I am alive yet dead

Disclaimer: I don't own any characters except Lucas.

Tris POV

I woke up. The light cut my eyes. It took all my willpower not to close them again. I sit up and look around for my mother and father, but I can't see them, probably because there are like a thousand people around me. I stand up to try to find my parents but I feel a sting in my heart so I look down to my chest and see a bullet wound. I'm in shock and look up to see my mother, she comes running to me and hugs me. I'm a little stiff at first but after a few seconds I hug her back. We stay like that for about a minute when my father comes and hugs us. We broke apart after a while and my father kisses my forehead.

"We have to go now." My father says.

"But you just got here!" I say. I Didn´t want them to go. I know it is selfish of me but I just saw them after missing them for months.

"We've been here for a while." My mother says and hugs me tighter.

"Good bye sweetie." My father says and they disappear into the crowd.

I try to make sense of what happened. I saw my mother and father who are dead. I am dead, I guess. Maybe I will see Will or Marlene or Lynn or Al or...or

Uriah.

Four POV

It still hurts. Like a wound unwilling to close. A stab right in the heart. I can't stop thinking about her, her beautiful blue/grey eyes and her golden blond hair. I would do anything to see her again but I know I can't. How is this possible, how could she just disappear from this world. One moment she's here and the next she's gone. I don't understand this she can't be gone. My thoughts wander from Tris to Zeke. God, I feel awful. I was supposed to watch over Uriah, but instead I get him knocked into a coma! How stupid can a person be! Just because I was mad because I wasn't pure! I wish I could rewind time and start from the beginning. Everything would be simpler. I wouldn't cringe every time I see my mother. Now I live with Christina. Just as friends, of course. I can't see myself without her, Tris. It was my worst nightmare and it had to happen to me, I know it's selfish to think like that and she wouldn't want me to think like this. Why did it have to be her, the only one I truly love? I don't say I loved her because I still love her and that will never change. Christina and I help each other; we're both depressed for the same reason so we enjoy each other's company. Our conversations usually go like this:

"Make any dinner?"

"No."

"What do you want?"

"Nothing"

"Me neither"

The only reason that we are alive is because of Zeke. He checks in on us every day and makes us eat and sleep. I'm almost never hungry, it's like I can't feel anything anymore. I know she wouldn't want me to be like this but I can't help it. I can't stop thinking about her she…was…so beautiful. I miss how it felt went we touched each other, the electricity that coursed through my veins, especially when we kissed, there is no way to explain it, time just stopped. I wish I could feel that way again but I guess that will never happen.

Lucas POV

I saw her. Golden hair and a shot to the heart. Hell, she aint pretty but none of us are. We are all fighters and I can see she has been through a lot. I'm waiting for my other half, could it be her, I can't be sure If I don't talk to her. I'm starting to walk to her when some woman runs over to her and hugs her, it´s probably her mother. A man comes a minute later and hugs both of them. They pull apart after a few minutes and he kisses her forehead, he's probably her father. They disappear into the crowd. I guess that they were waiting for her to come, some of them do that. She had landed right next to the 'ghost' someone who should be dead but is kept alive by machines. He had been getting more and more color in the last few days and you could start to make out the facial detail. I made my way over to her… or them… whatever you chose to call them. I stepped over another 'ghost' this one from world 3 I think. I could be wrong I still don't know the difference between the 4 worlds. I guess it is because I haven't been in here for so long there are some that have been here since Stone Age. We have all experienced death here, I for one thought that I was in heaven but it turned out that I was only in one of the stops between the worlds. In these stops we have to wait for our 'special someone' to come and take us to the 'other side' the next world which we hope are better than the one we were in. But we don't always get our wish I mean have you seen us here most of us have a hole through our bodies or an open wound. I had been walking and I now stood 2 feet from her.

"Hey." I said.

"… Are you talking to me?" She asked looking around.

"Yeah, that a problem?"

"No just thought that you couldn't talk or something you have been standing there for a… while, I think." she sounded confused I guess that she figured that she couldn't say how long I had been standing there.

"Yeah, sorry, I was lost in thought." I answered running my hand awkwardly through my hair.

"About what?"

"Huh?" I really didn't understand the question.

