys did anything" I said running through my thoughts still.

"no me and Yuki were fighting over which one of us should push you on the swing and we end up pushing you too hard and you fell off the swing and got this giant gash" Kyo exclaimed as he hung his head, Yuki did the same.

"oh dear haha, well that's okay, um here we are I just have to find the stupid key" I said as I dug through this tiny purse that held like a billion things.

"is someone home? Or something there's a light on." Yuki pointed at the lit window. Oh no my aunt must be home I thought she was in the Bahamas'.

"um no I don't think so maybe I just left a light on" I said worried as ever if I brought 2 guys over she would think horribly of me, she had already thought I was useless until I was put in this stupid business. Oh the key!

"here it is" I say quietly as I open the front gate, the front door uses a card.

"nice place you got live alone?" Yuki asked as they entered through the gate.

"um no my aunt lives with me but she's always gone on my hard earned money I mean I am happy to help with her happiness but she takes too much and money doesn't make me happy" oh my god I cant believe I said that. Out loud. I am so stupid.

"oh yeah my dad used to do that but he got sent to jail." Kyo stated casually.

"my parents did that when I was younger, I moved out" Yuki stated as they came towards the front door.

"so you gonna be able to find the key for this one?" Kyo asked me I had a reply ready.

"yep its in my wallet it's a card key!" I smiled brightly. Okay now I have to find my wallet, so where is it? Uh oh, I hope I can find this.

"so can you find it?" Yuki asked as he knelt next to Tohru.

"um maybe?" I responded with glum.

"here just dump it on the ground" Kyo said pulling the purse from me. He dumped it all on the ground.4

"I am surprised at how much things you can fit in that tiny thing." Kyo said as he shuffled through my things, thankfully it wasn't my time of the month so I didn't have to carry those.

"I think you lost your wallet, do you have any open windows?" Kyo asked as he got up.

"oh yes in the back upstairs I painted the room and left the window open to air it out" I wonder if the paint is dry yet?

"oh we can climb through there than" Yuki said to me as he made his way around to the back.

"anything we can climb on?" Kyo asked as he went around to the back also.

"there's a rose supporter there" I remember the roses I planted last year.

"these are beautiful Tohru" Yuki said as he rounded the house and was probably looking at the flower patches and the rose climber.

"the striped roses, the pink ones are nice too, the celandines are cute but I think the best would be the gentians" Yuki told me as he went around looking at the flowers. I felt flattered but he probably thought I had a floweriest or something.

"girly boy" whispered Kyo this made me giggle but I hoped Yuki hadn't heard.

"so is this steady? I mean its not going to fall is it?" Kyo patted my rose climber.

"nope its sturdy even if all of us climb on it at once." this was a bad thing to say.

"okay you go first and we will follow" Yuki said indicating me to go first.

"okay but if I fall on you I am so sorry but thought I'd warn you first" I tell them before I make my way up the bush, I had climbed this so many times before and up it too, but only a couple of times I was brought home by the law. For goofing around and got caught.

"your pretty good at this" Kyo said as I heard him a few feet behind.

"you know Tohru I think your experienced" Yuki said I heard him a few feet behind I swiftly climbed into the window and waited for both of them. They came a minute or two later.

"that was fun but what should we do now that were here?" Yuki asked me as he searched for the light I haven't thought about that.

"oh there's supposed to be a movie on we could watch it I wanted to see it anyway." I said remembering it advertising.

"okay but I think we should close the blinds" Kyo said as he gazed out the window.

"why though? I like the starry sky." I said as I came up next to him Yuki followed on the other side of me.

"we have visitors and before I knew you were the Tohru I knew because I thought you were Hiromi but I see you get ambushed a lot, with questions" Kyo said as he closed the blinds.

"oh yeah I know I think they have to watch everything I do but still ask what I am doing." I stated as I remember blocking out their questions.

"so who planted you flowers? And the paint in the upstairs room is wonderful, who chose that? And who were your painters?" Yuki smothered me with questions which he had probably held for a long time.

"I planted and took care of my own flowers, I chose the paint upstairs and painted it myself." I said proudly I like being independent.

"you seem pretty down to earth for a high class looking model, also a world renowned one" Yuki remarked. "same old Tohru" he finished I felt a tint rise on my cheeks, has he really remembered be all these years.

"I don't think she is all that same, she has grown so much herself, but your eyes their different" Kyo remarked as he looked into my eyes, he realized this? It wasn't much of a change. "different I don't think so" I replied nervously. Actually this was nothing I was thinking about.

"yeah the colour" he said as he cupped my jaw so he cold look closer he was mere inches from my face.

"oh yeah I wear them to shield identity, mum always said I had one of a kind eyes. I wear emerald eye contacts, it's a colour they think is natural for me, my aunt says it's the only one she could think of to go with my skin tone" I reply hastily until he let my jaw go.

"the movie is coming on shall we watch it?" I asked them as I run to the T.V turn it on and plump myself on the couch.

"okay fine with me" in unison as Yuki sat on the couch Kyo sat on the floor in front of me. It was the last I remember before I drifted to sleep into my dreams in which were memories that night.

TBC…

(sorry if its succkish I know you know but I don't think anyone will read this, I will not update I guess till I see if it gets reviews)