"What were you thinking about?" she said much slower like I was a toddler.

"Oh everything from you to open wounds…" She looked at her chest. "No not like your wound, your wound is a hole, made after a bullet, quick and easy death." I said rather rushed

"How did you die?" She asked looking me up and down. I started taking of my prosthetic leg to show her when she yelped.

"Put your foot back on I don't need to see any blood and gore…"I continued to take it off and she turned her head to the side.

"You can look now," I said as I held my prosthetic.

"You promise that there is no blood?" She asked.

"I promise." I say smiling. She looks and sees me holding a prosthetic.

"Cancer?" she asked.

"Cancer." I say.

"Your world… doesn't it have cancer treatment?"

"No, cancer is an omen of the devil. We chop off the part where the cancer is" I wiggle my prosthetic "Sometimes we can live a couple of years more, but most of us die in the surgery, I on the hand lived for a few weeks so I got my prosthetic."

"Your world doesn't have proper cancer treatment." She says like it's the most ridiculous thing she's ever heard.

"I know it's weird, but that is my worlds' weakness, we can't cure any sickness. If you ever go to my world I hope that you don't catch any disease."

"Okay…" she says not knowing what to say.

"How was it in your world?" I ask her.

Tris POV

I tell the guy how I died, all about the factions and war when I realize I don't know his name and he doesn't know mine.

"So…what's your name?" I ask.

"Oh, yeah I forgot to tell you… my name is Lucas, what's yours?" he says.

"My name's Tris" I say, running my hand through my short hair. "So…do you mind me asking how long you've been here?" I ask awkwardly.

"I don't mind but I'm not sure how long I've been here maybe 10 years or longer. There's no time here so you can't really know. Maybe I've been here for 5 years or even 100, but it feels like 10."

I don't know what to say, it feels weird knowing that there is no time. I feel like I've been here for like 10 minutes but maybe I've been here for hours. How long will it be until I see Christina and… Tobias. I can feel my eyes begin to water, when I think of him, but I close my eyes before anyone notices. Then I hear someone scream my name, a girl, I look up and see Marlene and Lynn. Marlene comes running up to me and hugs me tight, she lets go and asks

"Hi, how is everyone? How's Uriah?" I stare at her for a moment and then look at Uriah or his ghost that is beginning to look more and more like a human. She looks down at him to and kneels down beside him. By now Lynn is in front of me and says

"Hey, how's Shauna?" I'm about to answer but I'm not sure how she is I'm not sure how anyone is, not even if David lost his memory, I hope so. "I… I don't know Shauna didn't come with us outside the fence." I say and I can see her confusion.

"…Outside the fence? What do you mean? You went outside the fence?" she asked.

"Yeah, we did. Eight of us went outside the fence…"

"Which eight?" Marlene asked.

"Peter, Caleb, Tori, Cara, Christina, Uriah, me and…"

"And…?" They asked at the same time.

"And… To-Four."

"To-Four?" Lynn asked with a smirk on her face.

"Four." I said blushing.

"Hey I am here to," Lucas said. "And I kind of have no idea what or who you're talking about!"

"And do we care?" Lynn said looking at him.

"I guess not." Lucas says sighing.

"Sorry Lucas, Lucas, this is Lynn and Marlene" I say pointing to etch one of them in turn as I say there name. "Lynn Marlene, this is Lucas."

"Nice to meet you Lucas" Marlene said.

"You too, I guess you all new each other before you guys came here?"

"What do you think?" Lynn snapped.

"Yes we knew each other, we were in the same faction, Dauntless" Marlene said, being the ever nice person she is and gave Lynn an elbow shot in the ribs.

"Oh, is you elbow alright Marlene?" I say smirking

"It´s fine though I think I will have a bruise." Lynn said. "Thanks for asking though"

"Hey who's that guy staring at you?" Lucas asks me.

I turn around and I see Will.

An: Hey it's me Annalisa, I am starting a new story… again I will try and finish my two shot sometime soon. Right now I am writing this story with my friend, Mist, and we will make every chapter over 1700 words. We might update weekly but don´t count on it. We need OC's! PM me if you want your OC´s in this story! I will try to put most of them in this story even if they only have one sentence!

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Annalisa and Mist

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